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A psalm for the moment:

By Lyra Button


a palette knife twisting together 

grey and white paint

lathering clouds onto the night. 

Embellishing all the skys mysteries 

with faint angels and fluffy cotton owls.


 the rain gossips on paving stones

and wuthering winds whisper to willows

 in a language I’ll never know. 


Theres a barn

broken in bales of hay,

and a fire in the corner 

fluttering like a red winter robin.


Theres two sheep. 

a dapple grey horse

 and three cows. 


Their heads 

all leaning on eachothers bodies

 so quiet 

that I can’t picture it as

 anything

 but prayer. 


What I mean is that a thousand philosophers

 couldn’t teach me anything about God,

that I could not learn by giving 

my old Nan a pair of hand knit socks. 

Noticing her smile, all slight and celestial. 

and feeling the tiny move of a hand onto an arm.


We make so much of the miracle 

that we lose hold of the moment, 

and miss its dog eared corners

 of ordinary magic.


You can spend years deciphering

 the mechanisms of the sky,

but all that means nothing when weighed against 

that simple moment beneath stars,

as fingers lace together.


The world does not ask you to understand her.

just that,

while you have breath, you use it for kindness,

while you have fingers, you use them for such things

as making soup.

And so long as you live, you live in wonder.


A miracle is just a moment worshipped properly

Call it love.                Call it God. 


Whatever name it holds 

   I hold it,

      sacred.


So I sit

 with my family.

hands round a cup of coffee

 that holds the whole worlds happiness.


hand out Christmas cards and presents,

point out the brushmarks in the clouds.

Watch my Dads smile and hold it tender.


 I take my cup,

dip a biscuit

in the warmth of ordinary dreaming

and drink.


I feel my love and call it 

  prayer. 


Whatever name it holds

   I hold it, 

        sacred.

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Porto to Santiago

By Gabriel Wyszynski

6:30AM on the 28ᵗʰ August and I have folded my swinging limbs

into my Easyjet seating ration. With the seat in front filing down

my knees and the row behind occupied by children

hurling their feet and screaming, any attempt at sleep was futile.

This lack of sleep did not dim the sparkling tiles of Porto on

arrival however, which set a good precedent for the long term

sleep deprivation I would endure throughout this journey. We

didn’t spend long at our first stop (just one night) on

account of a tight schedule, but Porto charmed us. We spent the 

day trying as hard as possible not to be tourists: between our

dawdle along the estuary promenade and our cathedral visit (a

colossal structure gleaming over the city and decked with blue

and white tiles all over its complex interior) we sought out the

dingiest looking eateries in a desperate but by no means fruitless

effort to find the best food Porto had to offer. Our bellies full

from a day of eating and drinking, we got ourselves into bed by

11:00PM, readying ourselves for a two week, 270km odyssey along

the Iberian West coast.

We began at 9am the next day; we were engulfed in mist, 30

pounds heavier (on account of our packs) and 100 euros poorer

(on account of the previous day’s indulgences). In spite of all

these adversities we knew the Cathedral of Santiago de

Compostela awaited, and held our spirits high. That was until

about 15km in, when the sun came out and sizzled off the

tarmac of Porto airport, where we found ourselves once again,

this time walking the length of it. Dazed and confused on

account of the heat and our hunger, a little inconspicuous cafe

slowly revealed itself to us, bringing with it offerings of braised

gizzards, fresh bread and perfectly creamy espressos. We

left the café feeling lighter while Oliver (my travel partner) and I

found ourselves snapping at each other much less than we had

before our lunch. After a very long day of walking, ending

in Povoa de Varzim, a suburb some 35km North of the centre of

Porto, we scouted out a suitable spot to set up camp before

sundown, settling on a clandestine corner of a public park. Our

bohemian approach to sleeping arrangements was another

symptom of my austere budgeting, something that only

occasionally caused rifts between me and my travel partner. We

settled down for a night of half sleep, preparing for our 6:00AM

start, which would be daily practice for the next two weeks.

The next day brought us to the blinding white beaches of

Esposende. Having started our day once again enveloped in

the Portuguese morning mist, it was with great relief that we

arrived at our next scheduled destination by midday, greeted

with a resplendent sun and a beautiful beach caressed by the

ice cold Atlantic waters. We camped again that night a little

further North, approaching the town of Marinhas. Two days into

the walk, we were starting to take note of the many reappearing

pilgrims, some of whom would become very close friends of

ours. This feeling of pilgrim fraternity was quite evident from the

beginning of our walk, with the “bom caminho” (which later

became “buen camino” as we crossed the Spanish border)

wished from the lips of every pilgrim we passed, and the familiar

smiles of people we had never spoken to. Maybe Oliver and I are

too acclimatised to London’s lingering sense of dread, but this

palpable joy in everyone we passed resonated greatly with us.

We agreed to camp for one more night before settling in a

hostel, having planned to spend total of four or five nights in

hostels, just to break up the wearing stretches of nights spent

under tent cover. The sun was strong the next day as we

crossed bridges connecting the banks of great estuaries, but

the mist began to roll in as we approached our destination of

Carreço. We pitched our tents on a bed of decaying leaves in

the vast Litoral Norte nature reserve, sheltered by a canopy of

bark-shedding eucalyptus trees and fog. This day was the

hardest, on account of a disagreement between me and my friend 

which left my lunch of tripe and butterbeans tasting sour.

One of the joys of pilgrimage, however, is the daily meditative

reflection that comes with walking, something which becomes

ever rarer with society’s increasing lack of balance between

work and leisure. So, with an hour’s walking and some

exchanged apologies, we went to sleep feeling light and

appreciative of each other, quite relieved at the prospect of a

hostel the following night.

From the plastic mattresses and pillows to the cold stone floor,

our municipal hostel in the border town of Caminha was pure

luxury. Unlike our camping days, with the evenings spent

waiting for sunset to put our tent up, today Oliver and I have the

whole afternoon to take in the town. We dawdle across the

glittering cobbles, free of our bags, the slap of our flip flops

against our sore soles making quite an unpleasant sight (and

smell) for the locals. It was a delightful day, however. We ate a

lot, we drank a little more, and we had the most beautiful

encounters throughout the day. Just 20 minutes after waking in

Carreço, a grumpy toad crosses my path, disgruntled by the

disturbance, then, an hour before sleeping in Caminha, three

Eurasian spoonbills fly over my head in a chevron. Caminha was

a charming town, dotted with medieval churches in the

Portuguese Manuelino style, an elaborate twist on the Gothic,

leaving no room for lack of detail in the complex masonry. We

spent the evening sipping cold beer in the town square,

serenaded by a sweaty and sun-creased busker tearing at his

violin strings, and got an early night, jumping at the chance to

sleep in a real bed.

