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In Memory of His Feelings

Frank O’Hara, Sensitivity, and American Art

By Harry Laventure

Ah nuts! It’s boring reading French newspapers
in New York as if I were a Colonial waiting for my gin
somewhere beyond this roof a jet is making a sketch of the sky
where is Gary Snyder I wonder if he’s reading under a dwarf pine
stretched out so his book and his head fit under the lowest branch
while the sun of the Orient rolls calmly not getting through to him
not caring particularly because the light in Japan respects poets 

  • Les Luths, 1959

Frank O’Hara. Somewhere between the consonants and the syllable count and the ink, there is always a lining of jazz. This retains its tuning on and off the page. Cinematic close-ups dripping with cigarette smoke, darting from object to still and place to space with the flicker of a Red-Spotted Purple Admiral’s wing-blink. The poet, tethered by personality to an infinite ricochet of cocktail parties, New York intellectuals, lovers, and the avant-garde. “Les Luths” epitomises the rarer alleles in O’Hara, those that permitted the most microscopic of attentions to encounters with people and things that most would not endow with profundity beyond the happenstance. An effortless habit of admiration that comes when the reservoir of an ardent spirit laps over the brim and spills itself on an outside no longer collateral. More morbid – he would himself remark that the slightest loss of attention leads to death.

O’Hara’s sprezzatura of the soul flaneurs through the arteries of his corpus with an insouciance which never loses its natural ancestry from the heart. Indeed, it is this love and elevation of the quotidian which elicited poet Ron Padgett to choose his “A Step Away From Them” for the Library of Congress as an encapsulation of American Identity. Written shortly after his friend Jackson Pollock’s death, O’Hara opts for no grandiose lament, no hagiography, no tender confessions. Instead, he choreographs a historical record of his experiences during a lunch-break trundle. From yellow hats, to cats playing in sawdust, to a cheeseburger at JULIET’S CORNER, the parade of the random betrays circumlocution of the most dazzling sadness – these are not distractions, but elements of grief incarnate in the places he’s left to inherit without those he’s lost. First Bunny died, then John Latouche, then Jackson Pollock. But is the earth as full as life was full, of them?

Riotous in his energies and replete with artistic force, it is no surprise that this attentive, charismatic socialite would exert a particular magnetism on the cultural elite of the New York intelligentsia. One privilege of being so close to so many artists is that one garners an innovative, thoughtful armoury of compliments across dozens of different media. Jane Freilicher and Elaine de Kooning executed portraits that projected their respective styles onto O’Hara, carving out his idiosyncrasies amidst great slashes of the palette knife in tropical technicolour. Grace Hartigan attempted to translate his 1953 poem cycle of Oranges onto the canvas, even embedding his words in their abstractions. Alfred Leslie would personally request subtitles and translations for his short film from O’Hara. We cut to Frank, drinking again, bumbling into yet another atelier, in “Why Am I Not A Painter?”

for instance, Mike Goldberg
is starting a painting. I drop in.
“Sit down and have a drink” he
says. I drink; we drink. I look
up. “You have SARDINES in it.”
“Yes, it needed something there.”
“Oh.” I go and the days go by
and I drop in again. The painting
is going on, and I go, and the days
go by. I drop in. The painting is
finished. “Where’s SARDINES?”
All that’s left is just
letters, “It was too much,” Mike says. 

But me? One day I am thinking of
a color: orange.

To consider the perpetual stimulation proffered between these individuals, whether in the New York School or the Abstract Expressionists or any other self-nomination, is to learn the currency of O’Hara’s central, artistic voltage. The exchange rate is as generous as a drunken handshake. Guston recalls being air-lifted from a creative pit after a brief poking in of the head and a few suggestions. In this gauze of compliments, we must deliberate how much of Frank seeped into the art itself. On numerous occasions, we hear of spontaneous collaborations in the litter of summer afternoons. My favourite anecdote comes from Norman Bluhm: the pair sat in the velvet of October 1960 and listened to a Prokofiev sonata in chatter together. What begins as Bluhm attempting to demonstrate his understanding of the musical theory employed culminates in a moment of cerebral confluence, and – music still playing – him and O’Hara conduct an improvised set of sketches, complete with poetry composed entirely off the cuff. 

It is this fashion in which he is to be remembered by those he is most loved by. Not in the poetry that he hid in his drawers only to be lauded for now, nor the grand exhibitions he facilitated as Assistant Curator of the MoMA (a position which he’d attained having been promoted all the way from the front desk), but as the charmed, sparkling artistic intoxication with which he seemed to adorn the dance in his footprints. For all the compliments paid to him in his lifetime, 1999 saw a posthumous congregation of a most fitting collaboration. Brought together by the meticulously fervent work of Russell Ferguson and the Museum of Contemporary Art, In Memory Of My Feelings wove the literal personal effects of O’Hara and his clans into something that was simultaneously biographical, panegyric, and aesthetically instructive. Between many of the artists already mentioned and other titans such as Jasper Johns and Jackson Pollock, there lies the inexorable inability to amputate O’Hara’s life from the story of his generation’s artistic trajectory. Artist and poet, friend and critic. Those four nouns can be reconfigured as adjectives or adverbs to each other in any number of iterations without any loss in accuracy of expression. A tip of the hat in malleability. 

Lest we take anyone else’s word for it, let us return to O’Hara’s own work. I hope that he would not find it too offensive to suggest that, for all its brilliance, Frank never really saw his poetry as anything beyond another outlet. But what an outlet. He had been immensely experimental in his time as a Harvard student. I won’t try to rival Ferguson in eloquence of catalogue: 

… a striking diversity of forms that includes ballads, songs, a blues (so-called), a madrigal, musical exercises such as a gavotte, a dirge (complete with strophe, antistrophe, and epode), and even more exotic forms such as the French triolet. There are also an imitation of Wallace Stevens (with a touch of Marianne Moore) titled “A Procession for Peacocks”; a strict sonnet; a litany; poems in quatrains; couplets, and heroic couplets; poems with faithful rhyme patterns; and various prose poems.

Left in the company of such technical virtuosity, it is touching and telling to witness the consistency of his voice in the bare, casual, and sentimental tones of his main corpus. Drawing on the lesser-known greats of Reverdy and Apollinare, there is something confessional in O’Hara’s declared objectivity, and an unmatched sensitivity to the theme in the random or circumstantial. It sounds blisteringly blatant, but his poetry possesses a curation of contingencies which is almost musical in its cadence. Now That I am in Madrid And Can Think//I think of you. Such thoughts could only balloon to bloom at this very moment, in this very place, under these very auspices. The American air is only to be enjoyed because his lover is sharing [his] share, and the lungs that do so have sonorously subside[d] to greet him each morning with the flutter of your brown lashes. We then move to Toledo, where the olive groves’ soft blue look at the hills with silver like glasses like an old lady’s hair. The apprehension of the sheer number of happenstances that lead to the moment of observation is disarmingly beautiful in its appreciation. Even in his agony, O’Hara sounds grateful just to soak it up. This Personalism is immensely difficult to pin down or define, precisely because of the vast swathes of experience that the poet can cram into a matter of lines. In but one, then, his capacity to seek objects and scenes for what they meant rather than what they were retains a complexity which borders on abstraction only elsewhere found in music. Rothko gunned for the same in his colour-fields; Pater had previously observed all art’s aspirations to ‘the condition of music’. It makes sense that O’Hara was an exceptional pianist before he ever picked up the pen. Oversaturation by example to the point of the universal; when enough ostensibly random facets are showcased together, it is their key centre that is transmitted to us over the material. For this reason, we cannot trust O’Hara in his assertion that My eyes, like millions of glassy squares, merely reflect. It is not reflection, it is not projection – it is appreciation by address rather than praise. William Carlos Williams conjured no ideas but in things, Ferguson refined it to no ideas but in people, the obvious truth is that O’Hara is both. A kind of ventriloquist, bound to autonomous puppets. They are inseparable by their strings, the themes, though they still operate independently. It is a demonstration that the act of creation and the finished creation are the same, to poach from Ashbery. All this written down whilst sneaking out from the MoMA to type a few thoughts in the Olivietti showrooms. That is true sensitivity – or rather, Feldman would say, the dialectic of the heart. 

