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A psalm for the moment:

By Lyra Button


a palette knife twisting together 

grey and white paint

lathering clouds onto the night. 

Embellishing all the skys mysteries 

with faint angels and fluffy cotton owls.


 the rain gossips on paving stones

and wuthering winds whisper to willows

 in a language I’ll never know. 


Theres a barn

broken in bales of hay,

and a fire in the corner 

fluttering like a red winter robin.


Theres two sheep. 

a dapple grey horse

 and three cows. 


Their heads 

all leaning on eachothers bodies

 so quiet 

that I can’t picture it as

 anything

 but prayer. 


What I mean is that a thousand philosophers

 couldn’t teach me anything about God,

that I could not learn by giving 

my old Nan a pair of hand knit socks. 

Noticing her smile, all slight and celestial. 

and feeling the tiny move of a hand onto an arm.


We make so much of the miracle 

that we lose hold of the moment, 

and miss its dog eared corners

 of ordinary magic.


You can spend years deciphering

 the mechanisms of the sky,

but all that means nothing when weighed against 

that simple moment beneath stars,

as fingers lace together.


The world does not ask you to understand her.

just that,

while you have breath, you use it for kindness,

while you have fingers, you use them for such things

as making soup.

And so long as you live, you live in wonder.


A miracle is just a moment worshipped properly

Call it love.                Call it God. 


Whatever name it holds 

   I hold it,

      sacred.


So I sit

 with my family.

hands round a cup of coffee

 that holds the whole worlds happiness.


hand out Christmas cards and presents,

point out the brushmarks in the clouds.

Watch my Dads smile and hold it tender.


 I take my cup,

dip a biscuit

in the warmth of ordinary dreaming

and drink.


I feel my love and call it 

  prayer. 


Whatever name it holds

   I hold it, 

        sacred.

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Pity the Girl in the White Skirt 

By Samara Patel

He’s leading her on. Playful touches on her arm when she says something silly, hand on her back leading her through a crowd. Pinning her down with those golden-brown eyes of his, saying that her hair looks pretty, or touching the hem of one of those athletic short white skirts she always wears, just to say he loves the material. And he can’t possibly ignore the way she blushes from her cheeks across the tip of her nose whenever he turns his attention to her.

Leto and Zuri clearly got along well from the start. At any restaurant, college bar, or kitchen table, they would find themselves sitting next to each other. Zuri always sits down first, her gaze darting over to Lucas every so often, until he pulls up a chair next to her. That small gesture always makes her smile, but she tries to hide it behind her hand every time.

We all like Zuri, ever since Emile brought her into our little uni friend group a few weeks after their classes started. Zuri’s very sweet and quite naive at times, shy in dress and manner, subtle and quiet and graceful in all things. She usually dresses in white, oversized dresses and jumpers, her black butterfly braids falling around her face. In contrast, Leto is an English student who, as all his friends know, has not read a single book on his course list. Frustratingly, he manages to coast by with good grades when all the rest of us are stressing through formatives. His blonde hair is wavy around his face, the back of it nearly brushing those collared shirts he always wears. He has a gorgeous girlfriend back home in Leeds, who he even very briefly introduced us to. I don’t even know her name.

We’ve all talked about them. I mean, okay, I know it’s bad to talk about people behind their backs, but his flirtation was far too obvious and almost cruel to the poor girl. Like the other day when we were walking back from the library after a long study session, and I was chatting with Emile and her boyfriend Ben. Leto and Zuri were walking ahead of us, a bit apart from the group. I’ve talked to her a few times, of course, idle chit chat, but we don’t really have much in common. She seems to exist in an odd limbo where she gets nervous around Lucas like you’d get nervous around someone you have a crush on yet knows him better than the rest of us due to being around him almost constantly, so is most comfortable near him. It puts her in the odd position of always being slightly on edge.

On this day, we were all walking back from the library after a long study session. Emile points ahead at Lucas and Zuri, and we hash out the usual theories and predictions of when/if they’ll get together. As we’re theorizing, Zuri drops the books she’s holding, her accounting papers spilling all over the pavement. The wind picks up, blowing around her equations with no care for the author. And she’s trying to catch the papers, gracefully dashing around to pick them off the pavement and blushing furiously while accepting some from strangers that have scooped them up from the air. While all this is happening Lucas hangs back, not even trying to hide his laughter, nor trying to help. Once her papers are collected again, she pins him with an accusatory look that only reignites her blush when he returns it, and smiles at her. He gets a bit closer, brushing a braid off her face and behind her ear. Leans into her and whispers something next to her pearl earring, one hand on her hip to steady her against the wind, as if she’d topple over if he wasn’t there to hold her up.

At this point, Emile, Ben, and I have paused in our walk to watch this drama play out. Zuri goes stock-still, white skirt whipping around her knees and cardigan blowing in the breeze. The books in her hand, the howling wind, even we are ignored as this boy starts to talk in her ear. The passerby chatting and leaves swirling in the air, winter chill and study-induced exhaustion are all long forgotten. And we can’t help but feel awful for her, this innocent girl who got swept up in Leto’s pretty eyes and gentle words. Because in his left hand is his phone, so conveniently facing us, and we can barely make out the image of his girlfriend’s face on the call screen. The phone vibrates for one, two seconds before he pulls back. This boy pulls away from Zuri, gives her the ‘give me a sec’ hand gesture, and walks away, putting the phone to his ear with a cheery, “Hey, babe!”