The following day started with our entry into Spain,. We crossed

the Minho estuary crammed onto a little motor boat, with the

Galician rain reaching out to greet us. The rain dampened our

spirits as we made our initial ascent into the mountains, but a

few hours later, after filling our bellies with croquettes and fried

cod, the sun came out to greet us, which was all the better

because we had a soggy tent to dry out. Whilst folding our tent

up, after leaving it out to dry, I spotted two inquisitive faces peering

at us over a wall. They were two noisy Italian boys who were in

our hostel the night before. We didn’t exchange any words last

night, save a “ciao bello” from one of them, but I smiled

and waved nonetheless. That night we camped in Baiona, or

rather on the rocky edge of a hill overlooking Baiona. The tent

pegs barely made it in the ground, a recurring problem

throughout our time sleeping on Galicia’s rough terrain. We

walked an obscene amount that day (another 35km) so we

agree to limit our distance the next day, to avoid getting to

Santiago ahead of schedule.

Again, we rose at 6AM, we walked along Baiona’s seafront and

swampy marshes, we stopped for a coffee and a pastry an hour

in before resuming. By noon we were beyond our destination for

the day, which was an apt excuse to spend the rest of the

afternoon on the beautiful beaches of Panxón. I ate a pork loin

sandwich, drank a beer, waited an hour or so to digest it all and

charged into the Atlantic, without giving myself a second to

reconsider submerging myself in the ice cold waters. The sand

sparkled with tiny fragments of quartz, gently exfoliating my

sore feet. A lanky spire lords over Panxón’s skyline, sparkling

over a domed roof, tall and thin like a moorish minaret. After

spending a few hours letting the sea and sand lull us away,

evening approaches, and we set off to find a supermarket

dinner and a camping spot. We settle for a plot just at the side

of the Camino path, and, on account of our conspicuous spot,

cross paths with a dog walker. He is lovely; he introduces

himself and his dog, tells us of the 20 pilgrimages he’s taken to

Santiago over the last 20 years, and gives us his exact address

in case we need anything. An hour later, as we squeeze into our

sleeping bags, the exchange still has us beaming.

The next day brings us to Vigo, a hyper industrial and fast paced

port, and the most populous city in Galicia. It’s a charming

place; art nouveau apartment blocks stand boldly in front of the

cranes lining the port. The architecture is tastefully modern: the

few obtuse 21st Century glass structures are drowned out by

ornamentations of the last two centuries, the floral and geometric

motifs of Vigo’s buildings frame the Galician mountains and sea.

We feel quite at home there; a hideous P&O cruise ship has

brought with it a haggle of old tomato-faced Brits, and I can’t

help but smile as I overhear their endearing attempts at

speaking Spanish as they order their black teas with milk. We

soldier on out of Vigo and camp later that night on a mountain

side overlooking the small town of Teis. We decide to spend the

next night in a hostel in the medieval streets of Redondela,

leaving ourselves with a cool 8km walk for the next day.

By 10:00AM the next day, after just four hours of very slow walking,

Redondela revealed itself, an isolated refuge tucked away in a

valley, its viaduct rolling through the mountain fog, a steel and

brick ode to Durham. We find our hostel, 34 beds stuffed inside

a 16th Century townhouse, and deposit our bags outside.

Check-in starts at 1PM, so we have a few hours to kill. We

explore a little, we get some stamps in our credencials (pilgrim

passports that verify your route and enable you to claim your

certificate of completion) and we settle down in a grubby little

café, watching the local children hurl abuse and encouragement

at each other across the fútbol sala pitch, the focal point of the

town. At 1:00PM we get back to the hostel, and a few heads behind

us I spot those two pesky Italians from days before. They end up

in the bunk opposite ours. Despite feeling very tired and socially

drained, I am obliged to engage with them, because of an

unwritten rule enforcing socialisation between Italian speakers.

After a while, however, I talk to them less out of obligation and

more out of interest. Out of courtesy for my colleague, they

switch to English with great fluency, unlike most Italians, who, in

my experience, speak it with unwarranted confidence. Ollie and

I split from them to find some dinner, but we reunite a little later

for a drink. My partner and I are friendly enough, but these boys

behave as though they’ve known us for a lifetime. Their

familiar manner is refreshing and homely, and we very willingly

accept their request to walk to Pontevedra together the next day.

The weather showed no mercy the following morning.

Waterproofed and not quite ready to go, we stop off for a slice of

cake and a splash of espresso just before leaving Redondela. As

we sit with our new friends outside, looking hopelessly at the

cobbled streets shrouded in rain, a blue eyed man with a serf-ish 

haircut takes a seat next to us. He’s a builder from New Zealand and he’s nice enough, so we

spend the day walking together. In spite of the harsh weather

conditions and the endless trudging through muddy puddles,

the day’s walking goes by quickly. Being in a bigger group keeps

a good pace and distracts you from the distance left; in just a

few hours we’ve reached Pontevedra. The unpredictable skies

leave us with no choice but to stay in a hostel for a consecutive

night (we’re not complaining). Despite our initial panic at seeing

the queue outside, we nab a bed, deposit our affairs, then run

off to the supermarket to buy bread, lamb’s lettuce, fresh

cheese, cheap white wine, and tinned fish, because good

Catholics don’t eat meat on Fridays. The rain has dampened our

touristic intrigue, we barely venture into Pontevedra, but we

allow ourselves one church visit. The Church of Our Lady the

Pilgrim is built in the shape of a scallop, the symbol of Saint

James and all pilgrims. It’s an elaborate baroque building, with a

statue of Our Lady above the altar, wearing a pilgrim’s hat and

gown, decked in scallop shells. We do a circuit of the Church,

then meet our Kiwi friend in a bar (he stayed in a separate

hostel to the rest of us). We have a few, go back to the hostel to

cook some dinner, and fall swiftly asleep. We’re only four days

away from Santiago.

After some very poor quality sleep, we were up and half-alive,

somewhat ready to venture off to our next stop, Caldas De Reis.

Once again, the walking went quickly. We caught up with our

Kiwi friend, and bade him goodbye again later as he split off to

follow the Camino Espiritual (a variant of the Portuguese route

along which Saint James’ remains are said to have been brought

to his final resting place). We went on, and as the sun appeared

through the cloud-draped sky, Caldas de Reis started to rise up

over our heads. Since the ancient Roman occupation of the

Iberian peninsula, Caldas de Reis has been a coveted spa break

destination for Galicians, having been built up over natural hot springs. 

Being a pack of strapped-for-cash pilgrims, we could

only allow ourselves the pleasure of the public foot-baths. We

followed the smell of sulphur, which eventually brought us to a

wide, seated stone tub, akin to a large trough. The sight of

pilgrims throwing their heads back ecstatically as they eased

their feet under the water drew me ever closer until my

calloused feet joined theirs in this great ugly vat. It was divine.

The feeling of the mineral-rich hot spring water melting away

your blisters was enough to make you forget the pungent

sulphur stink and the blackened algae lining the surface. I must

have spent an hour with my lower quarter submerged in there.

Eventually, however, the waning sunlight called us to seek a

camping spot, which was found in good time, on the edge of a

valley. We had our dinner of supermarket empanadas and warm

beer, and burrowed into our sleeping bags.