So poetic a life could only come to an end on a similar theme. Tragically, O’Hara was struck by a jeep just off the Fire Island beach in the wee small hours of 24th July, 1966. He was 40. I daresay the absurdity would have made him chortle. Profound exactly because it was engulfed by the everyday. In Larry Rivers’ funeral speech, he observed that at least sixty people would have known him to be their best friend. I do not think there is a better testament to O’Hara, in all his tenderness and personability, than Jasper Johns’ Memory Piece. In 1961, Johns made a plaster cast of Frank’s left foot. Two years later, in a poem dedicated to Johns, O’Hara wrote When I think of you in South Carolina I think of my foot in the sand. I leave it to Ferguson to close: In 1970, four years after O’Hara’s death (…) Johns completed the sculpture he had envisaged making. The cast is attached to the lid of a box that contains a layer of sand. Each time the lid is closed, a fresh footprint is impressed into it. The sculpture makes an intimate kind of memorial, keeping O’Hara’s physical footprint in the world in an echo of the way his poetry lives on in the minds of his readers. Rather,

oh god it’s wonderful
to get out of bed
and drink too much coffee
and smoke too many cigarettes
and love you so much

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5 Years of.

By Tilly James

We’ve heard the stories; big break up, tears and pain, followed by an excruciatingly timed “memories” notification from your phone. The “memories”? An album of you and the aforementioned big break up, in all your happiest moments. Brutal.

A coincidence? A sign? Some slightly twisted guy in the cloud with time to kill? We will never know.

Essentially, the devil works hard, but Apple photos work harder.

I seem to be no exception. My phone just chimed “5 years ago today!”

So, lying in my bed, with perhaps a bit of morbid curiosity, I couldn’t help but click. It did not disappoint:

A person with a sad face

AI-generated content may be incorrect.
I actually love crying, nothing does wonders for blue eyes like tears.

Ok, so not an album of loved up youths before it all went crashing down. Still, pretty brilliantly brutal though.

The poignancy, you see, is that this is the photo I took when I broke down for the very first time over my skin. When I looked at myself and begged something, somewhere, to stop what was happening to me, please.

It’s been a vicious cycle, and I’ve tried it all. Well, not all (all would be bathing in my own wee which is what a woman in the gym recommended to me, unprompted).

That’s the other thing, 5 years of unwanted advice. Of “try this, have you seen that, drink water, don’t have baths.”

But also, 5 years of incredible friends. Of champions and lessons. Of people having my back, and boosting me up. Turning the light back on. My mum, my brothers, my sisters, my family. My friends. Random people I’ve connected with; in yoga, on the street, in an audition, on the tube. Those knowing looks exchanged between allies, secret members of the club that many join but few remain in. All these people, keeping me going. Reminding me who I am, despite it all. Who I am, because of it all.

And myself. 5 years of pep talks in the mirror. A girl and then a woman on this journey. In a world where beauty is currency, and vanity is disguised as an app called TikTok.

I’ve challenged people, I’ve been bold and said, ‘why does this make me less?’ And for the most part, people say it doesn’t and they mean that. But some don’t. Some say hurtful things. Some see my strength (because that is what I now know it to be) as a weakness. And they go for it. They try to ruin me. They ask me what’s wrong with my face. They scream at me, ‘you are ugly, you are ruined, nobody wants you!’

I would be lying if I said it didn’t rattle me. Boy, does it. But, I remember what I would say if it was anyone else. I would say fuck them. To their core. I would say they don’t know me, they are small people with cold hearts and narrow minds. Keep going! I would say. Things will get better. Most importantly, remember that the world is BIGGER than this. You must add that pain to your armoury. Let it fuel you.

I am aware that this thing that affects me is so small in the grand scheme. It is a drop in the ocean in a world that is burning and on its head, where we are going backwards and we are at war.

And so I write this not for a poor me. But for a way to be seen.

More importantly. I write this as a way to see you, whoever you may be.

I write this to show it all; the big, the bad and the angry. I am not less for a superficial “impurity”. And neither are you. For whatever it may be, whichever “impurity” it is that haunts you. You are not it, you are everything and more.

And so, for the love of good writing and excellent TV, I IMPLORE you to see more. I write this, to ask you. I ask you to see more than what someone could be. See them for what they are, right now, in front of you. See you, for you are. Right now. That unfiltered person, there. THAT is beauty. THAT is exactly how it should be.

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Poetry

Soft Ghost

By Olivia Petrini

Spill it, and stare across a wine-dark sea
You, and me, in the rafters of the Old
Church, humming with weary hues and
The purple ring of this prohibited light.

We embrace on pointed toes, creaking
Heavy ones trembling in the honeyed winter night
You skim the spitting flame with icy glances,
Smile and crinkle golden foil.

You sip too quickly at the brim of the
Cut-glass gently crashing between your
Thumb and tactful finger. The dark
Wine weeping from your narrow wrists.

It’s not dawn and you’re outside in a duvet.
Soft bright ghost trailing sodden leaves
And sopping silver over
Gutters. Trampling the path to Cheam.
Blotting sleeves with bleeding mud and
Gleaming rain in thrumming white.

Put out the light!
And then put out the light!

Recall. Recast it all in pitiful bronze
Laid down, and up the swirling, steaming
Stage-light. You frighten me with your
Twitching lips and flick’ring hair.

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Creative Writing

Somewhere, November

By Saoirse Pira
On a Monday morning in November, Marnie will peel a pomegranate. The light through the window is thin and grey, the kind of light that makes everything look a little washed out. She can hear the boiler clicking somewhere in the house, the radiator hissing faintly like it’s making an effort, but all a bit in vain. The fruit is sitting in front of her on the counter, alongside the knife and bright green cutting board that was left in the house when she moved in.

