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Bellême: A Week in Perche

By Toby Dossett

A week can be an awkward unit of time: too brief to claim familiarity and too indulgent to pretend it changed you. Travel writing had taught me to distrust the “short stay”, to almost apologise for it, to pad it with fact and disguise its thinness with beauty. The Perche region in Normandy, France, resisted this instinct, and I wanted simply to show the week as it was.

On Saturday morning, the bells of the Church of Saint-Sauveur spilled over tiled roofs into the Place de la République, drawing locals and visitors toward the weekly market. I followed the crowd through the stone archway and into the square, where garlic hung in thick, snug bundles and plump, grooved tomatoes blushed against half-timbered façades. Artichoke petals were lilac at the tips and tiny fresh radishes a deep pink. The sun was beginning to press down, and I swallowed the warm air in giant gulps. Stalls meandered across the square; at the far end, books and frames lay on the cobbles beside a pottery stall, crates of records and more antiques. My favourite piece there was a handcrafted rocking horse with a burnt-red saddle. A breeze tried to lift it into motion but only nudged it upwards so it looked permanently on the verge of rearing and bolting down the hill.

L’Église de Saint-Sauveur, a seventeenth-century reconstruction of a fifteenth-century church, sat at the town’s centre and looked down on the market’s slow churn. Inside, subdued light filtered through faded stained glass onto rows of straw-seated chairs. At the far end, the marble altar and tabernacle formed the main decorative focus, while the rest of the interior was restrained and pale. The ceiling lifted gently above the nave, its height felt more in the dark timber of the beams than in empty air, so that the proportions stayed balanced and the atmosphere calm. This calm was anchored by the mixed smell of stone, wax, incense and sudden gusts of cold air – a smell immediately recognisable to anyone who has spent time in old churches elsewhere in Europe. When I left, I stepped out through a curved doorway that felt almost like a portal in itself with the outside light already tracing its frame. On the tower, the most unusual feature was a clock placed deliberately off-centre. I wondered why, as it seemed quietly defiant, and so I was glad I’d noticed it despite the sheets of light layering down in front of it; we don’t look up enough these days.

The oldest house on the square bore the date 1580 carved into its stone, and Rue Ville Close, the oldest street, was lined with half-timbered houses that leaned conspiratorially towards one another. Six antique sundials were scattered across façades in the rest of the town; it would have been easy to spend an afternoon hunting them down one by one. The buildings that held antique shops and small galleries appeared barely altered by their commercial lives. One such shop, Métamorphoses – Bois Métal Lumière – specialised in elaborate door knockers, their faces, animals and abstract whorls made it easy to imagine the elaborate doors they might one day belong to.

From the square I followed the edge of the medieval wall, still mostly intact, and stopped at a plaque explaining how Bellême had once been the seat of a powerful Norman barony. The original arched gateway, the Porche de Bellême, which I had walked through not an hour earlier, still framed the town’s entrance, while fragments of ramparts slid down towards what remained of the old moat. A single swan circled the pond, leaving an oval of ripples that continued to widen, like loops of a gaze. From the bottom of the slope, I could see the houses on the hill bending down to peer into the passing streetcar windows; the whole skyline carouselling past in separate panes of glass.

Later in the week, on Tuesday, we walked through the forest near Belforêt-en-Perche to find the Fontaine de la Herse. The site consisted of two landscaped basins ringed by six sandstone blocks; on two of them, Latin inscriptions translated as “To Aphrodite” and “Consecrated to the lower deities, to Venus, Mars and Mercury”. It was a small Gallo-Roman sanctuary in a clearing, its stones darkened by their time in the water. In the forest, rain nibbled at the leaves and the path softened underfoot. When we stopped by the side of the path, I noticed a heart-shaped patch of moss on a tree, a deer with wings on a waymarker and several stacks of cut logs waiting to be taken away. I wanted to roll the ends of those logs with ink and press them onto a large canvas, to see if I could keep their intricate rings forever if they were only going to be burnt or chomped into chippings. We ended the walk with chips and a beer, a hot, salty round off to all the green and grey.