Having exhausted our budget for hostel stays, we were

supposed to camp the following night as well. We decided to

stretch the budget a little, however, after hearing of an old

Franciscan monastery, not far off the route, where pilgrims

could spend the night, with dinner and breakfast provided, in

exchange for a donation. The morning after Caldas, we reunite

with our Italian friends in a café and a few more pilgrims who

we’ve befriended, and we walk on together. The Camino route

should take you to the town of Padrón, but we split off a few

kilometres before to get to the Monastery of Herbon, where we

will be staying the night. We get there, deposit our bags, and

escape to a bar, fleeing the second-hand embarrassment of one

of our Italian colleagues relaying a crass German saying to a

group of German pilgrims sitting outside the monastery, gravely

offending an old lady in doing so. We have some drinks and

tapas of tripe and chickpeas, I have a roast pork sandwich, and

then we make our way back to the monastery in time for the

Sunday evening mass. The priest makes the kind effort to greet

all the pilgrims at the end of the service, then we bundle back

into the living quarters for a very rustic dinner of stewed lentils,

washed down with red wine in plastic cups (the carafes were

left bone dry). Our hostess is working her first night at the

monastery, and delivers a moving speech: she implores us to

stay sitting after dinner, to enjoy each other’s company, and she

reminds us that the Camino is not the route we take, but the

people with whom we walk it.

We’re just 15km out from Santiago de Compostela, but we have

to stagger our walking over two days, as we still have 3 days

until our flight. In the morning we split from our colleagues, as

they are going straight to Santiago, whereas Ollie and I go

towards Padrón to wander aimlessly. We take in the sights, the

churches and the chapels, and have a very long coffee break;

we don’t want to cover too much distance today, suitable

camping spots will become increasingly scarce, and we want to

allow enough distance for tomorrow to build up our excitement

for our arrival. The route for our penultimate day was not

especially interesting. Aside from Padrón, we went mostly

along an ugly motorway, so we were relieved to eventually find a

nice forest off the road to camp in, but considerably less

relieved to find that the cacophonous birthday party happening

on a nearby farm would continue until 4:00AM.

Two hours after the party ended, we were awake for our last day

of walking. We had about 10km to go, a mere fraction of what we

had walked up to that point, but when you’re so close to your

final destination, the distance seems to increase with each step

forward. We didn’t let this dishearten us; Oliver and I

had never walked so fast in our lives. About one hour in, we see

some pilgrims snapping away on their phone cameras at a view

point. We cruise up to them, and upon seeing the two spires of

Santiago jutting out on the horizon, those same two spires we

had seen depicted in every hostel we had stopped in on the way,

we leave the amateur photographers eating our dust and

resolve to make it into Santiago within the next hour.

Each time the cathedral peeks out at us, teasing us, we go

faster, grabbing the odd cake sample offered by hopeful

shopkeepers out of their doorways to keep us going. As long as

it seems to take us, the Cathedral keeps looking marginally

bigger than it did the last time it popped out through the

rooftops. At this point we can’t feel our legs; we’re moving

unconsciously, delirious with the joy of having made it. Anything

can still happen, I tell myself, until we’re face to façade with the

cathedral itself.

It would take a million words to convey the extravagant beauty

of the exterior alone: a thousand different motifs line a hundred

different statues on just one side of the Cathedral. Three

statues of Saint James beam down at his devoted followers,

countless pilgrim heads bowing in disbelief, incredulous at the

endurance they have found within their faith in God. We can’t

take our bags in, so we resolve to see the inside after checking

into our hostel. We do so after getting our pilgrim certificates

and wolfing down a decadent breakfast of churros drowned in

thick hot chocolate.

Over the 12 hours that remained of our time in Santiago, free

from the bondage of a heavy backpack, we felt liberated. We

basked in the beauty of the town, we ate and we drank, we

reunited with all our old, new friends, most of whom I haven’t

had the chance to mention properly, we danced and we laughed

and we appreciated and shared everything we had done and

seen and felt. It was beautiful. Just as I had ended many nights

of this adventure, I went to bed smiling.

I woke up with a headache, but after sharing a few laughs in the

café where Ollie and I had breakfasted with the two Italian boys, it

subsided. We walked to the Cathedral again, and insisted that

we would see each other soon whilst we split ways. Ollie and I

went to mass; we were lost in the beautiful inconsistency of the

interior, wide-eyed and gaping under the gilded ciborium,

sustained by gargantuan cherubim. We were shrouded under

the billowing incense smoke of the botafumero, swinging yards

above our heads, and hurtling down ferociously. All this

accompanied by the resonant baritone of the cantor. It was a

beautiful mass.

Two hours later we were in the airport. Having spent the last two

weeks learning more about myself than I thought possible, I

maintained a smile, comforted by the thought of our new

friendships, and the prospect of my inevitable return to

Santiago, as well as that of getting home and applying some

roll-on.

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Creative Writing

A Feline Reminiscence in Winter

By Matthew Dodd

It was early in the morning, and for the first time in the year, snow was falling.  Plumes danced down through the air, scattering themselves across the sky and spreading out into a soft white net over the garden. Once vibrant flowers were now dulled to homogeneity. Where leaves once sat, crystals of ice now staked their claim. As the sun rose over the garden, beams of light glanced upon the field, painting a rather pretty picture of winter. The garden made an all but perfect tapestry of the season and its associated joys. That was if one could exclude the unmissable exercise in laziness who made his temporary abode in the middle of all this. 

Angelo splayed himself out across the snow-covered lawn, a black smudge on this otherwise undisturbed canvas. Angelo – as you may have ascertained – was a cat, and was therefore accustomed to taking his time when waking up. And yet, even by feline standards Angelo was a lazy cat. He had been known to sleep for near on twenty straight hours and, on one occasion, after a particularly filling meal, had spent an entire week unconscious. However, on this particular morning Angelo struggled to keep a hold on his doze. The incessant snowfall was proving to be rather the impediment to Angelo’s lie-in. His arms gesticulated wildly in a futile attempt to tire himself out again. When this attempt proved fruitless Angelo shook his head and began to wake. He opened his eyes slowly, one at a time – in case any larger cats were waiting in his immediate line of vision – and was slightly confused to find that the world had gone all white. His amber eyes flitted around his surroundings, processing the new information. The world had indeed gone white. That was if it was the world: the living world that is. Angelo jumped up at this. For a cat, Angelo spent a lot of time contemplating death. He often wondered what would happen to him when he eventually ceased to be. In all honesty he tended to believe that death would never happen to him, he was far too special for that.

 As he considered this, Angelo became aware that the white of the world seemed to be moving downwards. His eyes narrowed. That certainly was strange. The world only ever moved like this when the great showertime came. Angelo then realised what was afoot. He was not actually dead, as he’d been quite convinced, rather it was that time of year at which the clouds started falling from the sky. Angelo wasn’t quite sure why the clouds did this, but he supposed they had rather a good reason. Angelo knew this time of year well, this being his tenth experience of it, and had come to treat it as a friend, a reminder of everything he was and had been. Humans are often surprised to learn that cats are well aware of themselves and their own temporal position but, as Angelo had often noted, humans were surprised by most things. He was up on his feet by now and, as he began to move, slowly became aware of his situation. This was the Garden. That’s what the humans called it (comprehension of the English language was another feline skill that humans seem to forget). Ah yes, Angelo remembered now. He often liked to visit this spot, this very spot in fact, to take one of his naps. In fact, now that he thought about it, he’d taken one such nap very recently. In fact, now that Angelo had thought even more about it, he failed to remember very much of what happened between his last visit and the present. Lost in his train of thought, Angelo had neglected to note the tree – into which he had just walked. Despite his stature Angelo had somehow caused the tree to shake, which caused a large snowfall atop his head, in turn inciting a helpless mew of despair. He shook virulently. Angelo couldn’t entirely recall his position towards this cloudfall. 