She knows David is going to break up with her later. He hasn’t said it, but she can tell. He’s been distant, weird – answering texts late, looking at her sadly when he walks her home. When they made plans for this afternoon, his voice had this strange quality, like he already knew he didn’t want to come. She doesn’t blame him, not really, she can understand it. But still, the thought of it feels like something heavy and inevitable. The worst part, she thinks, is that she will say she brought this on herself – it was her on Friday night asking him what they were doing, if he had made up his mind about her yet. Of course, this is a normal thing to ask, but she turns the thought around in her head – at least she will have herself to blame. They were meant to meet on Sunday, but he was tired and hungover and hadn’t made up his mind. Marnie bought the pomegranate two weeks ago for a Halloween costume. She fancied herself clever, going as Persephone, though the whole thing felt slightly forced, like a joke only she was in on. A girl she sits with sometimes in lectures had suggested it to her – she said in earnest that Marnie should make David go with her as Hades. This seemed ridiculous to her, even then, but she laughed anyway, made a joke-that-wasn’t-really-a-joke about how he’d never do it. She never asked him, of course. But she bought the pomegranate and went to the party, and she fancied herself clever. She never got around to eating it afterwards. It just sat there in the fridge going weird. She isn’t sure why she picked it out this morning. Maybe because she knew today would be long, and peeling a pomegranate is something to do with her hands.

She rolls it between her hands for a bit, getting a feel for the size, and gets a sense that the last time she held a pomegranate was in primary school, though she can’t place when or why. It doesn’t really matter, it was just a feeling. She looks up how to cut a pomegranate, clicking through an article, a visual guide, a video. They all advocate a mess-free, so-easy-your-toddler-could-do-it method. She knows she won’t be following any of it, but she learns that the pomegranate is a berry, and the seeds and pulp are produced from the ovary of a flower, and it’s used for bonsai in Japan and Korea. She learns that we get the English word for the military ‘grenade’ from the modern French for the fruit; they have the same name. Her own grenade could have come from India, Israel, Peru, South Africa, Spain, Turkey, or America. The weight of it is heavy in her hands.

She sets the fruit on the cutting board finally, carves off the crown most of the way, then breaks it off clean with her hands. She scores along the ridges of the membranes, through the skin, top to bottom. The pomegranate is harder to cut than she thought it would be, and the blade catches slightly before it finally gives – it relents, and splits along the seams, and she presses her thumbs into the crack, pulling it apart. The juice beads at the edges and trickles down her wrists. It’s sticky, colder than she expected – over-ripe. The seeds glint under the dull light, impossibly red and slightly translucent, like tiny gemstones. Her hands work precisely, peeling back the membrane, plucking out the seeds one by one, watching them drop into the bowl. The whole process feels strangely neutral, almost comforting. There’s something to the rhythm of it, the way the fruit resists and then gives, the small bursts of juice staining her fingertips. She likes how quiet the kitchen is, bar the occasional faint sound of seeds hitting the bowl.

Marnie thinks about what David will say later – they’re meeting for coffee at three. She entertains a scenario in which he has made up his mind and chosen her. He will look at her like he does after a few drinks, just before a few too many. There will be love in his eyes. He will say that he’s ready, and it’s her, and he won’t say he loves her but soon enough he will love her. She picks out a stray bit of membrane from the bowl. He will not love her, she knows this much. He will say ‘I just can’t do this’, and ‘I’m sorry’. He will not say ‘I love you’, and he definitely won’t think it. She wonders if she will cry, or if she’ll sit there, nodding, like she understands it all perfectly, like she was on the same page the whole time.

She guides a seed into her mouth, bites down hard, makes note of the pop. It is both tart and impossibly sweet – something about it feels medicinal. The light has shifted slightly, making her reflection in the window more visible. She watches herself for a moment, her hands stained red, her face pale. Then she looks back at the pomegranate. The sky is heavy; Marnie can tell there will be no stars tonight. For now, though, she fixes her focus on the pomegranate, the bowl slowly filling, and the soft sound of her own relentless breathing.

⭒⭒⭒

“So, tell me about this David.”

Marnie hadn’t seen Liam since they left college for the summer. This was their grand catch-up, sat in the pub, sharing a table sticky with old spills and new initials. It was easy with Liam, the way they could fall back into rhythm after months of not seeing each other. She had told him over text that she had been seeing someone, that she really liked him. The weight of her news had felt heavy, dense in the air. He had been telling her about his summer of adventure, and she was so comfortable to be sat across from him, listening. Marnie wasn’t sure she wanted it to be her turn to talk. She hesitated, turning her glass in slow circles on the table.

“I think he’s the best person I’ve ever met,” she said finally, glancing up at him as though testing the waters.

Liam raised his eyebrow, turning his face to a kind of smirk. “Bold statement. Where did you find him?”

She laughed, looking down into her drink. “We met at Amy’s party. I don’t know, he’s just… kind.” The word felt small compared to what she wanted to say, but it was the only one that fit.

Liam tilted his head. “Kind how?”

“He listens to me,” she said, shrugging a little, like she wanted to make it sound like less than it was. “Like, actually listens. And he remembers things I’ve said, even small things. And he’s — well, he’s nice to me in a way that doesn’t feel like he’s trying to get something out of it.”

Liam gave her a look, his mouth twitching at the corners. “Marnie. This is not your usual brand.”

“I know,” she said, laughing again, but softer this time. She felt a little sheepish, like she was saying too much. “It’s different. We haven’t slept together.”

Liam blinked, visibly surprised. “Oh, this changes things. How long has it been? And he’s not gay?”

“No, he’s not gay,” she laughed, then added quickly, “It’s been a few weeks. I mean, it’s fine, obviously. It’s just – I don’t know. It’s weird. He said he doesn’t do casual. And I’ve never had someone hold their interest in me without giving them anything. Or feeling like I should. I don’t know. I think he really likes me, Liam.” She bit her lip and looked at her friend, feeling the need to downplay it somehow, like the powers that be would hear her hopefulness and strike it down. “Well, you know. We’ll see how it goes.”

Liam nodded slowly, watching her. “And you? Do you like him?”

She smiled, a small, private smile. “Yeah,” she said. “I do. He’s – he’s good to me, Liam. I like how I feel when I’m with him. He feels safe.” She felt the words settle in the air between them, heavier than she expected. She wanted to follow it up with something like, But who knows? It’s early days, just to keep things light, but the truth was she meant it. All of it.

Liam leaned back in his chair, folding his arms. “Well, I’m happy for you. This could be good,” he said after a moment, his voice softer now. “I mean it. It’s just… surprising, that’s all. You usually don’t—”

“Date, I know.” she finished for him, raising her glass to her lips.

“Yeah,” he said, smiling slightly. “But maybe that’s what makes this a good thing.” Marnie nodded, but she didn’t say anything. Instead, she watched the bubbles rising in her pint, thinking about David – about the way he looked at her when she spoke, like her words were something he wanted to hold onto. It was a nice thought. It was hopeful.