And Emile and I, we just look at her. Now standing alone in the middle of the pavement, staring after him with the most heartbreaking look on her face – eyes wide and bright, lashes fluttering in shock. Her blush is worse than ever, but instead of dancing across her cheeks and nose, seems to flush down to her neck and the tips of her ears. Her mouth is slightly open in the manner of someone who has been ripped out of a wonderful dream, glossed pink lips parted. She shakes herself, just once, and puts her poker face back on again. She turns away from him and walks back to us.

“Did you end up figuring out those chemistry problems?” Her voice was perfectly even, not a trace of sadness or anger. The blush receded, and she blinked a few times until the tears were gone from her eyes. She didn’t acknowledge that we were there to witness the whole thing, didn’t call us out or pick a fight. Just started some mundane conversation like she wanted to forget that anything ever happened.

He’s leading her on. He clearly cares a lot for his girlfriend, though Zuri always does her best to look unaffected when he mentions her. Part of me wants to plan a girl’s night out for her, bring her sweets and chocolate and alcohol until she forgets about the whole complicated, depressing situation.

But the other part of me, the mean and gossipy part, wants to sit back and watch. See if she bothers to hide her teary eyes from the room when the girlfriend next calls or goes against her nature and tries to flirt with him, though that’s unlikely. That sadistic side of me wants to see if she’ll ever give up, although something tells me that she gave up on a future with him a long time ago and is coasting off a sort of hopeless adrenaline.

She knows she’ll never get the boy, but that doesn’t mean she will ever stop hoping. Because a girl like her, sad as it is, will never stop chasing what she can’t have.

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The Many Materials of The Substance

By Edward Bayliss

Someone at some point said something about good artists borrowing and great artists stealing. The provenance of this quotation is unclear, the meaning perhaps even more so. All art must have some kind of singularity as well as a worldliness, that is, both originality and inspiration. I’m interested in how art, or in this case the new cinema release The Substance, approaches its inspirations and predecessors. The question I suppose, is whether this film steals – makes its own, and bends these images and threads of plot to its will? Otherwise, does it only borrow, pedestal and ultimately return untouched and unexplored its horror inheritance? I’m afraid to say that Coralie Fargeat’s The Substance reads more like maniacal fan mail than a love letter to its genre’s history.    

The issue is that the film loses almost all shreds of singularity to a screenplay swamped with incoherent horror recollections dropped with exhausting frequency. Like the Hitchcock cameos in his early films, we find ourselves constantly on the lookout for his next appearance, or in this case, for the next Kubrick corridor, or bathroom for that matter. We’re full on easter eggs, thank you very much director Coralie Fargeat. Here we have homage for the sole sake of homage, a mere gesture of tokenistic exchange. What I want to see is theft; for Fargeat to take these images and make them her own, to possess them. 

I made a mental list of all the films that The Substance referenced while watching it in the cinema. I didn’t want to, but these allusions were too often so painfully blatant that I couldn’t help myself. As the run-time wears on, the film becomes less like a window, and more like a mirror. It reflected scenes, sounds and ideas from: Black Swan, Carrie, Requiem for a Dream, American Psycho, The Shining, 2OO1: A Space Odyssey, The Fly, Men, The Great Gatsby, Vertigo, The Elephant Man, and Brazil. Plotwise, it riffs heavily on Oscar Wilde’s The Picture of Dorian Gray. Much of these representations exist very strikingly in their isolated forms. The extreme close up shots of dilated eyes and gunk filled syringes of Requiem for a Dream; the gross body horrors of The Fly, The Elephant Man and Men; the dystopian and sickly unrealism of Brazil; the bloody theatricality of Carrie and American Psycho; the restless score of Vertigo.  All of these are brilliant constructions of cinema, but they rub awkwardly against each other in The Substance. There’s no cohesion to this collective as they each, it seems, vie for their spot in the limelight. It feels as though we are thumbing our way through a tired catalogue, whose pages we’ve read before and will read again. It’s bad borrowing.       

It should be said, Carolie Fargeat’s film is very good looking. She opts to shoot in 2.39:1 aspect ratio, or ‘anamorphic widescreen format’ for the terminologists amongst us. This is pretty much the widest modern cinema format available, used traditionally to capture broad landscapes in period dramas or sprawling universes in sci-fi films. Here though, we have an insanely wide frame used in compact corporate interiors, affording an uncomfortably full and stuffy feel to the shot. It’s just a shame that the director feels the need to fill the frame with objects and ideas that aren’t hers – a fact of dispossession we notice too often. Unlike The Cabin in the Woods, which fondly and friskily recollects its horror inheritance, or The Witch, whose woodland setting riffs convincingly on recent and ancient folkloric tropes, The Substance’s references are woefully soulless. Fargeat seems to think that any given image from a film will translate seamlessly into hers, and this misunderstanding is what characterises the bad borrowing of the director. 