Upon further examination of the garden, Angelo deduced that he’d only been asleep for at most half a night since the sun was only now rising over the garden fence. That was good for Angelo. This meant that he could go and be there to watch his human wake up. He loved his human more than anything in the world. Even more than he loved napping. Angelo couldn’t remember a time when he hadn’t loved Human. Human was to him what the earth was to the moon. Both entirely wrapped in their own existence yet eternally dependent on the other. The Moon rises and falls with the Earth. The Earth may even one day be able to be without the Moon’s complementary being, but the Moon will always need the Earth, and in the same way Angelo will always need his Human. He slumped down against a tree and let memory flood over him. Memories of Human and Angelo together, Human and Angelo apart, and Human and Angelo reunited. Years stretched out in Angelo’s mind, with this Christmastime (yes, Angelo recalled, that’s what Human called it) being the one constant. Other humans had left Angelo’s Human over these years. Angelo had slept on the laps of countless others during the cold months. But Human had always been there. Angelo had even seen Christmases when Human was alone, and Human was sad, and so Angelo was also sad. But Angelo had watched Human find new humans, and be happy again, and that made Angelo happy. Angelo remembered, there was another human that spent some three Christmases with Human. It was a human with brown hair and big brown eyes who used to spend hours with Angelo, stroking him in the spots behind his ears where only his Human knew. Whatever happened to them? Angelo struggled to remember. In fact, he struggled to remember many details these days. Angelo was getting old, he didn’t have time to remember all the sad things. He preferred to spend his thoughts on the happy times he and his friend had shared, rather than dwelling on those awkward in-between times. Human had smiled and laughed in the company of others, and there were times when Human hadn’t. What was the point in trying to dissect the sadness when you could be enjoying the happiness? Angelo slunk forward through the garden towards the house’s back entrance. As he crept, he caught sight of a robin sitting on a tree-branch, rather content with the leaf he was picking at. It pricked its head up and peered at Angelo before returning to its leaf. Angelo made to greet the robin, only for it to fly away, leaving its leaf behind. How fickle and rude that bird is, he thought to himself.

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Reviews

Tradition Strikes Back; Walkabout Theatre Company’s A Christmas Carol

By Emilia Brookfield-Pertusini

I hate tradition. I possess a bah-humbug approach to these supposedly ‘heart-warming’ events we must trudge through for time’s sake. However, I allow myself three indulgences, exceptions to the rule: 1) re-read The Secret History every December. 2) Listen to the King’s College, Cambridge choir carols on a blistering walk. 3)Watch a theatrical telling of A Christmas Carol. Upon hearing A Christmas Carol was descending upon Durham’s vastly beautiful wintery mood, I couldn’t help but be delighted (my student finance imposed tightfistedness, echoing Scrooge, in my refusal to see The Old Vic’s Carol this year). Upon watching, this elation hasn’t departed. Whilst Walkabout’s production doesn’t attempt to sugarcoat the obvious haunting and wrath that lies within this tale, the delicate adaptation of Dickens’ most recognisable plot, the craftsmanship of the design team, and the bravado of the actors cannot help but bring an audience to smile with pure, innocent joy. Lily Gilchrist and Harry Threapleton, the directors and adaptors, have marvelled in their sharp, poignant, and ultimately Victorian, to its truest sense, production. 

The bustle of the stage works in A Christmas Carol’s favour well. To be moved by a cast, who stop, look at you, extend their arm and holiday wishes, before moving on, retiring in their own magical scenes elsewhere, that you are privy to, is a truly magical voyeuristic experience. All whilst a superbly talented choir is fully incorporated into the momentum of the play, embellishing the scenes with further tenderness. These Victorians manoeuvre around a set, designed by Carrie Cheung and her team, that strikes a careful balance between kitsch Victoriana, and haunting minimalism. With the names of cast members upon gravestones in the corner, and a hearty dinner setup in the other, the balance is struck brilliantly between the two moods of the story and is maintained as audience moves carefully between the two, savouring in each. Charlie (Cara Crofts), our dutiful tour guide of Victorian London encapsulates this boundless energy that possess us during such festivity. The bubbly nature of a character who drives the plot, and encapsulates the cultural artifice that Carol has become, was not lost; this is an actor who understood their role to their fullest potential and brought the Dickensian prose into startling, striking life. The now diffuse and diluted term of Dickensian is often misused, not in the case of Crofts however, who elevated the practical necessity of her character to a person an audience member was delighted to see shepherd us spritely and provide us with brilliantly timed witty asides. 

Wit is often prescribed to Scrooge in order to make the shamelessly brutal character easier to digest. Gilchrist and Threapleton’s adaptation struck a considered balance with Scrooge, allowing Edward Clark to channel the disturbing miser to his fullest, whilst giving the audience moments of comedic breathing space, necessary to hammer home in the absurd, condemnable nature of Scrooge. Clark’s masterful performance delved into the psyche of such a miser at points, humanising Scrooge with pathos carefully being delivered in beautifully fraught and tender moments between Clark and his cast mates. Whilst I have often been considered as someone who enjoys the bleak moroseness that theatre can harbinger, Clark’s performance of a transformed Scrooge was simply too joyous to consider. The beauty of immersive theatre, I believe, lies in the fact the audience become less isolated, both from the actors and their fellow audience members; upon being shook by a contagiously gleeful Scrooge, I couldn’t help but smile, catching the same elation beaming out of Scrooge, and in my shock of being touched by both theatre and character, looked around to witness my fellow travellers through Victorian London beaming in the same manner. The strength of the adaptation of this complex figure, and the magisterial delivery of Clark, was something to behold.

Mark Gatiss remarks on how Carol’s “status as a ghost story has been somewhat undervalued”. This is shocking considering the Victorian preoccupation with ‘the other side’ yet cannot be said about this production; the consideration of lighting (Rory Collins) emulating the haunting necessity of the story thrillingly from the offset, despite not being utilized as fully later on. The introduction of our first ghost, by means of a howling metamorphosing doorknocker, confirms Carol’s status within the ghost story genre, with Raphael Henrion’s Marley being a startingly frightening, yet darkly humorous figure. Despite the script occasionally lapsing into the silliness that often grasps adaptations of Carol, Henrion managed to create a presence that channelled irksome impressions of the lost, tormented souls of Dante’s Purgatorio that Marley should be reminiscent of. The spectral reigns are then taken up by the Ghost of Christmas Past (Nell Hickson), who catapults us through the pangs of Christmas nostalgia with a foreboding deliverance. Her delivery and duplicity came into full force in her scathing departure from a relenting Scrooge, leaving both him and the audiences’ jaw on the floor. Bounding on stage after is Grace Heron as Present, emitting such a warmth onto stage it is hard to believe the phantom categorising of this being. A bountiful harbinger of news, we, like the marionettes cleverly chosen to physicalise the ghosts’ message, are caught up in the rapturous display of Christmas truths, forcing the message of change and charity to the forefront of the production; an understanding of the duality of this character, and the tale itself, was on full display. Finally, Future (Iphis Critchlow), who’s silent existence on stage sliced through the audience, allowed for the spectral potential of the production to be achieved in its completion. Each actor of this sinister quartet played with the audience’s perception of haunting, bring performances that kept the pace of the haunting at a constant revelry. 