⭒⭒⭒

They had their first kiss in the club smoking area. Marnie had gone out with him and his friends. She wasn’t sure if he liked her, or if she had misread it. He kissed her and his friends complained that it took them too long. They met for coffee on the first date, they both had it black. They talked until close, she didn’t want to leave him – she asked if he wanted to go to six-thirty mass with her, and it was almost a joke until he said yes. They walked and sat in an old pub with sticky beermats. They walked to mass, arm-in-arm. If we walked to church like this back home, they’d ask when we’d be married. He knelt beside her in the pews. She thought he was beautiful. She apologised after, when it dawned on her that it was probably abnormal to be taken to church on a first date. He said it was okay. They found another pub – they sat, they talked. He was beautiful. It got late, she didn’t want to leave him. He walked her home; she hung on his arm and laughed, because they looked like Bob Dylan and Suze Rotolo walking. She invited him in. She showed him her favourite record, lay in his lap, listened to the first song. I’m quite fond of you, you know. She couldn’t find her favourite movie, so let him put on his. They lay on her bed. He kissed her. She felt beautiful. She tried to follow the movie, but her eyes were heavy and he was snoring, so she let herself sleep beside him. They woke up before the movie ended, he said he had to go. She didn’t want him to leave her, but she walked him to the door anyway. He kissed her at the door, and she didn’t close it until the dark swallowed him whole.

⭒⭒⭒

It happens the way she knew it would. Marnie gets to the café a few minutes early, hovers at the side entrance, stubs out her cigarette. He catches her, she walks over, they hover by the front door.

“I’m sure you know what I’m going to say.”

And she did – and he says just that. I just can’t do this. I thought I could. I’m sorry. The words land as they should — short, simple, unremarkable, a thud so predictably neat. Marnie had built this world in her mind, she had lived through it already. All there was left to do now was to watch it twist, contort, realise itself in front of her.

She nods then, she gets it – she understands. She has already understood. They move to sit on a bench facing the car park. It’s a shopping park, there are old ladies passing them with trollies, bags of groceries unloaded into cars. Marnie begs a little there, it doesn’t work – it doesn’t matter.

“Can we still be friends, though?” He shifts on his feet, looks at the ground.

“Of course. I want to be your friend.”

They would not be friends, this much she knows. It would be strange – strange because she almost loved him, stranger still because he knew it. They part awkwardly, she makes a joke that isn’t funny. He laughs, it’s warm. They will not be friends. There was no coffee, in the end. Marnie walks herself home, stares at the sky. Seagulls caw somewhere in the distance – someone told her once that this means a storm is coming. She has to laugh then: the sheer drama of it all.

In the kitchen, the kettle lets out a hiss before the final pop. Marnie makes a cup of tea. This time, she will take it with milk. Her pomegranate seeds sit in a bowl on the counter. It feels practiced, when her hands find the seeds, when she lifts them out to inspect the stains: blotches of pink, so much red.

The sky outside is heavy, there will be no stars tonight.

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Interview: Rob Ager

By Edward Bayliss

Rob Ager is an internet film critic and analyst

Known for his rigorous and penetrating insights into the sci-fi and horror genres in particular, Rob has been credited with pioneering the video movie critique. Starting in 2007, he has grown an impressive following of 359,000 subscribers across his YouTube channels, and has featured in the New York Times, Time Entertainment, Indiewire, and The Irish Times, to name a few.

I met Rob over Zoom for a ninety minute conversation on 30th January. 

Rob is wearing a blue polo shirt – the colour matching almost exactly with the acoustic soundproofing panels mounted on the rear wall of his studio. A microphone arm protrudes from the bottom of the frame. He meets his mic with the question of whether his sound and lighting are okay. I smile to myself in the knowledge that these are aspects of a shot he must have considered hundreds of times. His voice clear and his face lit well, I affirm, and we begin the interview. 

I thank him for taking the time to entertain such a small publication as ours, and begin with how and why he started his film critiquing career. Rob tells me that he ‘was writing, producing, directing [and] editing short films’ and ‘had also been working in mental health for many years so there was a lot of psychology in my life’. The latter of which, he adds, ‘started to blend in with the filmmaking’, affording him expertise in breaking down the nuance of character in film. Fondly, he recalls that he ‘started studying the masters, Hitchcock, Kubrick, and Lynch’, discovering that he had a keen eye for detail. He tells me confidently that he was ‘so impressed with the things I was finding in the films, that I thought I’ve got to share this to the world.’ YouTube was in its embryonic stages when Rob first began uploading videos, so for him, it was unchartered waters. Wearing a grin, Rob says that he ‘started at the channel on there thinking maybe a few hundred film makers will be interested in this and everyone else will just go ‘you’re a lunatic’ and, you know, just some obsessive compulsive nut but now, a couple of months later there were 10,000 subscribers and it all just snowballed from there.’

I congratulate Rob on his sizable YouTube following, and ask him what he owes his success to. Unexpectedly, he shrugs off my praise, and says earnestly, that ‘when you look at some other channels you’ve got on YouTube, they’ve got way bigger subscriber amounts than I have so I don’t really consider it to be all that impressive.’ He has been ‘limited by a number of factors’; namely, that his content doesn’t ‘lend itself to the click bait fast food video type’, with ‘thumbnail pictures where you’ve got a big arrow pointing at something and a big emotional word… I hate all that’. Rob trails off, lamenting the fact that ‘people are having to do things like that just to be noticed.’ I remind him of my original question.

Rob says that some of the debt of his success is owed to people’s conception of the ‘English academic’. Expanding on this, he suspects that people from abroad might assume ‘‘oh this guy is British’, and they automatically associate intelligence and being cultured but here in Britain I’m a Scouser, and I’m a scumbag, so people outside of Britain refer to my work as scholarly which it’s not because I’m not an academic.’ Though he might not be a scholar per se, Rob suggests that his work was and is ‘more sort of scholarly’ than most of his competitors. His originality, or ‘freshness’ has assured his popularity (in 2021, Esquire credited him with first developing the theory of child sexual abuse in The Shining), and though he doesn’t use ‘fancy video editing’, he reminds me that it is ‘the concepts that sell’. Indeed, Rob’s website is almost as austere as a car manual, but importantly, it’s absolutely clear in its direction. 

Next, we move on to the general practice of film criticism, with increases in democratisation and accessibility characterising the profession. Rob is aware that he hasn’t been traditionally schooled in his vocation, though he says that he’s ‘read a lot of biographies of film makers’ (at this moment, he gestures towards a spread of books on Kubrick and others atop a shelf behind him). He’s worked with ‘detailed sources, information, and interviews with people who have worked with filmmakers’, but insists that ‘most of my understanding of film basically ended up coming from making films myself… actually getting involved in the work is very important.’ I tell Rob that there’s definitely a Kubrick quote in there about the importance of picking up a film camera. Ager appeals to many sources for film knowledge; he says that it might sound as though ‘I’m sort of dismissing academia’, which to an extent he does, but still, he respects the fact that ‘there’s plenty of good that comes out of the field.’

When I ask Rob if there are any critics, commentators or analysts in particular that have shaped his modes of inquiry, I half expect him to reel off the usual suspects of Ebert, Siskel, and maybe even Kermode. Instead, he says dismissively that ‘there aren’t really any film critics I would go to for that.’ He shares anecdotal experiences that inspired him such as watching fellow Liverpudlian Alex Cox, whose TV show would ‘take a classic cult movie’ and would give a ‘breakdown about the production and some interpretations’. Rob also mentions script writer Robert McKee whose series he also watched in his teens. A formative moment came when Rob watched one of Mckee’s episodes on Terminator. Smiling, he remembers the presenter drawing attention to the human qualities of the robot; ‘why would the robot fix its hair – this creature has vanity.’ The psychological implications of film were also brought to Rob’s attention by his father who would ‘point things out in Hitchcock’s movies.’ Again though, Rob reiterates the centrality of biographies to his research and understanding of film. 