There are some shards of hope. The crosshairs of this piece have landed only on the referential aspect of Fargeat’s film. There are many qualities to this film; though whether they are redeeming I’m not sure. This will seem a footnote to the article, but I’ll say that the superb performances of Margaret Qualley, and, especially, Demi Moore didn’t go unnoticed. I also respect the fact that Fargeat remained unafraid to attack the potent and pressing issue of body image with a biting relevance. It’s just a shame that our attention is dragged towards half-baked horror allusions and not the features I mention latterly.         

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Reworking Keats’ Ode on Melancholy

By Madeline Harding


Glut your sorrow.


Look on my face with those doleful eyes

Only I have seen.


This is the ultimate intimacy;

It seems as though your sadness was made for solely me.


Indulge your melancholia.


Embrace me tight.

I will wrap my arms around you to show you it’s alright.


Not only I but the sky cries with you

As she makes her mournful music when pattering on the ground.


Do not suffocate that noise,

or suppress your woeful cries;


For with it you will kill your senses

And they’re what make you alive.

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Arboretum Autumn

By Rohan Scott 


More gift of the watery sky, no Indian summer in sight

Rain and fog, grain sodden to bog.

I tread the mudded trail cutting the planted rows.

Rhododendron, Hydrangea, purple Verbena

Nomenclature serves no barrier in the floral wonder

Hues of periwinkle and mauve dusted with water drop


A clearing announces my arrival at the steps of the wood

I am greeted by a solitary maple

Who directs me to seek shelter under the arboreal cluster

Thank you and farewell, leaving it alone, again.


The beechen canopy wipes the rain off my shoulders

As I wander into the dark and dank

Interspersed are fir and pine following no forested rank

The needle littered floor presses a waft of wet loam

My eyes spin above my person

Enamoured by these silent sentinels


My feet wander through this towering grove

I am drawn along the trail to the feet of a champion

The great Wellingtonia peers down at me

Standing over a hundred feet

To ease the crane and strain, its lowest limb gestures a seat


I scan its blood shale bark, its samphire leaves

I’m speechless.

No, I have so much to say – but you can’t hear me?

A wind carried whisper corrects me,

It listens closely to my thoughts,

Bestowing momentary solace –

To be alone, In company,

With a newfound friend.

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Can the ideas of Dogme 95 be applied to art curation?

By Matthew Squire

This article presents the argument that the Dogme 95 cinema movement can be effectively repurposed to assist in the curation of exhibitions. 

(The ideas of Debord apply)

1. Shooting must be done on location. Props and sets must not be brought in (if a particular prop is necessary for the story, a location must be chosen where this prop is to be found).

An exhibition must occur in its most simplistic form, with no information or outside influence on the art exhibited — the art itself must be the information. If an audience cannot extract meaning, then the meaning is not for them. 

2. The sound must never be produced apart from the images or vice versa. (Music must not be used unless it occurs where the scene is being shot.) 

If music is to be used, it must be produced live. To use reproduced music is to allow for consumerism (however little) to infiltrate the exhibition space, which must be free of such. Diegetic sound also allows for a greater meaning to be taken by the audience. 

3. The camera must be hand-held. Any movement or immobility attainable in the hand is permitted. 

Art has moved past the point of painting. To paint means to be immobile in a mobile age, and to do this means to be removed from action. Art must be kinetic, and engendering a thereby kinetic relationship with an audience allows for more meaning in art.

4. The film must be in colour. Special lighting is not acceptable. (If there is too little light for exposure the scene must be cut or a single lamp be attached to the camera.) 

Again we must view painting as an outdated form of expression: in an age when artificial intelligence has overtaken the strength of Degas, we must question the power of even the post-impressionists in creating emotion for an audience. On this point, we must also discuss the role of traditional galleries in this proposed movement. 

Art occurs for the enjoyment (or irritation) of the general public – a medium through which they can gain Instagram likes, or gain views on TikTok. The gallery model facilitates this through shameless promotion and capitalist intent. As previously stated, capitalism must be removed from art for true meaning to be created. For example, the Tate Modern is supported by billionaire art collectors who disguise themselves as patrons: its collections are committed to being exhibited at the will of a greed-driven individual. This is not without a resultant damage to the art’s meaning. 

5. Optical work and filters are forbidden.

Whilst art can be seen as an escape from the grim reality of life, it must (as this manifesto posits) stay authentic and political to retain meaning in today’s world. Because of this, art must remain as true to real life as possible. Examples like Joseph Beuys’ Blackboards or protest art can be seen as effective pieces that need no augmentation. 

6. The film must not contain superficial action. (Murders, weapons, etc. must not occur.) 

Of all the rules in the Dogme manifesto, this is the only one which can be disagreed with, as art of the modern day can take forms not seen before, and in a weaponised society, weaponised art can (and in some cases must) take place. The Situationist International and its effect on the May ‘68 protests through the form of violent art disprove the argument that art must be void of superficial action. If an artist wishes to sacrifice themselves for art, this must be allowed to happen. 

7. Temporal and geographical alienation are forbidden. (That is to say that the film takes place here and now.) 

Art is current, art is now.