The whimsy and magic of the immersive experience embraces the auditorium, handling every aspect with such clear sensitivity. The Cratchits are, despite my fond revisiting of this tale annually, cause for contention; Tiny Tim and his family cawing in mockney Victorian poverty pomp behind him makes one cringe under the amount of Victorian ‘virtuous’ poor narrative and disability fetish typically on display. However, a refreshing, modern consideration for the family were incorporated against the Victoriana. The pity porn was replaced with a quintet of talented actors who handled their roles with care, creating tender scenes; their warmth on stage was something to behold, and the dynamic between Charlotte Walton’s Bob and Scrooge was masterfully handled without the usual retreat into caricaturist workplace abuse. Instead, the ignorant optimism reserved for them was wholly invested into the pompously cheerful Fred (Nemo Royle). Adorned in a perfectly festive turquoise blazer, we were captivated around the dinner table, whilst he stood on a chair, like a true festive host, to address us, his guests, into parlour games; whilst at points the character began to sentimentalise and err on the side of tangent, the gusto of deliverance was to be relished, and an invitation back to his table would be received wholly.

The playfulness of the novella is fully anticipated when, on sofa or on theatre seat, one sits down to watch A Christmas Carol, yet the unbridled, unrelenting imaginative magic is full realised when we’re invited into stand within the tradition of this tale. If only more people could be invited to spend an evening around a Dickensian Christmas tale, then perhaps this tale would not need to be told year upon year, as the cast, crew, and production team clearly understood in their adaptation the unfortunate poignancy of the charitable message, which, as Scrooge does in the final moments of the play, grips you. The combination of theatrical enchantment and spectral illusion ensures that Christmas magic is released upon all who enter into this glimpse of Victorian London. The fun, nuanced, and gripping production affirms why A Christmas Carol is a powerhouse of a Christmas tradition. 

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Poetry

Embryonic Scavenger

By Olivia Petrini

in the morning I know myself best

my shoulders light and sliding 

from the iridescent walls 

stretching limbs to trace the 

embossed red contours of the map

and you, across the way. 

 

we could criss-cross, you know.

 

collide, the embryonic scavenger, 

tiny neanderthal with a mallet 

in one hand, 

a stone grasped tightly in the other 

staggers over flints like a rock-hopper

to the tangled white arms 

which glint up from the sea.

 

I untangle myself from your embrace

to clamber over the slick roof tiles 

and perch at the peripheries 

senseless by the lazy messes 

of the afternoon.

 

we advance along the beach 

the sunlight bleaching our eyes 

a civil orange, rolled between

both palms you cast into the 

sky and back again with a 

thud

which might once have been a moon

 

now scatters the bully-rooks 

loose from their briar 

up into black trees

and once again we retire to 

the shadowed nooks of the night.

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Reviews

Gladiator II: I was not entertained 

By Esme Bell

This is an easy pun to make, but it was with genuine sadness that I left Durham’s Gala cinema last week, after watching Ridley Scott’s latest sequel, Gladiator II.

It is perhaps unfair to say that it completely lacked entertainment value. It was a fun spectacle, at least, peopled with a dynamic and watchable cast – and, as my (Irish) friend Rachel mistily remarked, we can’t forget Paul Mescal’s ‘lovely Gaelic thighs’.

But Gaelic thighs alone cannot – and should not – make a film; and even a whole legion of Irish heartthrobs, no matter how well-muscled, could not atone for Gladiator II’s sins.

I have to preface the rest of this article by asserting how much I love the original, 2000 Gladiator; and so what follows could be seen as irritatingly nit-picking, or a failure to appreciate the new film for its own sake. I (obviously) disagree: Gladiator II as a commercial concept rests entirely on the deserved victory of the first one, and it actively appropriates the plot, music and even physical clips from its originator. This worked well in a film like Top Gun: Maverick, for instance – which proved that a loving sequel to an adored original can absolutely pay homage to its roots, but be completely successful in its own right. Gladiator II, however, fails on both counts.

Perhaps the gravest flaw – which catalyses most of the rest of the issues – is in the screenplay. It is, quite simply, lacking – in warmth, subtlety, heroism, and frankly, any sense of memorability. 

I, too, would probably lose a battle against an invading Roman army if I had to listen to Mescal’s attempt at an opening rallying speech. It falls so fatally flat, and seems so painfully self-aware of its inferiority, when compared to the glorious ease of Russell Crowe’s speech at the opening of the first film. This inevitable comparison continues: we have nothing to rival ‘Are you not entertained?’ or the chilling intensity of ‘Father to a murdered son, husband to a murdered wife’ speech. And, again, this didn’t have to become such a glaring problem, but when Mescal’s Lucius is literally and metaphorically Maximus 2.0 – how can we ignore all the ways in which he fails to live up to him?

This brings me to my next point, which I make reluctantly, but truthfully: Mescal was a fundamentally underwhelming leading man. His occasional lapse in accent is forgivable, as Crowe also frequently slips into an Australian drawl; given the Roman Empire’s sprawling nature, it perhaps makes sense that someone’s accent might “travel” too. And, I also concede that most of Mescal’s flaws are the product, again, of the script and the plot, which allowed his character very little nuance or softness. But, the fact remains that, across the film, he acts and speaks on one, growly, broody, bear-like level, with very little variation.

One of the most powerful moments of Gladiator is not a battle, but simply a conversation early on, when Maximus describes his home to Marcus Aurelius: his house, his olives, his vines, the earth ‘black as my wife’s hair’, the wild ponies who tease his son. Crowe’s curt, cropped-haired violence is layered effortlessly with a tender, but never mawkish, vision of Maximus the farmer, who longs only for hearth and home. And this is crucial: we have to believe in his home, in his love – in the holistic man beyond The General – to then share in his grief, accept his need for revenge, and understand the man he becomes. 

We are granted no such insight into Lucius as he grunts, rolls, shouts, fights, and rolls again across the screen (Mescal does spend a lot of time on the ground with his tunic riding dangerously high – little wonder his thighs became so significant). And this critical distance from the audience’s empathy and understanding is not just frustrating, but becomes actively confusing. He asserts his passionate hatred for Lucilla (his mother) and Rome in one moment, and shortly afterwards declares his intention to die for the ‘dream that was Rome’ – with seemingly little emotional or logical backing to explain the swift change.

The cast in general though was the film’s strongest asset. Both Connie Nielsen and her character had aged well, and I felt she had more gravitas and purpose in the sequel. Pedro Pascal as the sympathetic general/ go-between was also engaging with his few lines – but his character was so unsatisfyingly written that his warmth and furrowed brow were cruelly wasted. 