The next morning, tractors in the neighbouring field pulled us awake. We had coffee in the sun, spooning sugar from the tarnished yellow tin. Louise and I went down to see the horses, (she enjoyed feeding the smaller one green apples) and we managed to free a tiny blackbird from a wire trap. We collected eggs from the chickens, while Pop set up his easel, painting the house from different points in the garden at different times of day, tracking the light like a human sundial. The house itself had old beams and plain corniced walls, and a long, benched dining table in the kitchen that invited chopping and spreading and laying out. Lunch was crisp baguette with slabs of salted butter and a salad of roughly chopped beef tomatoes – tomatoes that tasted briefly, insistently, of having been somewhere else that morning. They were drowned in olive oil, splashed with balsamic, and finished with a generous throw of salt and purple basil snipped from the herb bed by the back door. We ate cantaloupe melon afterwards. In the evening Jérôme scattered thyme onto the fire while he cooked the meat, and we drank wine from Bourgogne while Jacques Brel and “Alexandrie, Alexandra” by Claude François triggered tipsy singing round the table. A dozen lanterns hanging from the nearby trees cast small, steady circles on the floor, encouraging the night to move on inverted wings, aloft.

Mortagne-au-Perche gathered itself around the Église Notre-Dame, with its hexagonal terracotta tiles, pale stone exterior and a square edged with cafés, estate agents and bookshops (many Parisians enjoy long weekends in the region and rent.) We took an early coffee there, watching Thursday’s shoppers move between stalls and neighbours greet one another. Sixteenth-century houses organised themselves beside modest modern buildings without fuss. In one window, model cars and bottles of cognac were lined up in rows and in another, an antique shop was so densely layered that, staring into the glass, I came to see that each item had a label from who it was donated by.

From there, we drove on to La Chapelle-Montligeon to see the Basilica of Notre-Dame de Montligeon, a muted stone structure set against open countryside. Inside, the space was high and white and full of gathered light. Nuns dressed in white moved quietly between the pews, a line of similarly dressed children followed. During our visit, a choir rehearsal filled the nave with children’s voices that rose easily into the vaulted ceiling. I didn’t understand the words, but the sound travelled along the ribs and arches of the building, and it was enough just to sit and listen.

On our last day we drove an hour or so out to Le Mans and climbed up into the Plantagenet City. At the Place des Jacobins market, stalls were packed close together, selling old stamps, enamel pins, waxy paintings and hundreds of second-hand books. Watches and jewellery cases glinted on blue tables, and beautifully carved violins leaned against their cases in the sun. The town hosted a medieval festival each year, but we had just missed it, though we could sense the anticipation for banners to be raised in the following days. We crossed the square and followed the old town’s narrow, colour-beamed streets as they rose towards the cathedral.  Along the way, we spotted a carved doorway depicting Adam and Eve which stood beneath a teal-framed window, where a scruffy dog had wedged its head between the shutters and was almost dribbling down onto the cobbles below. 

Inside Le Mans Cathedral, the great sixteenth-century organ anchored the space; light drifted in and glanced off its pipes so that it looked as though it were in a shimmer of shallow water. In one of the chapels, nine angels backed by red were painted high on the ceiling and we lit candles and thought about our loved ones: each of us held for a minute in our own small pool of light. We spent half an hour or so admiring the space until lunchtime where we ate pizza in the Place de la République. Then my dad led us through the backstreets to find Robert Doisneau’s 1962 photograph of a little girl and her teddy bear; above the arch, a toy bear in the window still stood in for the child frozen in the image. 

(Robert Doisneau’s 1962 photograph) 

We left the Perche region with the sense that we were only just beginning to get our bearings. It had been a rare kind of trip: three generations together, exploring a part of France that was new to all of us, fitting markets and forests and basilicas around shared meals, games of boule and long conversations in the sun. As we drove on towards Rouen, the week sat behind me like a sequence of modest scenes: a swan circling a moat, thyme on a fire, a heart-shaped patch of moss, a bear in a window. On their own, they didn’t seem spectacular enough to hold my attention, but linked together they felt like the start of knowing the Perché – or at least of wanting to know more.