8. Genre movies are not acceptable. 

We are at a point at which art has become generalised, and therefore genre must be transcended by art. We have reached a point similar to that of the French New Wave, and it may be perceived that ‘a certain tendency’ of art is being perpetuated once more: a familiar roundabout of mainstream art being produced. In short, it is time for change. The world is generalised, art cannot be too. 

9. The director must not be credited. 

Consumerism creates celebrity, and celebrity destroys art in its elevation of an individual above their work. The work is paramount as it is the work that carries meaning; the artist is merely a vessel of ideas, and therefore needs no accreditation. 

In an exhibition, the viewer must be given the art without distraction: celebrity is a distraction from real life, and a distraction from real life allows for real life to be destroyed by others. 

ART > ARTIST 

ASIDE: STAR CURATORS

As is the case with celebrity artists, curators must also fall by the wayside when it comes to the importance of art in a modern society. 

Whilst it could be argued that some artists exist as art themselves (Gilbert and George etc.), celebrity still undermines art, and to exist as a celebrity is a false existence. 

EDIT: 

An overarching rule that must apply to all exhibiting of art is that it must be in a constant state of flux, as the past does not exist anymore. Art must now exist in the present and in the future. 

Static art does not matter. 

Static art is past and not future. By this, we mean that the time in which static art had meaning is in the past. 

In a constantly active society (for better or worse) art must be alive. 

In a world in which we are condemned to a single model of humanity, we must establish a way of creating separate forms.

Museums are antiquity, galleries are unrelieved, and there must be a change in the established method. 

All art must be alive, all art must be in Fluxus, all art must reflect humanity. 

The time for oils and paints has passed, the time for action has arrived. 

 

Image Credit: Caroline Tisdall, Joseph Beuys Coyote 2011, Large Glass.

 
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Ode to the End of the World 

Ode to the End of the World 

The road is long, 

it arches softly like the back 

of a cat on a hot day 

basking in the sun 


and I think we’re lost. 

The sun is setting 

or maybe it’s the middle of the 

day, but the birds — 


they are awfully quiet. 

I think the trees are 

drowning and the dust 

is hurting my eyes 


but you can hold my hand 

(please hold my hand) 

Time is a slipping like so 

much sand through my fingers 


my legs are tired our legs 

are tired. Come, we should sit down but 

I love you and I love you 

and that is all there is



The Wind 

The leaves are dancing; a waltz 

with the Wind in late afternoon. 

For a beat they are gentle, then 

the Wind missed a step — 


she is clumsy, experience can only 

teach so much. The leaves don’t seem

 to mind, they press on to the sound 

of the bell. It tolls in the distance, 


and the Wind finds her footing, 

if only to tell the leaves of Her stories 

— of children playing and lovers 

dancing, of the hymns they sing to find 

their God 


but they do not know (and for this, 

the Wind laughs) that their God is all around them; 

hiding in the whisper of the Wind 

for this is her very own hymn — 


in the dance of the leaves, 

and the beat of the waves as they find 

the shore, again and again and again.

Quiet now, the Wind slows her waltz 


and whispers something for 

only the leaves to make out.

It can be only love, truth be told. 

This is all she knows to do. 



Ode to a Home I Do Not Have 

Four walls, a table and two chairs the

 doors make do with the hinges — 

they laugh, but it sounds, 

to the untrained ear, like a creek. 

A fire burns somewhere off-stage, 


they can’t quite tell if it’s the 

mantle or the heart of the girl

upstairs. 

Regardless, it is warm and 

the walls are painted ivory; the 

curtains hang in green. A bookshelf 


stands tall in the corner, not dusted – but

not unclean. One shelf boasts stamps and 

pens and envelopes; 

the books are read to be shared.

A cat is stretched out on the floor 


by the window — her black fur 

kissed brown by the sun. 

She would swallow the sun if 

she could — I would give it 

to her on a plate. 


The present and the past meet 

in the middle, here. Nothing lasts

forever, but for now feels long enough.

Stay here for now, please. 

Come — the kettle is on.


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Overripe

By Muna Mir

‘You know I hated you when we first met.’ 

The confession excites me slightly. We’re walking through an overgrown field by the river. Something touches my leg. It’s grass. Everything around us is grass. Long and overgrown, too early in the season to be cut, but trying so desperately to get there that it reaches up and tickles the tender spot behind my knees. It’s grass but I swat at it anyway. I can’t remember meeting Flora. I’m walking behind her now, watching the brown tips of her hair turn golden in the sunlight. 

‘What changed?’ I ask. 

‘I’m not sure,’ she replies. 

Before we became friends I hadn’t thought that Flora had known of me at all. Tracing the inception of our friendship was one of our favourite pastimes. Neither of us could pin down quite when it had happened, less so why, only that we were happy it did. It seemed to me that one day the sun had risen and we had woken up intimately connected to one another. That was all. Our tentative colloquialisms had turned into knowing glances and we became a pair. I couldn’t imagine how it had ever been otherwise. I wouldn’t survive severance. 

But Flora must have known me before. She may not have known my name, or my favourite film, or the two colours of nail polish she now knew I kept under my sink, but she’d known me enough to hate me. A thrill rushes through me. I watch the way her hand trails the high stalks of grass. When the adrenaline ebbs, it is replaced by a warm pool in my stomach, like beer, sloshing gently. ‘I suppose we began actually speaking and then something clicked.’ 