The role of critics or reviews in Rob’s world seems a small one. He doesn’t care much for reviews, arguing that ‘today’s marketing involves a hell of a lot of false advertising online, and I do think there are quite a few critics out there who in one way or another are taking a backhander in order to give a positive review.’ Despite the ‘nefarious’ nature of these suspicions, Rob explains the practicalities of this process: ‘some particular film review magazine – they have relationships with the film studios and if they give a really scathing review of some movie they might not get the exclusive interviews for the next movie that comes out from the studio, and that’s true of reviewing across the board with a lot of things.’

Rob is known well for his reluctance to explain his methods of ‘decoding’ films; I ask him if this is because the industry is so competitive. In short, the answer is yes. Some of these channels he says have ‘dozens of regular writers… putting out four or five very slickly edited videos a week’, and much of their content is ‘copied across’ from other channels ‘so they can get views’. Rob draws my attention to an incident of intellectual property theft that the channel ‘ScreenPrism’, now called ‘The Take’, committed. He says that ‘one of their writers just basically lifted their entire study of The Shining from my online article and pretty much everything in it was taken from [me]’. The video was taken down and blame games were played between ScreenPrism writers and producers.     

Most of Rob’s analysis has landed on films in the horror and science fiction genres. His most famous videos have focussed on films such as The Shining, 2001: A Space Odyssey, The Thing, The Silence of the Lambs, and The Exorcist. When questioned as to why this is the case, he remarks that ‘they’re allowed to bend reality a lot more than straight drama.’ Here, Rob’s investment and experience in psychology comes to the fore. For him, these genres ‘allow an exploration of the dark aspects of human nature… in a safe fiction form’.

Kubrick is often seen as the ‘king of genre’ – a jack of all trades and master of some. Not least from his well-renowned article, ‘Lessons from Stanley’ and weighty catalogue of criticism on Kubrick’s filmography, Rob’s interest in the director is common knowledge. I think Ager sees much of himself in Kubrick; not in self-aggrandising terms, but in their shared disillusion with schooling or ‘academia’ and pursuit instead of individual study. He notes how Kubrick ‘breezed into college and breezed back out in the end… and he basically became self-educated.’ Ager recognises the dizzying intellect of Kubrick, how he became ‘obsessed with self-education’, and how, amusingly, ‘it scares me to think what damage he could have done in the world if he was a bad person.’ Rob is intrigued by the ‘carefully crafted secrecy’ of the director, adding that he didn’t answer to anyone, ‘not even his collaborators’. This behaviour was spurred on by Kubrick’s experience filming Spartacus, wherein he came under a great deal of ‘nasty cast and crew members’; Rob suspects that this made him ‘think even more like a chess player’ – a telling image when we come to think of Kubrick. I bring up the Kubrick Exhibition in London’s Design Museum, and we share our awe at the mountains of cabinets which housed the director’s research for the sadly unreleased Napoleon. When Rob isn’t dissecting the films of the lofty Kubrick et al with his psychological scalpel, he enjoys ‘tonnes of movies’ where he doesn’t ‘see this kind of depth’ – the first two instalments of the Rambo franchise being examples.    

I probe further into Ager’s understanding of the psychological role of films in our culture. Cinema, for Rob, is a way to ‘learn about the world in a casual enjoyable way that is not restricted to words.’ He adds that ‘reading a published study can be fantastic […] but people like to experience something on a non-verbal level’. Fiction affords the possibility of allegory: ‘we know it’s fake, we know it didn’t really happen’, but essentially, ‘it relates to our own lives’ and ‘gives us a different way of considering our own personal lives.’ Rob leans further back into his chair, and boomerangs back to Kubrick. Doctor Strangelove is ‘as good as an academic book’ on the Cold War, though the film simply ‘communicates it in a different format’. ‘If you want to learn about the criminal mindset, watch A Clockwork Orange, or the nature of conspiracy theories, watch Eyes Wide Shut’ Rob urges. He considers the filmography of Kubrick to be tantamount to any written journal on the same psychological subjects.  

Inevitably, I too can’t help but return to Kubrick. A man who has been so often associated with myth and legend, who has been resigned to the realm of ‘the recluse, the misanthrope, the phobic, the paranoid, the museum piece.’ I ask Rob if he thinks there is a danger of sensationalising and over-speculating the character of Kubrick. I have in mind a two part video series that Ager released recently, titled: ‘Was Stanley Kubrick Killed?’ His ‘manipulative mind’ and his ‘genius’ are aspects of the director we should be wary of; Ager warns. Kubrick’s methods on set were unorthodox – Rob ‘disagree[s]’ with the mistreatment of actors, and draws attention to the strange facts that despite Kubrick’s extraordinary IQ, he killed himself with his ‘smoking habits’ and diet, and as a ‘family man’ who, while making Eyes Wide Shut of all films, failed to foresee his daughter running off to a Scientology cult. That Ager lends even a voice (while dismissing its claims) to the notion that Kubrick might have been murdered seems strange considering his otherwise concern for the mythologising of the director. I remind myself that this video series has almost 350k views.

Ager bemoans the politicisation of cinema, it being one of the ‘26 reasons why modern movies are so awful’ (another of Ager’s videos). He stresses that the public entertainment industry is not the place for party politics, yet, ‘politics has seeped so heavily into everything in our culture these days […] it’s beyond boring.’ It seems the apple is rotten, inside and out, with actors, producers and directors all ‘trying to manipulate us into supporting whatever political candidate they support.’ 

The overuse of CGI is concerning, as is the use of artificial intelligence ‘to create videos’, which Rob describes brilliantly, as ‘awesomely lame.’ AI and CGI have been ‘getting films away from reality’ where he would rather see ‘flesh and blood, people in front of a camera, in an actual room.’ Rob says that the expensive technical standards are wholly unnecessary; neither Laurel and Hardy nor the Marx Brothers had it. Too many films these days look like ‘shampoo adverts’, wages Ager, furthering his point with the proposition that a film needs only good characters and a good story to succeed.  

Another problem facing the industry is that of the ‘Easter egg’. This feature of films was once a ‘subliminal’ effort of directors to tap into the subconscious of viewers, but has now become a sickly stunt ‘for the sake of marketing’, wherein ‘people on YouTube’ can now hunt for tokenistic references and nods, according to Ager. I mention to Rob that this is how I felt about Coralie Fargeat’s The Substance with its insistence on ‘paying homage’ to just about every horror film ever made, losing all credentials of originality in the process. He nods his head in agreement, furthering the notion that there is a level of self-consciousness from directors that renders subliminal messaging void. When he made his first independent feature film in 2012 (Turn in Your Grave) Rob admits with a knowing grin that he ‘absolutely overdid the self-conscious subliminal thing.’

Rob’s expertise lies in seeing things others don’t – he is credited as the originator of the now widely accepted child sexual abuse theory of Danny in Kubrick’s The Shining, and has produced groundbreaking commentary on ‘the monolith as the cinema screen’ in the same director’s 2001: A Space Odyssey. Where people have often levelled the criticism that Ager sees things that aren’t there, they often later discover that his findings are meticulously researched and stand atop a sturdy wall of evidence. 