The twin emperors, played by Joseph Quinn and Fred Hechinger, were less slimily menacing than Joaquin Phoenix’s Commodus – but entertaining nonetheless, and they had Denzel Washington to bulk up the explicit “villainy” a bit more. As Macrinus, he was the stand-out performance for me: he walked a compelling line between power-hungry mad man and charismatic mentor. If, at times, it felt like a reprisal of his role in Training Day, this was in no way a bad thing – and an accidental detail I loved was the way that he would constantly twitch and fidget with his robes. In real Ancient Times, it must have been a logistical nightmare murdering/scheming etc. with such long sleeves.

But even an undoubtedly star-studded, TikTok-approved cast cannot perform in a vacuum: and a plot and screenplay which moves confusingly and unsatisfactorily through story and character will struggle to serve anyone.

I do think too much has been made about how “unrealistic” the shark-infested Coliseum was. The entire plots of both films require a significant suspension of disbelief; a CGI Great White can’t be the final thing that disrupts it. But, although a slight fancifulness of story is in keeping with the original spirit of Gladiator, the rest of the “scaffolding” of the film – the effects, the soundtrack, even the inexplicable image of Tim McInnerny’s senator reading a newspaper –  are just further disappointments.

Far too much energy was expended on the computer-generated baboons that Lucius faces in the arena, and their Planet of the Apes-level screams rivalled Mescal’s own acting at points. The cheesy black-and-white rendering of (presumably) the River Styx and Charon claiming Lucius’ loved ones felt similarly jarring and wrong. The music was a particular let-down, also. Zimmer’s original score is so stirring and literally iconic – and the only vaguely memorable musical moments from Gladiator II were the few times that the original theme was re-worked. Zimmer does steal from Holst’s ‘Mars’ in the first film, so I suppose there is a Gladiatorial tradition of reusing and adapting, but it didn’t happen enough to feel like a deliberate choice, and just came across as artificial, lazy – like homework that had been done the night before.

And, in essence, I think this is the ultimate problem with the film. Like James Cameron with Avatar: The Way of the Water, Ridley Scott seems to have been subsumed by his own success, and has forsaken the integrity of his original. Like an emperor trying to win cheap approval, he has treated his loyal watcher as just part of the mob, to be fobbed off with bread, circuses, CGI sharks – and a sad dilution of an initial masterpiece. 

Even the excellent ticket price at the Gala (a joyously democratic £5) doesn’t make up for what, in this sequel, we have irretrievably, unforgivably lost: strength and honour.

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Creative Writing Uncategorized

Pity the Girl in the White Skirt 

By Samara Patel

He’s leading her on. Playful touches on her arm when she says something silly, hand on her back leading her through a crowd. Pinning her down with those golden-brown eyes of his, saying that her hair looks pretty, or touching the hem of one of those athletic short white skirts she always wears, just to say he loves the material. And he can’t possibly ignore the way she blushes from her cheeks across the tip of her nose whenever he turns his attention to her.

Leto and Zuri clearly got along well from the start. At any restaurant, college bar, or kitchen table, they would find themselves sitting next to each other. Zuri always sits down first, her gaze darting over to Lucas every so often, until he pulls up a chair next to her. That small gesture always makes her smile, but she tries to hide it behind her hand every time.

We all like Zuri, ever since Emile brought her into our little uni friend group a few weeks after their classes started. Zuri’s very sweet and quite naive at times, shy in dress and manner, subtle and quiet and graceful in all things. She usually dresses in white, oversized dresses and jumpers, her black butterfly braids falling around her face. In contrast, Leto is an English student who, as all his friends know, has not read a single book on his course list. Frustratingly, he manages to coast by with good grades when all the rest of us are stressing through formatives. His blonde hair is wavy around his face, the back of it nearly brushing those collared shirts he always wears. He has a gorgeous girlfriend back home in Leeds, who he even very briefly introduced us to. I don’t even know her name.

We’ve all talked about them. I mean, okay, I know it’s bad to talk about people behind their backs, but his flirtation was far too obvious and almost cruel to the poor girl. Like the other day when we were walking back from the library after a long study session, and I was chatting with Emile and her boyfriend Ben. Leto and Zuri were walking ahead of us, a bit apart from the group. I’ve talked to her a few times, of course, idle chit chat, but we don’t really have much in common. She seems to exist in an odd limbo where she gets nervous around Lucas like you’d get nervous around someone you have a crush on yet knows him better than the rest of us due to being around him almost constantly, so is most comfortable near him. It puts her in the odd position of always being slightly on edge.

On this day, we were all walking back from the library after a long study session. Emile points ahead at Lucas and Zuri, and we hash out the usual theories and predictions of when/if they’ll get together. As we’re theorizing, Zuri drops the books she’s holding, her accounting papers spilling all over the pavement. The wind picks up, blowing around her equations with no care for the author. And she’s trying to catch the papers, gracefully dashing around to pick them off the pavement and blushing furiously while accepting some from strangers that have scooped them up from the air. While all this is happening Lucas hangs back, not even trying to hide his laughter, nor trying to help. Once her papers are collected again, she pins him with an accusatory look that only reignites her blush when he returns it, and smiles at her. He gets a bit closer, brushing a braid off her face and behind her ear. Leans into her and whispers something next to her pearl earring, one hand on her hip to steady her against the wind, as if she’d topple over if he wasn’t there to hold her up.

At this point, Emile, Ben, and I have paused in our walk to watch this drama play out. Zuri goes stock-still, white skirt whipping around her knees and cardigan blowing in the breeze. The books in her hand, the howling wind, even we are ignored as this boy starts to talk in her ear. The passerby chatting and leaves swirling in the air, winter chill and study-induced exhaustion are all long forgotten. And we can’t help but feel awful for her, this innocent girl who got swept up in Leto’s pretty eyes and gentle words. Because in his left hand is his phone, so conveniently facing us, and we can barely make out the image of his girlfriend’s face on the call screen. The phone vibrates for one, two seconds before he pulls back. This boy pulls away from Zuri, gives her the ‘give me a sec’ hand gesture, and walks away, putting the phone to his ear with a cheery, “Hey, babe!”

And Emile and I, we just look at her. Now standing alone in the middle of the pavement, staring after him with the most heartbreaking look on her face – eyes wide and bright, lashes fluttering in shock. Her blush is worse than ever, but instead of dancing across her cheeks and nose, seems to flush down to her neck and the tips of her ears. Her mouth is slightly open in the manner of someone who has been ripped out of a wonderful dream, glossed pink lips parted. She shakes herself, just once, and puts her poker face back on again. She turns away from him and walks back to us.

“Did you end up figuring out those chemistry problems?” Her voice was perfectly even, not a trace of sadness or anger. The blush receded, and she blinked a few times until the tears were gone from her eyes. She didn’t acknowledge that we were there to witness the whole thing, didn’t call us out or pick a fight. Just started some mundane conversation like she wanted to forget that anything ever happened.

He’s leading her on. He clearly cares a lot for his girlfriend, though Zuri always does her best to look unaffected when he mentions her. Part of me wants to plan a girl’s night out for her, bring her sweets and chocolate and alcohol until she forgets about the whole complicated, depressing situation.