‘I think you’re right,’ I say. But I can’t remember it happening. It feels like I should be able to remember the exact moment with sound (the signing of a contract, the clicking close of a pen), but I can’t. She stops suddenly and turns around. 

‘Sorry. That was kind of a shitty thing to say.’ 

I shake my head. It was. It doesn’t matter. 

‘You know I love you, right?’ 

I nod. Her eyebrows are furrowed and cast shadows across her eyes. 

The warmth in my stomach has grown sickly. I get this sometimes. Always with Flora. It’s greed, I think, the way my body floods with warmth every time she does something she has to apologise for. Symbolic of scales tipping in my favour. Or an indicator that I still have some chance at self-preservation. Or maybe it’s some perverse greed: happiness wrought from the knowledge that I have any ounce of power over her. It’s times like this that I think about ending things. A voice inside of me screeches that it would be impossible, but I know that isn’t true. I could do it. I could stop talking to Flora, and after a while she would fade into memory. I could work until Flora was just a combination of sounds in my head. ‘I love you too,’ I say, and I mean it. 

I think she might kiss me then but she turns back around and I’m left to stare at the gold flecks of light in her hair again. 

We’re going to a field somewhere. Somewhere pretty, I’ve been told. Flora had found it (a small copse of trees) on her own a few weeks ago. She told me that when she did all she could think of was sitting there with me. I don’t know if I believe this. I think it more likely that she found it with Eoin and doesn’t want to tell me. I don’t really care. Not in any way that matters, anyway. 

The last remnants of what could reasonably be considered a path disappeared twenty minutes ago, and if I turn around to search for where we came from the grass stretches on forever. The grass goes on forever. I can’t tell if we’re trespassing—the fields around us are untended and wild, but I can’t imagine any plot this large having the privilege of being in disuse. I don’t know how Flora is keeping track of where we are and I haven’t asked how long the walk is going to take. 

Did I want to go on a walk with her? she’d asked me the day before.

We’d been lying on her bed watching a film. 

Sure. 

I watch now as she pushes aside dry branches and prickly leaves, leaving a small trampled trench for me to walk in. Behind me the grass stitches itself back together so that it seems we were never there. I can’t tell if she really was about to kiss me or if I had just been thinking about it. Too many seconds have passed since it happened and now I can’t think of it in any clarity at all. The more I replay the split-second the more it gets worn and fuzzy, the more I deceive myself into believing what my mind wants to remember. 

I think about kissing Flora a lot. It’s happened before. For a while I thought that meant that it would have to happen again. I’m not so sure anymore. Quite often I can’t tell if I want it to or not. I suppose the answer is I do, but I can’t tell what that would mean. I’m not sure what I would want it to. Flora’s stopped to examine something in the grass by her feet. I stare at the way her hair falls over her shoulders as she bends down. A piece of it falls into her eyes and the urge to push it back twists some tender spot in my gut. It’s that realisation. The one I keep having again and again and again

It first hit me a few weeks ago. We were sitting in a booth at the Two Foxes. It was colder then, it had been raining for weeks. It was still that period of false spring where flowers are drowned instead of raised. We were celebrating something, but I can’t quite remember what. I think Flora had handed in an essay she’d been slaving over. I hadn’t seen her much lately. 

I had begun to notice that it was always like that. I’d live inside her skin for a week, then left abandoned for just as long, stuck trying to remember how to stay warm on my own. It was then, lying in my bed in the dark that I’d think about ending things. It couldn’t go on for any longer, I wouldn’t let it. But I always did. Eventually the sun would come out and Flora’s hair would turn golden and that colour would wash onto the rest of my life. Maybe that was how it was always going to be. 

But that night we were sitting in the back of the Two Foxes and it was raining out. The windows were frosted with condensation, and the table we were at, all the way at the back of the pub, was sticky. My head had already become heavy and was lolling into my hand. 

We had spent the past ten minutes laughing hysterically at something Eoin had said to her the other day. I can’t remember exactly what it was now, and even if I could it wouldn’t be half as funny. I couldn’t tell if she really liked Eoin even though they’d been going out for over two months. I still can’t. He was texting her intermittently the whole evening. It was never about anything important, none of it was particularly witty either, but I think, if anything, that’s what she likes about him. He seems to always need her for no reason at all. 

I thought about that while we were sitting there. I thought about Eoin and Flora and how long she would entertain him before she got bored. I thought about me and Flora and how long it would take before the glamour wore off and we no longer knew each other. I thought about forever sometimes, infrequently, and not there in the pub. I thought about how my memories would change if I grew alongside someone instead of away from them. 