Dan Leberg, of the University of Toronto’s Cinema Studies Institute, however, fails to recognise Ager as a valid film critic and analyst. His attack, in a long-form piece published in 2011 (and the most formal assault on Ager’s mode), calls out the critic as a ‘fanboy in the ivory tower’, ‘mediaphiliac’, ‘pseudo-intellectual’, ‘eccentric’, and ‘un-serious’. Leberg’s article begins anecdotally when on his first day of teaching, ‘one of my students informed me that the tutorial discussion I had so laboriously planned on Stanley Kubrick’s 2001: A Space Odyssey (1968) was a moot point because of a YouTube clip she had seen the night before.’ This turned out to be Ager’s hundreds-of-thousands-times-watched analysis of the same film. Importantly, Ager declares on his website (which itself has about 5000 words detailing his past, experience, and credentials – something he tells me is ‘necessary’) that it would be a mistake to put him on an ‘intellectual pedestal’. Rob explains to me that ‘some of my favourite intellectuals of all time are academics’, though there are ‘pitfalls in academia’, highlighting that the route into such a world was never accessible to him, given his upbringing in ‘poverty stricken parts of Liverpool.’ He adds that there is a great deal of ‘snobbishness’ associated with the university educated, and that there’s ‘academics who just want the title of being an academic so that they can claim intellectual superiority over others.’ Rob believes that Dan Leberg falls into this camp. Ager’s commitment to ‘self-educating’ has led him to harbour a ‘distrust’ of much of what traditional academia has to offer. Leberg accused Rob of plagiarism and copyright infringement even though Ager has persistently defended himself with the statement that ‘I’ve never said that I was the only person who had made this discovery [concerning the monolith in 2001: A Space Odyssey]’. Rob then brings to my attention the ridiculous notion ‘that only an academic can do a serious study of a movie that was made by a non-academic [Kubrick]’. Interestingly, Ager’s content has been used widely amongst academic institutions. A lecturer at Ohio State University used Ager’s material to teach their students in an ‘undergraduate Kubrick class’, and Ager received ‘a batch of fifteen or so thank you letters’ from their class subsequently. Rob has also, he tells me, been consulted by many academics including the well-reputed Diana Walsh Pasulka, for her book American Cosmic – you can observe the 144 instances of Ager’s work being used by media, academics, websites, and blogs, on his website. This all seems to paint a robust portrait of Rob Ager, the qualified critic.

Ninety minutes have elapsed since Rob asked me if his lighting was okay. The sun, now further along its track and beginning to settle, casts more distinct shadows on Rob’s studio wall. We finish the interview with the usual gestures of thanks and appreciation. Looking now at the mirror of my black screened laptop, I cannot help but see Ager as the most qualified unqualified critic, the film-fanatic fanboy, but also the clinically disposed and professional analyst.            

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Culture

Egon Schiele – Sketches Through The Digital Age

By Matty Timmis

Believe me, I am not a fan of Instagram. It’s the closest fit I can think of to a ‘Babylon machine’, except maybe something like a credit score, but who the fuck really knows what that is. The strange thing is though, when examined honestly, Instagram’s Babylonian currents have been a powerful force for moulding who I am today, how we all exist in this strange new age, and where we all think we’re going. I’m not quite sure that’s the tragedy everyone would have you believe.

Now I am not a psychologist or a sociologist, in fact I can sometimes be a bit suspicious of those more abstract sciences, so this is not one of those tiresome researched or sourced papers. As an insufferable arts student, I much prefer to triangulate my sense of self and reality with the medium of other people’s creative expression. The other week then, as the clock on my phone taunted me with the grandiose digits of the evening, through midnight’s crescendo of zeros and onward to the meek little numbers of the pre-dawn morning, I stumbled upon something genuinely interesting. Amidst the chintzy buzz of the search feature, trapped in the gaudy mosaic, between tiles of hideous car crash videos, offensive memes and plastic surgery was a strange post that genuinely struck me.

What I had stumbled upon, in the suitably unpalatable hours of the morning, was a collection of ten paintings by Egon Schiele. These were like nothing I had ever seen before – piercingly raw, expressive, and tormented in their vivid simplicity. A protege of fellow Austrian Gustave Klimt –  Schiele led a suitably troubled, bohemian existence. Dead by twenty-eight following a twisted, reckless life – pursuing an incestuous relationship with his sister and having a less than healthy relationship with alcohol, he bore well the stereotypes of a troubled artistic genius. This however is not an article about such a blackened bolt of lightning – this is an article about me, and hopefully about you too.

To start, what I think is so interesting about this unlikely discovery is the way in which it speaks to the power of art to occasionally triumph over the patter of the mundane. I certainly did not search for this, or any other kind of artistic revelation, and I’m certain my dastardly algorithm is not skewed to present me with anything so profound. Yet when I glimpsed it amongst the discards of empty degradation I was affected deeply, enraptured with the power of a few lines.

Those lines, those bewildered, tortured faces Schiele summoned, were strangely prescient to my online experience. I feel those wailing lines, sketched in a kind of visceral flow that would often see him fix his manic pencil to his paper for the duration of the piece, can be traced onto the minds of the digital age. There seems to smoulder in the singe of those brandished pen strokes, a very strange kind of symbiosis. Between those warped, shrewd sketches and the pale flame of our minds that flicker so fickle at every swipe, burning to the pace of the digital age.

There’s a desperate kind of compulsion lurking in our digital presence that, when considered, is fundamental to our conceptualisation of ourselves. That kind of stupefied, arresting gaze that we fix to our screens for interminable periods lingers in Schiele’s lucid, striking faces. I suspect Schiele’s inspirations stemmed seldom from contented individuals or joyous experiences, heaven knows he wasn’t a beacon of certitude. But he had the cogency to articulate a particular facet of those prosaic lives, to reveal the swirling mire of darkness that beckons us, that we have always escaped into. 

I, for one, have never desired any relations with any of my family, nor do I have such a harrowing relationship with substances, but all of us I think remain ghastly consumptives. Instagram is often referred to as addictive, but I think the connotations of that word constitute a slight misunderstanding. We know that Instagram works almost exclusively to our detriment, yet we cannot resist complicity. We are not helpless to the ravages of addiction, we are engaged in creating our own snare. We not only consume but contribute. There is a darkness implicit in that, and that twisted human agency is written with crushing lucidity across these seemingly regular, strangely devastated faces. Like any true piece of art they are an accompaniment, a mirror in which looms a charmed derangement – the frantic consumption of our lives.

The elevation of beauty is scrawled over all of our Instagram feeds, and it sucks us into a strange semi-reality, ogling the embellished truth of lives. We too cannot help but project a vision of a life in its most favourable terms, but the depth lies in our desire to do this, which Instagram feeds off. What is so striking in these works then is their undressing – their candid presentation of our sparser, but more emotionally complex minds. Something that lies not in our mere projections onto Instagram, rather in a far more layered embodiment of our interaction with it. What I read in those warped lines of lives is far more complete than a post – it is the murmurs of all live’s choruses, crushing us and contenting us. In our age those strange figures, leering so tormented from the page, are more than glossy holiday posts or a ‘chronicling of memory’ , they also gape for our mindless hours of swiping. They know of the strange curse of existence, of our idle, ivory desires.