But the other part of me, the mean and gossipy part, wants to sit back and watch. See if she bothers to hide her teary eyes from the room when the girlfriend next calls or goes against her nature and tries to flirt with him, though that’s unlikely. That sadistic side of me wants to see if she’ll ever give up, although something tells me that she gave up on a future with him a long time ago and is coasting off a sort of hopeless adrenaline.

She knows she’ll never get the boy, but that doesn’t mean she will ever stop hoping. Because a girl like her, sad as it is, will never stop chasing what she can’t have.

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Reviews

Review: Paddington in Peru

By Emily Hough

Paddington 2 and Paddington in Peru: like asking da Vinci to recreate the Mona Lisa with different paints. 

This past Saturday, I sat down to join my, slightly hungover, housemates in our scheduled navigation on what Netflix has to offer. After a couple of rejected suggestions of horror films, dramas and cheap-looking Christmas films, we paused over Paddington 2

“You know, I read somewhere that it’s the highest-rated film on Rotten Tomatoes,” my housemate shared. My other housemates responded in sheer excitement: “It is, quite literally, the best film I’ve ever seen.” This challenge alone had us sold. We pressed play and began watching, what I can confidently say, was one hour and forty-four minutes of complete and utter joy. 

Now, I understand that this may sound dramatic, and for the purpose of making this article readable it is to some extent, but the internet is all in agreement of the filmmaking phenomenon that is Paddington 2

In Peter Bradshaw’s The Guardian review, he called the film ‘a tremendously sweet-natured, charming, unassuming and above all funny film with a story that just rattles  along, powered by a nonstop succession of Grade-A gags.’ In fact, the ‘Grade-A gags’ Bradshaw refers to here is what possibly makes screenwriters Paul King, Simon Farnaby and Jon Croker’s creation so brilliant. It was the simple sequence of window cleaning that had us five students in fits of laughter. It’s hard to imagine how a bucket of water and a pulley could create comedic genius, yet it is the simplicity but effectiveness of the slapstick humour in Paddington 2, that gives it such a feel-good feeling.

 The Charlie Chaplin-esque humour alongside Hugh Grant’s convincing performance as a washed-up celebrity, had us ending the film with the disbelief but certainty that this was truly the best film any of us had ever watched. But what about these Paddington films makes them so addictive? How do they leave you with such a warm glow and a sunny perspective on life? 

One of my housemates seemed to offer the answer, stating “I think whoever wrote these films must just be the happiest person alive.” I think her comment pretty much answers these questions for me. So, in the hopes of continuing this winning streak, within 20 minutes of the end credits rolling, we had booked to see Paddington in Peru (the newly released third Paddington film) that next evening in Durham’s finest Gala  Theatre (£5.50 by the way, absolute steal).

With Paddington 2 achieving a 99% rating on Rotten Tomatoes, the film’s successor,  Paddington in Peru, was a hot topic of conversation in the industry in the build-up to its release this month. Critics were waiting in anticipation to watch the newest instalment of  Paddington’s adventures and see whether the trilogy could continue to get even better with every release. As it turns out, so were my four housemates and I as we waltzed into the Gala Theatre’s Cinema at 7.50 pm (a whole TEN minutes early for the adverts, we were that keen) with a bag stuffed full of an array of Tesco’s sweet treats.  

The third and final, for now, Paddington film follows the bear and the Brown family’s adventure to  Peru in search of his missing Aunt Lucy. The film opens strongly with a hilarious scene of  Paddington taking his passport photo, involving his polite responses to the automated speaker message, which sees him taking instructions a bit too literally and ending up in a pile of newspapers in Paddington station. We can see again how the writers are so talented in adding vibrance and humour so easily to mundane experiences we can all relate to. It seems the essence of Paddington’s character is to add light and cheer to parts of life we never thought would need it, like taking a passport photo or doing laundry, although in his case for his fellow prisoners.  

As we follow the Brown crew to Peru, we are introduced to Olivia Coleman’s  delightfully creepy character of Reverend Mother, the woman in charge of the  retirement home for bears that Aunt Lucy has mysteriously disappeared from. Her  opening musical number perfectly exhibits the ridiculous nature of her character, with  her humorously villainous smile giving away her not so inconspicuous identity. 

Ben Whishaw, of course, returns as the voice of Paddington, once again proving he is the one and only man to breathe life into this comical, good-hearted protagonist of the franchise. 

Paddington in Peru does face its challenges though, with a new ‘Mrs Brown’ as Emily Mortimer who takes over from Sally Hawkins in the role. There is also a new  director as Dougal Wilson takes charge, succeeding Paul King who directed Paddington 2. The directorial changes are notable, with reviews that do not shy away from the fact that the humour of Paddington in Peru does not quite match that of  its widely celebrated predecessor. 

Peter Bradshaw returns some seven years later to review Paddington in Peru for The Guardian, in which he comments that ‘just as jolly as the previous two films, but not really as  funny, Paddington in Peru is a sweet-natured and primary-colour family adventure  which takes Paddington Bear back to his South American homeland.’ Bradshaw, amongst other critics, says what the audience is thinking: no, it is not funnier or even as  funny as its previous film. However, that is not to say that it was not a perfectly  enjoyable experience, costing not much more than a pint in The Swan, and I would recommend watching the film to children and adults alike.

There is lots to be learnt from Hugh Bonerville’s loveable portrayal of Mr Brown. In this third instalment we see him adopt the mindset of his new American boss, Mission  Impossible’s new ‘it-girl’ Haley Atwell, and ‘embrace the risk’. Bonerville is a master of  bringing quintessential English humour to any character he touches, and in Paddington in Peru he is no different. His ‘under the breath’ comments brought a chuckle from all in the  cinema, and his fear of spiders is an aspect of his character I can greatly relate to,  although his triumph over it, is not.  

The film wraps up Paddington’s character arc in a neat and tidy bow. Whilst taking the  story out of London causes it to lose some of the humorous interactions with British  culture, it seems necessary to take Paddington beyond the space we typically see him  in and discover where our titular character comes from. 

The end of the film explores that all too important question of where do we belong? As  Paddington grapples with the duality of who he is, the cinema air is tense with  anticipation, broken with a sigh of relief as we see him once again choose London as his  home. The writers make one thing clear: You can take the bear out of London, but you can’t take London out of the bear.

Walking out of the Gala Theatre into the crisp November night, we wondered as a house at what point did we stop watching these ‘kids’ films in the cinema and concluded there comes a time when we  should all revert to these nostalgic stories.  I would urge you to take an evening and to come and fill your boots with the happiness that these types of films offer. After all, these lessons on family, adventure, and discovering things about ourselves may be  aimed at children, but I think we can all be reminded of them from time to time.