I suppose my drink was wearing off because suddenly I could sense that I had grown estranged from the whole evening. As if in a flood of cold water, I became wary of the fact that I had begun vying for Flora’s attention. I couldn’t tell when it had happened and it was only in the gap in our conversation that I noticed how the sensation grew. It was silly, and I tried to squash it down. Eoin had just called her. This wasn’t rare. There was always a fifty-fifty chance that she would pick up the phone, or that I’d be spared the interaction. Her eyes would gloss over the caller ID swiftly before she’d turn the phone over and continue talking to me as if nothing was happening. I liked it best when she did that. It thrilled me and warmed me and made me feel special. This time she had picked up. It had been a quick call. A short

parade of words: ‘Yes,’ and ‘Of course,’ and ‘That sounds good,’ before ‘Okay, I’ll see you then. Yeah… okay bye,’ and she’d hung up. 

It wasn’t anything important. She’d apologised, made him seem like a nuisance, and apologised again. Still, some scab had been scratched, and I could feel myself unravelling. I hated that I wasn’t mad or irritated. I was bleeding desperation and if I didn’t end things soon this sickness would become visible. Her hair was falling over her face as she looked down at her phone. My stomach ached. I could feel a curtain drawing closed between us. I gulped down the remnants of my drink and mumbled about going to use the bathroom. 

I gripped the sink and turned on the faucet. For a moment I stood there and listened to the water run. I closed my eyes and then thought I might fall over and opened them once more. Letting the cold water run over my wrists, I watched my chest move in the mirror as I breathed. I have to end things, something squeaked, I don’t want to do this any longer. In the mirror I looked worn out. I pushed my hair behind my ears. My cheeks were heating up, making me look fragile and feverish. 

When I returned to the table I feigned sickness. I needed to go home, I said. We parted outside of the pub and she hugged me tight and told me she’d missed me. Sobering up in the cold, I thought about never speaking to Flora again. 

We’ve reached the grove now, a grassy patch between high fields. She sits down and squints up at me. She stretches a hand up to drag me down and I let her. There are plums growing on the trees, some unlucky fruit already scattered around our feet. Sickly sweet for a moment before they begin to rot away. Summer will be the end of it and when everything is done I will be emptied entirely. It was never going to be any different. 

She leans her head on my shoulder. In the month before summer, I think of ending things.

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Arthur Rimbaud: The Disappearing Poet 

By Maisie Jennings

A small, drawn mouth, static brown hair like charged feathers, the foppish ease of his chin resting on the heel of his palm. Henri Fantin-Latour’s 1872 painting, By the Table, depicts Arthur Rimbaud amongst his austere contemporaries. The poet is seventeen – a year prior he had written The Drunken Boat, a dazzling anarchic gem of French symbolist verse, a year later he began to write the crystalline disorder of Illuminations. At twenty, Rimbaud leaves Paris, enlists in the Dutch Colonial Army, and never writes again. 

I was sixteen when I discovered Rimbaud – a poetic icon I found in my worship of Patti Smith, the crowish Poet Laureate of punk rock. In her memoir, Just Kids, Smith describes her adoration of Rimbaud; sixteen in Philadelphia, she stole a copy of Illuminations and found an ‘unrequited love for him’ with the same aching pangs of a teenage crush. I’ll admit, I recognised a smug concordance between the poet, Smith, and I – all sixteen, three centuries apart, and starting to write. Crucially, my poetry was largely sad teenage dreck and less consequential than a pebble in a pond; Rimbaud’s The Drunken Boat, with crests of purest transcendence and crashing depths of filth, changed the landscape of poetry with the force and beauty of a colossal wave. 

And from then on I bathed in the Poem

Of the Sea, infused with stars and lactescent,

Devouring the azure verses; where, like a pale elated

Piece of flotsam, a pensive drowned figure sometimes sinks

Art

The poem is a synaesthetic collection of perfect lines – some with the delicate cadence of seafoam , and others that howl monstrous from the sea’s abyss. It is a triumph of Rimbaud’s precocious mastery of verse and his youthful poetic philosophy. For Rimbaud, the poet becomes a kind of sybillic being through the disruption of the senses – verse, and its potential for capturing all octaves of sensory experience, is the medium for such transformation. In his Letters du Voyant (the name given by scholars to letters Rimbaud wrote in the May of 1871) he writes: ‘The Poet makes himself a seer by a long, gigantic and rational derangement of all the senses. All forms of love, suffering, and madness’. Rimbaud sought to directly encounter the unknown through revolutionising form; poetry became a kind of language of alchemy. 

Rimbaud was born in 1854 in Charleville, a village in Ardennes. In 1871, he wrote to poet Paul Verlaine, washed up in Paris, and the two began an affair that would culminate with a revolver and a bullet to the wrist, somewhere in Brussels, just two years later. Living down and out in Paris and London, I picture Rimbaud and Verlaine sulking in the acrid dinge of opium dens and cheap hotels – poets of the underbelly and the gutter. The original enfant terrible, Rimbaud’s Baudelairean lifestyle ostracised him from the Parisian literary coterie; in Latour’s painting, writer Albert Mérat is surreptitiously replaced by a vase, having refused to be “painted with pimps and thieves”. He describes his volatile relationship with Verlaine in Une Saison en Enfer, an extended poem in prose and the only book Rimbaud published, as a twisted domestic farce – Rimbaud the ‘infernal bridegroom’ and Verlaine the enslaved husband. Still, he entrusted the texts that would constitute Illuminations to Veraline – published ten years after Rimbaud had deserted from the Dutch Colonial Army and vanished in the jungles of Java, Indonesia. 