Schiele’s paintings, particularly those portraits that I first discovered, are exercises in that damnation, quantified in the digital age. They are portraits of the humdrum, of the menial and the uninspired, but they throb with a macabre revelation, one fuelled by the hopeless forces of consumption. They sing for the looming twilight churn we are so often ensnared in, scrolling to the conclusion of our wits, right out to the precipice of our contact with reality.

So whisper it, but maybe there’s something true in the Babylon machine. Maybe it has moments of brilliance, where the hard swing of the numbed chisel unearths a little vein of gold that courses through our minds, when the miasma is illumined by an eerie brilliance. I am aware Zuckerberg has actually managed to get worse recently, as though he were in some fiendish race to the base of man’s ineptitude. Would the world be a better place if he had kept his churlish woman rating creation in his virginal notepad? Probably. Does there remain however glimmers of creativity’s timeless capacity to reflect personhood and inflect reality even there? I think there may well be.

As a footnote, Instagram can’t be too terrible, chances are that it is the means by which you found this pretentious crap!

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Culture

Bourdain: The True Travel Man

By Sam Unsworth

“Eat at a local restaurant tonight. Get the cream sauce. Have a cold pint at four o’clock in a mostly empty bar. Go somewhere you’ve never been. Listen to someone you think may have nothing in common with you. Order the steak rare. Eat an Oyster. Have a Negroni. Have two. Be open to a world where you may not understand or agree with the person next to you but have a drink with them anyways. Eat slowly. Tip your server. Check in on your friends. Check in on yourself. Enjoy the ride.” – Anthony Bourdain.

Is it really possible for one to be effortlessly cool? Appeal to all? Understand and be understood by those with lots and those with little? Only one man, I find, has this connection. The late great Anthony Bourdain. While Parts Unknown and A Cook’s Tour used to seem to me of the genre of Ice Road Truckers, River Monsters , or whatever everyone’s dad was watching in the late 2000s, they are in fact some of the most insightful perceptions of what it means to travel and embrace culture. I would expect that most readers are familiar with the opening quote, no doubt plastered on an eccentric French teacher’s wall at school, but find it means far more now than it did at the time.

The beauty of Bourdain’s work truly lies in his honesty. Whilst the Clarkson, May, Hammond trio, Michael Palin and even Richard Ayoade have inspired prospering travellers to engage in great feats and navigate the globe purely for thrill and interest, they fail to capture the same intimacy as Bourdain. The audience feels as though they know him, that they are experiencing his strange escapades alongside him, both the good and the bad. We are invited into the very workings of his brain, as though every episode is a tell-all about his multitude of experiences.

I was recently rewatching Parts Unknown, procrastinating whatever essay was sitting in my due folder gathering dust, when I came across an episode I had not watched for a long time. The Sicily trip. This episode is utterly thought-provoking as Bourdain circles into a state of manic depression after a staged diving trip to “capture” some seafood for dinner.. Bourdain swimming along the vibrant coral with octopi falling from above, hurled from a fishing boat not ten metres away. With each splash, and falling fish, the shock and disappointment crept across his face. We, the audience, are then taken through the rest of his travel, and hearing the voiceover we feel as though we are experiencing the trip alongside Anthony. He admits in the voiceover that he had proceeded to get so drunk after the fishing trip that he did not remember the interactions and meals that were filmed after it. He states that had he not been filming he would have returned to his hotel room, mixed up some medicine, drank, and flicked through the porn channel. This kind of gritty honesty is what makes him such an engaging character, we see him through thick and thin.

In Parts Unknown, we are introduced to a slightly older, more mature Bourdain, already a seasoned traveller but now lacking his signature cigarette stuck to his bottom lip. On a side note, I have been meaning to find an interview between Bourdain and Marco Pierre White and count who smoked more cigarettes during the interaction. Bourdain’s early work is what drove his mantra of “enjoy the ride” as we see him eating anything and everything, challenging the new and mysterious with an open heart and mind and firing Kalashnikovs whilst sipping on a Tiger in a Cambodian bar. Interestingly, at said bar, you don’t pay for drinks but for ammunition. Bourdain personifies the traveller, willing to talk with anyone and do anything such as his graphic discussions about bondage in Tokyo. Having grown up in the kitchen, Bourdain is aware of a tough life and hard work and made his name in the culinary field working in Michelin star kitchens. He was a man who knew how to eat, but, more to the point, he knew what he liked to eat. Whether that be at roadside cafes or famously the meal he shared with Obama in Hanoi, there is a refreshing lack of snobbery in his ideas on food. He narrates with a quick wit and humility, dealing with the culinary delights of the world, whilst also dealing with very intense and very real problems facing many people today.

So, if you find yourself at a loose end or simply need some inspiration for your next travel or adventure, then there is no better place to start than with the master himself: Anthony Bourdain.

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Poetry

 Long Weekend 

By Esme Bell

 

Today at home I cut my nails  

to the beat of Rickie Lee Jones 

whilst my dad waged sense on Twitter  

and my mum did a pagan ceremony  

at the kitchen table, making a wreath 

with wood and tissues of paper.  

My sister tried on my clothes upstairs, 

excited to be taller than I was then, 

and peace lolled legless into me 

like two hounds with silky ears –

feeling time brittled away, past, sullied. 

In the valley it had rained but the sun  

Came out, red-ringed, before dinner. 

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Reviews

Tied up in Love: Revisiting Secretary on Valentine’s Day

By Misty Delembre

It seemed like a fitting Valentine’s Day choice: Secretary (2002), the offbeat, kinky romance that had once felt refreshingly different from Hollywood’s sanitized love stories. I remembered it as tender, strange, darkly funny – a film that challenged normative notions of desire and control, of what it means to be in love and be seen. But on rewatch, there is something near insidious about the way Secretary is able to seduce its audience. It masquerades as a love story. But beneath its neatly tailored surface, something far more perplexing simmers. Steven Shainberg’s film walks a fine line between empowerment and conditioning; liberation and entrapment. It is a film that titillates while making us uneasy, that plays with control while never quite relinquishing its own.

Although this time, I couldn’t ignore the details. The imbalance. The erasure. He is Grey; she is Lee. He is the boss; she is the secretary. He is older, composed, in control. She is younger, uncertain, and  shamelessly desperate to please. It is not lost on me that he refers to her by her first name, while the film never allows us to know him as anything but ‘Mr. Grey’. Even in language, the hierarchy is maintained.

Yet the film romanticises their dynamic as a kind of mutual discovery. Lee, a woman who has spent her life in quiet self-destruction, finding solace in the structure of submission; Grey, a man daunted by his own desires, learning that he can allow himself to indulge. But this concise narrative arc collapses when observed too closely. The truth is in the unspoken details, the ones the film never asks us to interrogate too deeply.