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Pigeon-Collared Sunday 

By Toby Dossett

A bell-clear Sunday, elbows lodged strut firm 
On the top bar of a gate, inspecting livestock.
Elms gold and half-leafed 
Early autumn morning, hesitated
Rain-flirt leaves, guttering
Snub and clot of the last brown cones
When speaking of birches,
The white of their bark
As cool and suffused as a satin dress

Head on hip and hand on heel
I took the path to settle myself
November prospects
Matter in its planetary stand-off,
Dulled dark argent, roundly wrapped
And pigeon-collared in the drifting light, 
Aporia, reticence, deleterious thoughts
Wielded thin as wind

A passing year, wily dovetailing
The way swans coax you into deep water
There was never a moment
When I had it out with myself or with another,
The loss occurred offstage
And yet I cannot disavow words like 
Host, or prayer or gratitude
They have an undying tremor and draw
Like well water far down

A cold clutch, a whole nestful 
All but hidden
In the starting autumn leaf mould
And I knew
By the mattress and the stillness of them, rotten
Making death sweat of the morning dew
That didn’t so much shine their shell
As damp them 
I was on my hands and knees down there in the wet
Breath beaten and rapt in resquiescat

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a blacksmith’s bookmark

By Toby Dossett

now the light is cantaloupe and terminal.
a city smells of rain and resignation,
lying on the grass,
unmade and unmaking
i face the cathedral’s spine
the bruised sky is left
beneath the pretext of haste,
rapture and longing,
a blacksmith’s bookmark,
those water-burning words,
shyness at newness, 
an emptiness behind,
whom I cleave to, hew to,
he’ll wait a while 
before he kills the light.
and politely we both 
pretended, performing sincerity,
then dismantling it for your comfort.
who rearranges silence into affection?
there is no honesty left to ask for,
he’d drive through aspiration
and pretence, for instruction,
keeping us together when together,
all declarations deemed outspokenness.
angry at something
how many hours were we rain-swept?
what did he wish for then?
revealed but better hidden
during those hours when we lose interest 
in what needs to be done
so, one of us became the forsaken lover
who might wave from a subtitled dream
at the outskirts of a particular kind of writing
covert during a tender alliance
like hidden stairs down into a pond.
more and more, this last look 
of the forged wet
shine of the place is what means most to him.

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Sri Lanka, By Rail and Rain

By Toby Dossett

Kandy

You arrive in Kandy, porous with travel fever. It’s your first time in Sri Lanka, and you could build temples out of the things you don’t yet know about this pearl of the Indian Ocean. The heavy air is filled with the yawns of dogs and the groans of traffic. It’s 07:15 on a random Tuesday in June and you find yourself in the queue to put your sandals away, before entering the Temple of the Sacred Tooth. You hand a thousand rupees to the attendant with a scribbled white beard, then step inside. The revered Buddhist temple was originally built in the 16th century within the Royal Palace Complex, and shelters what is believed to be the sacred tooth of Gautama Buddha. The stone steps, worn smooth by pilgrims, press history into your soles as incense curls through the courtyard. Milk, rice, and lotus flowers are offered reverentially by those who queue to see the sacred left canine through the golden hatch on the upper floor. It’s said that the tooth carries both spiritual and political power, with guardianship of the relic historically linked to the right to rule over the island. After the hatch closes, you follow the queue downstairs and head back outside into the powdery rain. A class of schoolchildren dressed in white, a cyclist, and two wiser women with umbrellas thread across your field of vision – all squinting as the downpour thickens. You collect your sandals, dart across the temple gardens, and slip into a tuk-tuk with a fleeting silver crown of monsoon mist.

Fifteen minutes from Kandy city lies your next stop: the Royal Botanical Gardens at Peradeniya. 