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Culture

This Cruel World Where I Belong – The Myth of Nick Drake

By Matthew Dodd

On the 25th of November 1974, at his family home in Warwickshire, the singer-songwriter Nick Drake passed away from a believed overdose of antidepressants at age 26. Drake, a Cambridge dropout, left behind him three studio albums: all of which were released to critical and commercial failure. Around fifty mourners attended his funeral and, by 1975, his record label Island had decided not to reissue any of his albums. Fifty years later, a fully orchestrated rendition of Drake’s music was performed to a packed out Royal Albert Hall as part of the BBC’s annual programme of Proms. Having died in obscurity, by the 21st century Drake has far eclipsed more successful contemporaries like Donovan and Fairport Convention to become perhaps Britain’s most popular folk artist. But how did a career that lasted less than seven years and ended in unconscionable tragedy become such a defining chapter in folk history?

In youth as in adulthood, Drake was a guarded and often abrasive figure. His father recalled an old headmaster of Drake writing that ‘none of us seemed to know him very well. All the way through with Nick, people didn’t know him very much’. By the late 60s, Drake had won a scholarship to study English Literature at Fitzwilliam College, Cambridge. Once there, he immediately aligned himself with, in the words of fellow student Brian Wells, ‘the cool people smoking dope’. Having found himself drawn to folk artists such as Bob Dylan and Van Morrison, Drake began performing his own music around London in 1967. Apocryphal accounts describe Drake as an imposing performer, his gangly build and harsh features giving him even at the outset the look of a star. Fairport Convention’s Ashley Hutchings talks of how Drake performing at this stage ‘seemed to be seven feet.’ Still, Drake was uncomfortable performing, a fact that would persist throughout his career. For all the extended paraphernalia published on his short life, no actual live recording of Drake exists today. 

Drake skipped lectures to record his first album, 1969’s Five Leaves Left, and by 1969 had left Cambridge nine months before graduating to return to London and focus on his music. He expanded from the raw, Leonard Cohen inspired sound of his first album with his second, the fuller, jazz influenced Bryter Later in 1971. With the release of Bryter Layter, Drake began to withdraw further, refusing to promote the album publicly and delivering reserved performances. Across two nights in late 1971, Drake recorded what would prove to be both his masterpiece and his final album, Pink Moon. Unlike his previous two records, Pink Moon, features no instrumentation beyond Drake’s voice and guitar – save for a brief, revelatory moment of piano intrusion on the titular track. Island, Drake’s record label, had not expected a third album from him and only learnt of its production when Drake delivered it, completed, to producer Chris Brackwell. A popular story goes that Drake left the completed tape unannounced at the reception desk of Island Records, though this was not the case: just another piece of mythologising in Drake’s already developing legend. Despite the strength of Pink Moon, now considered amongst the greatest albums ever recorded, it won Drake no greater acclaim and his work remained on the fringes of the folk scene. By this point, all of Drake’s albums had collectively sold under 4000 copies, leading him to consider joining the army as an alternative career prospect. Nevertheless, despite mental deterioration, Drake returned to the studio in 1974 to work on an ultimately unrealised fourth album. Throughout the year, however, his mental state worsened and a few months after his 26th birthday, Drake died in his childhood bedroom.

Drake’s posthumous fame came in no single wave but as a slow, rumbling ascension to the heights of folk’s musical hierarchy. Artists such as Robert Smith and Kate Bush cited him as an influence during the 80s and, throughout the decade, his status as a tragic figure began to brew. Documentaries and biographies began to appear in the 1990s and the somewhat un-Drakelike use of Pink Moon in a Volkswagen advertisement brought his music to a wider audience. By the 21st century, Drake’s status among the emergent ‘indie’ crowd had been firmly established. The use of Fly in Wes Anderson’s 2004 film The Royal Tenenbaums, on whose soundtrack Drake appears alongside the similarly fated Elliott Smith, represented an early example of his newfound demographic base. 

In the decades following his untimely death, Drake has been transformed into the archetypal martyr of contemporary folk music. His guarded public persona, his staunchly un-traditional attitude to guitar playing, his introspective and often inscrutable lyrics find fresh ears with each generation of wayward rebels and dreamers. The model of his martyrdom and lifelong mental health struggles have drawn him into the massed tradition of ‘tortured artists’ – alongside Van Gogh, Rimbaud, Plath and countless others – whose respective mystiques have only ballooned in the wake of their early deaths. This tendency to cast Drake as a tragically doomed romantic hero does, as it does to those other artists who shared his fate, a disservice to both his artistry and his memory. There is, of course, a degree to which Drake’s reputation has been made by his tragedy, in the same way that Van Gogh’s paintings or Plath’s poetry is made all the more powerful by knowledge of their grim contexts. The brevity of his career, represented in three albums amounting to a little under two hours, certainly affords him a certain unassailability. Compare him, for instance, to his great friend and contemporary John Martyn, another legend of the British folk scene, whose forty year career has earned him enduring acclaim but failed to bring him to the mythic status of Drake. Death froze Drake as the brooding face of eternal tortured youth: clad in corduroy and woolly jumpers, unkempt hair pushed back by the wind as he wanders through England’s green and pleasant lands singing of the days and their endless coloured ways.

It is easy for every brooding adolescent to find some understanding in a figure like Drake – indeed, that’s the very way his music found me – but to define Drake by his death, to narrativize his mental illness as the climax of his hero’s journey, is a gross error. Poorly treated mental illness – whether he suffered from heavy depression or schizophrenia was a fact undiscerned in his lifetime and still not understood fully now – robbed the world of a lifetime of music and, more importantly, took a friend, a son and a brother from those around him. It’s easy to fall for the myth of Nick Drake, but for the sake of all those affected by issues of mental health, we cannot. Nick Drake didn’t die for our sins. As a culture, we are all too keen to fictionalise our heroes and reduce them to stepping stones on the path to our own self-actualisation. On this path, Drake becomes just another victim of a tendency to fetishise mental illness, to turn unbearable pain into an aesthetic choice and by extension alienate the suffering from their pain. Nick Drake’s music is a solace, a heartbreak, a tragedy but Nick Drake was also a man. Now 80 and with a successful career in acting of her own to her name, Drake’s sister Gabrielle has reflected at length on the way her brother’s cult of personality has affected her personally. She remembers candidly hearing of one fan gleefully taking a piece away from Drake’s gravestone. But, she claims, this mythologised Drake – the dreaming boy roaming Hampstead Heath – only bears slight resemblance to her actual brother, a man she found frequently obstinate and difficult. 

The temptation to project one’s own woes onto our idols is a dangerous one. To look into Nick Drake’s steely eyes and recognise, not the seismic melancholy attributed to him, but our own troubles is an understandable salve to the woes of the world. But we must understand our heroes as people as well as legends. Nick Drake’s body of work is unimpeachable, three near-perfect albums of consummate artistry, an unbridled marriage of poetry and music. Yet, his memory’s necessary entwinement with his tragedy bears attention beyond the ephemeral attachment to a romantic hero. Drake is baked into the ecosystem of contemporary music: his influences are felt throughout artists from Belle & Sebastian to R.E.M. But perhaps his most powerful legacy is his enduring ability to connect with and console generations of listeners, to draw out beauty from the heartache of the world. To find serenity in art is natural, and if serenity does have a soundtrack, it surely must be by Nick Drake.

And I was green, greener than the hill
Where flowers grow and the sun shone still
Now I’m darker than the deepest sea
Just hand me down, give me a place to be

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