Grey has done this before. Lee is not the first. She is not special. This is indeed a pattern. A hiring practice. A cycle. The film never lingers on the implications of this – the other secretaries who sat at that desk, typed those letters, ceremoniously bent over at his command. Were they discarded when they got too close? Did they leave, shaken, distraught and  ultimately unsure of what had just occurred? Secretary treats their existence as a footnote, a quiet admission that Lee is merely another in a line of women funnelled through Grey’s carefully constructed world.

And yet, the film asks us to perceive this as love. It asks us to believe in the sincerity of their connection, to rally when Lee proves her devotion by sitting, hungry, exhausted, near-delirious, at his desk for days, waiting for him to decide she is worthy of his affection. Her submission, once playful, becomes obscured by undertones of abuse. And while the film frames this as an act of self-actualisation, of agency, I cannot shake the unease. Would this be as palatable if Grey were less conventionally attractive? If his office were not bathed in warm, rich mahogany? If the camera did not romanticise his touch, his control, his power?

The mise-en-scène aids in facilitating this deception. The muted tones of Lee’s home life, occluded thick with repression – soft pastels, smothered under fluorescent lighting – give way to the deep, intoxicating reds integral to her transformation. Lee’s wardrobe transforms from frumpy skirts to fitted, dark-hued dresses, the deep red of her lipstick echoing the welt of a fresh handprint. This is a film obsessed with texture, attune to the unfolding of control. 

The cinematography intently mirrors this descent into submission, shifting from the sterile, detached framing of her early life to the sensual close-ups of her and Grey’s interactions – the tension built in the pause before a touch, the breathy silence that replaces dialogue, the way even diegetic sound seems to hush itself in anticipation. The camera lingers on the sensuality of small movements – the stroke of a hand against skin, the weight of Grey’s gaze. The lighting is warm and intimate, coaxing us into complicity. We are seduced alongside Lee, drawn in by the same slow unraveling of control. And perhaps this is the film’s greatest trick – it somehow makes submission feel like freedom. But whose freedom?

Lee’s submissiveness, for the most part, isn’t framed as a weakness but as a kind of self-actualisation. She does not suffer under Grey’s control; she flourishes. And yet, the film is careful about how it allows Grey to exert that control. Unlike the overt brutality of, say, The Night Porter (1974) or the performative excess of Fifty Shades of Grey (2015), Grey’s dominance is measured, almost hesitant. His punishments are not arbitrary; they are rituals of structure, discipline, imbued with intimacy. He is not cruel, but he is afraid – his desires are tinged with a hesitant edge, unsettled by the implications of his actions.

It is here that Secretary becomes its most fascinating and most troubling. For all its transgressiveness, the film is not truly radical. It does not upend traditional gender dynamics so much as repackage them in a new and palatable aesthetic. Yes, Lee initiates – she even pushes for more when Grey recoils. But in the end, it is still the man who holds the power – who dictates the terms, who punishes, who ultimately decides when and how the relationship will function. Even the film’s climax – Lee’s days-long protest of stillness, her body growing weaker with each passing hour – reads as both a declaration of agency and a disturbing surrender. And here’s the real provocation: is Secretary feminist, or does it simply disguise submission as empowerment?

It would be easy to frame this film as a story of liberation, of a woman embracing her true desires. But to do so neglects the larger context in which those desires are inherently shaped. BDSM, in its most idealised form, is about mutual exchange, about negotiation. But in Secretary, there is no conversation about limits, no safewords, no clear indication that Lee’s desire for submission is anything but an extension of her lifelong craving for structure and discipline. She moves from self-harm to being disciplined by a man in a position of authority. The film never interrogates whether this is a choice or simply another coping mechanism.

There is perhaps a version of this story where Secretary is genuinely radical, where Lee’s desires are explored with the complexity they deserve. A version that does not gloss over the troubling reality of power dynamics, where Grey is forced to reckon with the fact that he has done this before, and will likely do it again. Instead, we are given a fantasy – a love story built on omission.

Watching Secretary again, I am not sure if I find it beautiful or horrifying. Perhaps both. It is a film that complicates pleasure, that forces us to question the narratives we have been given about power and romance. It is intoxicating, yes. But so is a lie, when told well enough. 

And this, I think, is Secretary’s real legacy – not as a film about love, but as a film about the stories we tell ourselves to make love feel safe. Even when it isn’t.

Image credit: MUBI

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Reviews

Anora: Stripping Down the American Dream

By Sarah Humadi

Baker’s cinematography is striking; the muted, industrial landscapes of Brooklyn and commercial Vegas contrasting with pops of vivid neon lights of the strip club, metallic, glittery streaks throughout our star character’s hair, blankets, scarves and scratches of deep red enveloping her when she’s wounded from Vanya’s betrayal – I find myself reminiscing of Edward Hopper’s lonely Americana. Upon my first watch, I’m already comparing particular scenes to Hopper’s works such as his famous Nighthawks, Chop Suey, Morning Sun, Manhattan Bridge Loop. The moments of tenderness and desperation woven into the everyday. Anora’s visuals are enticing, exciting to look at. Baker plays with light and color in a way that captures the isolation of late-stage capitalism—the glow of a strip club sign, the sterile excess of oligarch wealth, the dull flickering of a cheap motel TV. It echoes Edward Hopper’s paintings, which similarly frame the American Dream as a distant, melancholic illusion. But where Hopper’s subjects feel unknowable by design, Baker’s characters are supposed to be fully realized—people we see, hear, and understand. The problem is, I don’t always believe them. And while Anora is gripping, it’s hard to ignore the lingering feeling that its perspective—like Tangerine and The Florida Project before it—comes from an observer, rather than someone who has truly lived these experiences.

Sean Baker has built a career chronicling America’s fringes—trans sex workers, struggling single mothers, and broke motel-dwellers in their passage to survive in a system rigged against them. With Anora, he takes on another precarious life: a Brooklyn stripper on the edge of living a life she’s dreamed of – money, social capital, friends, someone so captivated by her he wants her till death does them part – only to have the dream shattered. It’s devastatingly real and emotionally raw—but I end up asking myself who is telling (or rather showing) us this story?

Baker is an upper-class white man drawn to stories of the marginalized. His intentions seem good—his films rarely feel exploitative but at a certain point, we have to ask: why is Hollywood so eager to give these stories to filmmakers like him, rather than those who have actually lived them?

This isn’t just about Baker. It’s about an industry that consistently funds privileged directors to tell underprivileged stories while sidelining voices from those very communities. The problem isn’t that Anora exists—it’s that someone with Ani’s real-life experiences likely wouldn’t get the same funding, platform, or audience reach.

It’s almost like, ironically, the story of the American Dream is not just told through the plot of the film, but perhaps even more so behind the scenes of its making; it’s people like Ani that rarely, if ever, are recognised for their ambitions/work (to note, we hear little to nothing about Ani’s backstory or ambitions, although this might have been an intentional choice to have her walls up as part of her character) to make it to the top, or at least at the same level as directors such as Baker.

The media we consume shapes how we see the world. If the majority of films about sex workers, immigrants, and struggling single mothers come from a distanced perspective—one that studies rather than lives—then audiences will take that as truth. And while no community is a monolith, there’s something dissatisfactory about an outsider defining the mainstream depiction of these lives.

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