Established in 1821, under British colonial administration, and spanning more than sixty hectares, the gardens cradle over four thousand species of plants, many of which are endemic. You queue again for a ticket, which costs one two hundred rupees, and follow the main path until it opens into a wide green bordered by tall, lean trees. Sunlight settles like benediction on your skin, and the air hums with chatter as families run across the sloping hill. You notice an elderly couple holding hands on a bench (her head nestled perfectly into the nook of his shoulder) and a central wise tree that stretches its limbs across shaggy grass and toppled rock. Someone has placed stilts to support each branch’s reach; the leaves gleam a grateful, glossy green. You continue down the path and hear the strange screeches of what seems like a migration of birds. There’s no obvious fluttering in the sky, but on closer inspection you see the ornamental dangling of a thousand bats which adorn the canopy like living leaves that sigh and stretch in the afternoon sun.

Sigiriya

You set off early and drive north to Sigiriya, arriving just after eight. The air is still cool when you get out of the car, a slightly indecisive chill makes you wonder if you’ve dressed appropriately. Your driver seems to know everybody here, exchanging itinerant handshakes on his journey to the tourist office. Guarding the building are two extensive ponds brimming with lilac waterlilies that bathe in the water, acting as the perfect mirror of the pale morning. You follow the path into the water gardens and immediately see the large monolithic rock, a burnished orange and grey. The sun is just starting to peek out behind it, turning its jagged outline into a shimmer as if it had just caught alight. In the foreground the gardens stretch in symmetry, and a dusty nosed dog repositions as it agrees to an extra five minutes snooze. The ancient horizontal lines in the brickwork spiral out from the water and are cut through by the path of a white-throated kingfisher, who then perches on the tip of a fading lily. In awe you think, does a precious bird comprehend the language of its wings?

The climb begins through the remnants of the old city, between boulders etched with the faint impressions of ancient steps. You pass through the mouth of what was once a colossal carved lion and ascend the 1,200 perilously perched stairs to the summit. Sigiriya rises nearly two hundred metres above the plains as a massive pillar of granite occupying the valley. From the summit you can see the marvelling remains of King Kasyapa’s fifth century citadel, dating back to between 477-495 AD. Below you can trace the water gardens and then the surrounding landscape which is a mosaic of dry zone forest, rice paddies, and large wetlands. You then descend before the sun climbs too high and the winds grow wilder (you’ve already accidentally swallowed two flies). On the way down, you verge along the rock and up a narrow spiral staircase to access the rock’s overhanging cliff face. Enduring underneath, in muted ochre and coral pigments, are the famous ancient frescoes. 

Kandy to Nuwaria Eliya

You make your way to the station, buy your ticket (knowing you’ll never sit still for long), and find your place among the waiting crowd. Overhead, a crow’s nest tangled in wires squawks, mimicking the loudspeaker as it announces the next departures. You hear the distant toll of temple bells and stand for a second and listen to a city humming in minor chords. A man in white strolls down the platform and, with insouciant steps, crosses the tracks while the train pulls in. For a moment the rails inundate him and the world starts to be mesmerised by lines, sounds, and the texture of your tongue. The sharp crack of a horn, a baby waving from the window, a conductor’s whistle; you are thirsty and dazed. You board the carriage and take a breath. Now everything Kandy has been, its colour, its noise and its slow devotion folds itself away into rolling railway motion as the train departs.

The journey from Kandy to Nuwara Eliya coils four hours through the central highlands, going past waterfalls, veiled green tunnels, and tea fields fluent across the hills and dense forests. You abandon your seat and decide to stand at the open end of the carriage, where wind hurls itself at you and  wraps you tightly before vanishing back off into the hills. You wander carriage by carriage in search of the canteen cart, and hear music drift from ahead: a mix of ‘Rambarini’ on the radio and loud, idiomatic chatter. Hoping for a coffee (or maybe a beer,) you settle yourself down on a wooden bench beside the bar. You’re received by an open window that frames the passing world of small mountain villages that coruscate like an overexposed reel of film, strobing in light through the eucalyptus leaves. 

