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Poetry

Little Religions

Defences

By Elizabeth Marney

He spends the summer of ‘18 in Italy. 

Returns with a tattoo of a cross, 

cradled in the crook of his arm. 

We argue about God until he cries.


Do you remember being 

seven years old? 

The boys in the field who called me a bitch? 

You: this little bundle 

of fury, headfirst into the fight. 

They beat the shit out of you.


You didn’t regret it.

You laughed, as we walked back home:

‘It’s just a black eye, Giorgi, 

some things are more important 

than a bruise.’


I told my mother I hated you, that night. 

And then I went to bed, 

prayed I’d know you forever.


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Poetry

Defences

Defences

By Elizabeth Marney

Two shirtless 

boxers face 

themselves 

before the fight, 

eyes locked on 

one another – 

a measured 

distance. 

Tough-strong 

gazes and crinkled 

brows donned 

for the audience

falter as one’s foot 

stamps forward

shoulders pressed back

leading chest puffed

I dare you, man, 

I fucking dare you

his forehead softened 

with a kiss.

 

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Creative Writing

The Plagiarised Life of a Durham Student

The Plagiarised Life of a Durham Student

By Elizabeth Marney

ALERT ALERT

You should see my journal, equal parts

gibberish and manifesto babyyy. 

Ahhhh yeahhhh, yup,

catch me strutting the catwalk in all your favourite places,

including (but not limited to) 

North Road, 

the Tesco in Market Square 

and the walk of shame home. 

I mean come on, there’s definitely a naughty list joke in there somewhere

– Merry Christmas my darlings! 

I got some old film developed and it’s giving 2013 Tumblr revival core. 

I’m a city girl forreal and I’m one day clean from being swag

– it’s a pussy night tonight

…. does anyone know if there’s a theme? 

Should I put on some trousers? 

I love giving my friends lots of kisses

and when my actions have zero repurcussions!

I’m on cloud 9 – glowing and growing –

the best of me is yet to come.



 

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Poetry

Motif for an Unnamed Forty-Year-Old DJ

Motif for an Unnamed Forty-Year-Old DJ

Liz Marney

 

Who are you to make demands 

        three girls 

                 two grams 

too old to die young 

           

You tell me you can be alone 

                     you can drink alone 

      you can think alone 

             but you think you want to take me with you 

 

You think you walk around 

      with morbid finesse 

             decisive      decadent 

not morbidly obsessed 

 

Greying hair glinting against 

     psychedelic lights 

           fingers creeping away 

                  from the decks

 towards unsuspecting thighs

 

You tell me you can be alone 

                     you can drink alone 

      you can think alone 

              but you think you want to take me with you 

 

Turning up half-cut to the school run 

      are you feeling proud 

saying who’s your daddy now 

      to the wrong baby girl 

are you feeling proud? 

 

You tell me you can be alone 

        you can be alone 

            you can be alone 

     but you think you want to 

            take me

                  with you.



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Poetry

Process

Process

Liz Marney 

 

In the old back garden 

the apple tree is still in springtime

she forgets that autumn exists 

now that she is only a memory –

old blood coursing through new veins.

Cinder-flesh charred, bonfire, phoenix,

ready to be more than grief.

 

We meet where salted earth 

is rolled with rosary.

Unfurl like a babies fist 

like a sigh of relief 

a yawn, a prayer.

We give and we pour, 

old as worshipped idol 

caught in a throe of life 

see both the sunrise 

and the sunset,

nestle our heads 

into mundane’s lap.

 

Time becomes serrated 

she grates against our skin 

she teaches us to slow 

to breathe deep and full

when we feel good air.

Sleep comes like sanctuary 

and waking tastes like hope. 

The worship doesn’t always

stick to these bones but 

absolution always comes.



 

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Poetry

Loosen Up

Loosen Up

Elizabeth Marney

It is a blistering Summer

as he strides into my house.

 

Doesn’t think twice 

about my words, just my mouth.

 

Says there’s so many feelings 

behind this feeling. Says that

 

He has more feelings than

I could possibly imagine. 

 

He needs me,

he says.

 

The way you could barrel 

through seven ice lollies 

on a sweltering hot day.

 

The way that when desperation strikes

you don’t wait for sugar water to melt in your mouth.

 

Ravenous, he tells me,

you suck. 

 

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Culture

Leonora Carrington and the allure of surrealism

By Elizabeth Marney.