In his Illuminations, his treatment of the senses is hallucinatory and surreal – flavoured with absinthe, hashish, and the tumult of his travels with Verlaine. The world of Illuminations is at once utopic and apocalyptic; the poems describe the burnt asphalt and debris of a city, inhabited by angels, orphan children, princes, and giants. A Grimm metropolis textured with brimstone visions, it is perhaps Rimbaud’s most realised poetic revelation – a transcendence of the vatic poet. Why then, after having ostensibly fulfilled his poetic philosophy, does Rimbaud abandon his pen? I think the answer can be found in the beautiful, terrible images of Illuminations. Rimbaud presents us with a world that seems to be captured from the vignettes of a child’s nightmarish dream – his poetic achievement, then, seems to be located within his youth. At the cusp of adulthood, Rimbaud seems to have turned his psyche inside out, and then, turned away from his hallucinations, visions, and impressions, and towards the material world. He appears to offer a farewell to poetry: 

For sale: living places and leaving places, sports,

extravaganzas and creature comforts, and all the noise,

 movement, and hope they foment! 

For sale: mathematical certainties and astonishing harmonic leaps. 

Unimaginable discoveries and terminologies—available now.

After his departure from poetry, details of Rimbaud’s life as he travelled across three continents are obscure. Until his death from cancer, aged thirty-seven, in 1891, Rimbaud was soldier to a brutal imperialist regime, a mercenary, an arms dealer, a coffee trader – his one hundred and fifty-odd letters from his time in the Horn of Africa paint the portrait of a man, who was, more than anything, entirely prosaic. The visionary, adventurous seeds of wanderlust he planted in the sparkling landscapes of his poetry are a far cry from the scrupulously mercantile business man, complicit within a violent colonial enterprise, revealed by his correspondence. Latour’s portrait of the artist as a young man demonstrates a precocious bildungsroman – Rimbaud, at the start of his career, had already achieved a poetic maturity he could not sustain in adulthood. 

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Symphonies, Cinema, and Screwing: Maestro, Tár, and Mahler

By James Young

In recent years, two films about classical music conductors have been released, featuring two different means of telling stories about the way creativity and eroticism interact. Beyond this, they share a score that heavily features the symphonies of Gustav Mahler, a man who married a woman half his age. Mahler was tormented by poor health which gave him a morbid fascination with his own mortality and how to transcend it. What he sought to do was reach into the future by writing music, like the great symphonic composers before him. Leonard Bernstein, the protagonist of the recent biopic Maestro, gave his image and performances to posterity by embracing live recording in both music and television. There are hours and hours of footage of Bernstein lecturing, rehearsing as well as performing, which he lends himself to with his charisma and gregariousness as well as a captivating and energetic style of conducting. A year before Maestro came out, Cate Blanchett played the fictional Lydia Tár in a much darker portrayal of callous lasciviousness and how musical excellence can and cannot justify it. 

Gustav Mahler composed the fifth symphony after suffering a brain haemorrhage. This meant the rousing vocal lines of his previous symphonies are no longer present, but a romantic tinge is still evident in the most famous of all Mahler’s work: the adagietto fourth movement, composed for his wife, Alma. Leonard Bernstein explained how this movement is marked by an ambiguity, a feature of Mahler’s marriage. He was not a benign husband, belittling Alma for her youth, which in his eyes meant that her music lacked “individuation.” To him, this justified his insistence that she stop composing her own music as there could only be one composer in their marriage. This contrasts with Alma’s previous lover who was also an older Jewish composer as well as being her piano teacher. Mahler said that his predecessor’s encouragement of her composition was only due to her status as an attractive young girl. For her part, Alma was (despite her taste in men) an antisemite who called her only surviving child a “half breed.” She was also less than honest in her management of Mahler’s posthumous legacy, going so far as to doctor his letters to portray him as lacking any sexuality beyond his attraction to her. 

The ambiguity of the adagietto is transposed onto Bernstein’s marriage in Maestro. The halfway point of the film, when the movement is performed, follows a montage of Bernstein and his wife Felicia raising their young family. Up until he meets her, he is only portrayed as having relationships with other men but the progression of his career requires him to “conduct his life” and, as with many gay men of the time, to keep up a conventional straight public persona. As Mahler’s adagietto creeps its way into the crescendo, we are shown an uneasy Felicia Bernstein, from afar but still distinct in the shadow cast by her husband conducting on the podium. This performance marks the point of the movie of a formal transition between two styles of filmmaking and even literal formats of the film: monochrome and colour. 

In Tár, the adagietto movement also marks a transition. We never hear the movement in its totality, but rather an incremental buildup in a series of rehearsals, wherein we only hear snippets followed by a frustrated Lydia Tár halting the orchestra and agonising over how it should be played. When she is finally satisfied and the end of the movement is reached and tears leave the eyes of those listening, Tár decides to manoeuvre to further satisfy her lust by selecting an accompanying song that her sexual fascination, the new cellist, could solo on. To do so she promotes her and brings her into a relationship of professional and personal intimacy. This is a type of relationship that Tár is familiar with, given that her wife is the first violinist of her orchestra and she is having an affair with her assistant. There is even an implication that this kind of thing has institutional precedent when in a conversation between Tár and her predecessor at the Berlin philharmonic, Tár asks him for advice on how to handle rumours regarding “sexual impropriety.” Moreover, Tár fires a carryover assistant from her predecessor’s tenure and while doing so, she implies that they were also conducting an affair by accusing him of “misogamy” (hatred of marriage), keeping an apartment on the same floor as him. 