The train slows down, and the mist thickens as you near the platform. You step down and the altitude bites softly at your lungs, almost two thousand metres above sea level, crisp enough to make your hair lift and your thoughts clear. The town spreads before you as you walk up the main road, presenting facades painted in muted pastels, which prompt the town’s echoing colonial nickname of ‘Little England’. The population here is just under thirty thousand, yet the town brims with abundance that spills from tea leaf markets and roadside shops. 

Horton Plains 

At five in the morning, you leave Nuwara Eliya, when the town still feels half imagined in the dark. The minivan climbs up winding roads until you stop briefly on a copper-coloured ridge to see the slow unfurling of light across the topography. It takes nearly an hour to reach the first checkpoint of Horton Plains National Park; a brick archway marks the entrance, alongside a dark green UNESCO sign noting the park’s establishment in 1988. After paying the entry you drive the final ten minutes through tall dew-covered grass, where the antlers of a young sambar deer survey above the blades before disappearing again. Erroneously thought of as an elk, the sambar is native to the Indian subcontinent and, though red listed as a vulnerable species since 2008, still roams quietly over the central highlands in docile herds.

Boots laced, you begin the nine-and-a-half-kilometre loop clockwise through the silvered grasslands, the air thin and oddly metallic. After a turned descent, you detour five minutes from the trail down to see Baker’s Falls; a collapse of white water crashing across rocks before spilling into the valley below. Twenty minutes later, the path steepens before softly plateauing to reveal an eight hundred and seventy metre drop. Ahead, the subtle geometry of tea plantations expands, and you can make out the pale outline of the Uda Walawe Reservoir. Farther still, through promising quick mercies before the fog arrives, the horizon stretches all the way to the ocean.

Across the remainder of the trail, birds call out forlornly and flit between the lichen-spotted canopy: the Black-naped Monarch, the Grey-headed Canary-flycatcher, and the Yellow-eared Bulbul; amongst some that you can identify with binoculars. Near the end of the hike from above the valley, you watch a movement stir on the fringe of the forest; purple-faced langurs argue in short, impatient bursts. Their monkey sounds are carried into the wind and return the height of the plains to its original equanimity, as if the morning were beginning all over again.

Galle

You head under the main archway and Galle materialises diligently in stone: an old Dutch citadel first built by the Portuguese in 1589. Clinging to the curve of the coast, Galle is shielded by sun-worn ramparts and a series of bastions, surviving after the 2004 tsunami. You find the fort quite quick to walk round and decide to slow down by stepping into an old wooden doorway that marks the entrance of a poorly advertised museum. In the first room, you find a gallery of stamps and old bank notes alongside historic yellowing maps of trade routes, city plans and major roads. The frames catch light from the next room where, resting in tall glass cabinets, is an improbable collection of things. Old spectacles, typewriters, cigarette cases, pistols, delicate necklaces, cameras, fountain pens and porcelain are all housed in separate neat collections, reminding you subtly of the intense Western interference in Sri Lanka. Through the open door at the end of the room, you can then see out across the courtyard where a man with a tarnished magnifying glass inspects a precious gem. He twists it in his hand several times over, puts it down on the desk and then grunts, while another old man smokes a cigarette in a chair with armrests carved into tight wooden spirals. 

You walk the ramparts in the afternoon and think that the sea reflects too much light. So, you scan down to see children swimming in the bay, calling out to one another and jumping in from the edge (hopefully one of the deeper spots,) where the waves aren’t beginning to tumble and crash. Chirping parakeets wheel above the lighthouse, its white body frames the rest of the port in your field of vision alongside a great banyan tree that’s draped heavily with vines. You continue through the streets and arrive at the post office, where a woman in a sapphire sari slides a set of butterfly stamps across the counter. You slip them into your little book in exchange for some coins and carry on in search of a bar to watch the evening from. 