Leonora Carrington, most famous for her ground breaking additions to surrealist painting and literature, steadfastly maintained that she was never born, she was made. On an otherwise ordinary day in 1917, in the Lancashire mill town of Chorley, Carrington’s mother, left bloated and uncomfortable by overindulging in decadent foods, lay herself upon a machine. This particular machine had been designed to extract hundreds of gallons of semen from all the animals you could possibly imagine and, from this joining of human, animal, and machine, Leonora was created. This playful, disturbing anecdote encapsulates Carrington’s work and personality. Through her life’s work we see consistent subversion and parody of gender, posthumanism, and madness – all presented in the most brilliantly jarring way. 

Whilst a patriarchal society may have brought us a breadth of insight from Carrington, it has left her often dismissed as a muse to the mainly male surrealist posse of the 20th century. Her time spent as Max Ernst’s companion or as ex-debutante is never far from conversation when an art aficionado is around. Carrington’s work was undeniably influenced by these things. Her most famous short story, The Debutante, contains an obvious nudge towards her past and her hunger to escape high society. A child debutante befriends a hyena and asks it to take her place at the ball. The hyena tears the face of the child’s maid, donning it as costume whilst the narrator remains willingly encaged in her room. After a snide remark is made at the ball towards their smell, the hyena rips off its fleshy mask and escapes through the window. Humanity is no more than a pageant of manners and materials. One need only decorate oneself and behave “like a human” in order to be accepted as a human. Whilst the turbulent emotions that she experienced in early adulthood greatly informed her work, it seems slightly absurd that a woman who escaped from involuntary incarceration in a sanatorium on a submarine is best known anecdotally for being on the footnotes of an ex-lover’s life. 

What is the use of surrealism if not to point out the madness in normality? Carrington dissolves the distinction between human, animal, and machine with diligence and decadence. There is a great merging of everything: mysticism, class consciousness, plants and animals, humans, chimeras, rotting meat. There is no hierarchy among living things; in fact, humans are frequently the butt of the joke. Carrington’s posthumanism undermines anthropocentrism by various means. By relentlessly highlighting that violence is inherent in all life, Carrington undercuts humanism’s false benevolence. In exposing the self-deception and charlatanry inherent to science and religion, Carrington articulates logic and reason as little more than misplaced coping mechanisms.

There seems to be little qualm throughout Carrington’s work that humanity is a harbinger of death and violence. Sometimes, such as in The Debutante, they see the brutal murder of the lower classes as an acceptable remedy to mild inconveniences. In other works, such as The Hearing Trumpet, this death and destruction is on a global level, materialising in the form of the atomic bomb. One may expect a sense of sadness or catastrophe to be attached to the notion of global destruction. Instead, Carrington leans into optimistic nihilism and posthumanism. There is an unknowingness to death that need not be so painful. She envisions a world populated by cats, werewolves, bees and goats – ‘We all fervently hope that this will be an improvement on reality’.

Carrington’s painting, Cabbage, is a personal favourite. Relative to the rest of her oeuvre, this painting is straightforward. It does not emerge from any bizarre context, nor does it rest in a richly detailed background. It is stark and spare, growing from a dark background and rendered in vivid shades of red and purple that echo a blooming rose. In her short story, Uncle Sam Carrington, the narrator stumbles upon two cabbages in a terrible fight, tearing leaves from each other one by one until nothing remains. It is almost as if there is no limit to the introversion of the cabbage – by peeling a leaf away one simply reveals a smaller cabbage. It appears to lose none of its essence by this extraction.  The anthropomorphising of a non-human object is a tempting analogy. Carrington asks us to resist this temptation. Metaphor itself is a metaphor for the inadequacy of language to capture essence. There is something unknowable of a cabbage and yet upon seeing her painting we attempt to know it. We may see a gloomy, rose-like, cabbage and project an emotional state onto it, we may cover it with lashings of butter and pepper and eat it for dinner, but we know nothing of being a cabbage. Likewise, as tempting as a reliance on predictability may feel, we cannot demand conformity and essence from human’s and non-human creatures. It is impossible to reconcile a reality experienced within power structures as a vindication of projections; it results in an unavoidable feeling of dissonance or misplacement, almost as if everybody in the world is saying quietly to themselves ‘nobody understands me, nobody ever will.’ One cannot truly conform to hegemonic norms; one can only appear to conform.

Part of the allure of Carrington’s work is that it does not demand to be understood. These creations are at their core playful, dreamlike, representations of life. Carrington loathed the notion of absolute truth. There is a spiritual element in the works, a darkness matched with hope, a recognisability that leans more on feeling than it does on logic. Whilst we may never understand Carrington, nor should we attempt to, she provides us with a springboard for introspection, playfulness, and an alternative understanding of the world around us. She embodies surrealism at its core.