Close

You end your trip in Habaraduwa, a small town a few miles south of Galle that has a panoramic view of the sea with beaches less bustled with fishing boats. Earlier in the day you saw turtles in the breach of the waves and fishermen casting lines from stilts as you walked down the coast. You’re unsure how to end a travel article exactly, you’ve loved expressing the interstices of noticing all those small moments on your journey but are stumped attempting to express any grandiose revelations of your time here. You think how Sri Lanka was such a wonderful adventure, and sitting on a curly piece of driftwood as the sun sets, you write a short poem instead: 

The sea turns to copper
And the horizon is bent
A bow strung with light
Until the evening is spent
The palm fronds scribble
Against the shaken sky
As its hem is sewn shut
By the fish eagles fly
They thread clouds of gold
To crown the stretch of sand
While crashing waves unfold
On Sri Lanka’s southern land

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Poetry

Lessons in Fern-Curl and Flight

By Toby Dossett

We get deer in the field over the wooden fence,
Some with antlers that poke out of the tall grass at the start of autumn, 
When the ferns have begun their retreat.
If they’re feeling brave, 
They will vault the fence,
(you can sometimes catch them in the morning)
And they venture to the apple tree that we planted several years ago
And catch the last fruit of the season
Before it rots on the ground and joins the earth and bugs,

In summer we get dragonflies and butterflies and lots of bees,
Once, the bees settled in the panelling of the house and I wanted them to make their home there,
I like the sound of their teamwork,
Another summer, an adder decided the best sunbathing spot 
Was in the middle of the drive, 
I told everyone that if I was an adder,
I would sit on the gravel and soak up the sun much the same, 
He was left undisturbed,

If you stay up late at night, in July
The bats are active just before the dewiness seeps through the ground, 
My brother took a great photo of the dew, 
It’s one of my favourites,
There are badgers that burrow on the little hill near the beds of moss, 
I never see them but follow their intricate paths through the pine trees, 
When I was younger I made a map of the woods, 
It even included the swamp on the other side of the brook, 
(you need big wellies to go exploring there)
Where the big skunk cabbage grows, 
The map is still on our kitchen fridge.

You can collect pinecones, touch the curl of ferns,
Admire the silver birches dappled with lichen, Guess which trees the sparrows are nesting in,
Climb the fallen tree and test your balance, And lie on the plume moss,
You can do all of these things in this place, 
My dog Honey loves the woods too, 
She sprints round and round the loop, 
And when you call her
She bounces like a gazelle through the bracken and gold of the browning fern, 
She chews sticks in the place that’s calm for meditation
And licks her paws when she treads on a thorn,

Not many other walkers have found this place, Because the bridge across peanut butter brook, 
(it’s stained rusty orange with copper)
Is very frail and thin,
You wouldn’t want to fall in,
Which Pop did once,
And he was very grumpy over Christmas dinner,
The holly is becoming invasive there now,
I try and pick out the little shoots before they become too pesty, 
And I always prick my fingers,
And then I’m left with a sting that’s maybe saying, 
Leave the woods alone,
it’s doing what it wants, 
(but I certainly don’t want the woods to be full of holly bushes) 
((that would not be pleasant))
I will think of a solution in the meantime,

The woods help me to watch the seasons
And break up the time of my own
Yearly existence
I know which trees do tree things when, 
And when foxgloves should start to appear,
My mum’s favourites are:
The lilac bluebells
(more things should be lilac in this world)
which blanket the grove on the way up to the field, 
The trainline runs perpendicular to, 
The frosted grass in the winter, 
I like to spot the red-kites
Beady eyed and engaged 
In dogfight and the hunt
We sometimes watch each other in harmony,
Because they know I don’t scare away the field shrews. 

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Poetry

Absence

By Toby Dossett


The forest holds the language of grief

With a fluency I am yet to master

Saplings bow under the weight of the sky

That speaks only in questions

A stag’s steps are forgotten promises

Moving like the edge of a dream

The shadow of a boy I once knew

Is he watching me like I want him to?

The hawk tears too

Crying, waiting

What does it hunt

If not the silence between us? 

Like when I call the stag

But my voice is a stone that sinks

He tilts his head

I’ve stopped longing and he knows

The laughter we left hanging in the branches

Alike the memories we whispered to the fire

Now dust upon dust

Was it you who taught me

How to carry the weight of an empty clearing

Or was it the wind

Always pulling, always leaving

To become is to mourn

Still, the forest holds us

Roots tangled with absence