This consecration of the private and the professional is not alien to Leonard Bernstein. Much like Alma Mahler, Bernstein was reported to have been engaged in an affair with his conducting teacher. The second half of Maestro also includes Leonard Bernstein’s assistant who was thirty years his junior and that he was in a relationship with. Bernstein brings his assistant into his home, which drives a wedge between him and his wife. This is followed by a crucial scene where Felicia, played tenderly by Carey Mulligan, tells Bernstein, played by Bradley Cooper, that his ego is out of control and his lack of discretion regarding his sexuality is jeopardising their family. The scene is sharp and theatrical, with the camera sitting wide and staying still, simply letting the actors’ fence with their exclamations. Their relationship is not repaired by any active effort of either party, but rather by a performance of Mahler’s Symphony No. 2, “Resurrection,” and Felicia’s subsequent realisation that this famous performance in Ely cathedral was not an imposition of Bernstein’s talent, as she had said of all his other performances. This performance was, for Felicia, evidence of the purity of his heart. This rings a little hollow and if it were not for Mulligan’s animated yet delicate performance, some of the lines would feel somewhat on the nose. 

“Tár” is not so reliant on musical splendour to propel the plot and character arcs. The director Todd Field and lead actor Cate Blanchet craft a character with a commanding screen presence but also a horrifying callousness. The viewer is left guessing her fate till the final shot, when the pathos of the character is on full display. Knowing this, the film rewards multiple viewings by filling it with significant details, such as what characters order at restaurants. Even the first line of the film, where Tár, in her role as musicologist, tells a tribal singer to “sing as if the microphone was not there,” gains an ironic twist when her bellicose lecture is secretly recorded, exposing her antagonization of a shy student who explains his inability to relate to the dead European men who dominate classical music. While her downfall is cathartic, the filmmakers are never clear about the moral judgement they make on Lydia Tár, to the annoyance of some critics and commentators in the real world of classical music. She explicitly worships her predecessors, both the composers whose works she conducts, as well as the conductors that inspired her, key among them Leonard Bernstein. The way that the film characterises her talents seems to imply that on that basis alone, she deserves to join their lofty heights. Moreover, as has been seen, her sins of “sexual impropriety” do not discount others from ascending to the same exulted ranks. Cue pontification about separating art and artist. 

Rather than wading into that discussion, a parallel between Lydia Tár’s aggrandizing of the tradition she upholds, and that of the writer/director/star of Maestro, can be made. Bradley Cooper is a competent director, but with Maestro he seems to want to transcend that and make some kind of statement. His style evokes directors who were more than capable of this, with the monochrome first half heavily indebted to Fellini in all his sharp contrast glory, then the second half simmers down into an intimate John Cassavetes domestic drama. Where these directors took their time to craft sequences that were fitting for their specific content and the broader development of the film, and in so doing develop an idiomatic style, Cooper simply adopts them and mangles them together with Mahler and Carey Mulligan as the glue. Perhaps it can be said that instead of composing a film, Cooper is merely conducting one already composed by other directors. Moreover, there is something about the script that does not really sit right. The dialogue can be very on the nose, since a lot of it is taken almost verbatim from interviews and memoirs from Bernstein and those closest to him, which gives the effect of the referentiality of world building as if it were a part of the Leonard Bernstein extended universe. The plot also never really feels deliberate, since Cooper wants to cover the entirety of a lifelong marriage in two hours, meaning that rather than finding a specific and coherent story from Bernstein’s marriage that could be a synecdoche for its entirety, Cooper chooses to jump from scene to scene and indeterminate period to indeterminate period, without much to attach them. 

Perhaps this is Cooper’s understanding of a character piece, where characters simply explicate their feelings and musical performances are so powerful and spectacular as to be enough to overcome conflict and tortured psyches. If it were not for the admittedly excellent performances and deft cinematography, the film would come off a lot more trite. As it is, Maestro operates best as an ode or homage, where Cooper celebrates the directors that influenced him and the conductor whose story enraptured him, but it still feels like there is a performed weight, where the film asks to be considered with more gravitas that it can justify. Unfortunately, and this must be said, Cooper seems to want to embody the sophistication and the grandiosity that someone like Bernstein represents to him but can ultimately only pastiche it. This is an irony that Tár falls victim to as well when she complains that she can only summon pastiche in her conducting yet chooses as her album cover a literal imitation of Claudio Abbado’s recording of the same symphony. 

I came across a picture of Bradley Cooper reading a copy of Nabokov’s Lolita with his former girlfriend, who was about half his age, in a public park. I don’t intend to moralise on the matter of their age difference, but rather ask: why did he do so in public and with a choice of book that was so on the nose. There’s that phrase again, as Bernstein would say about some repeating musical motif in a televised lecture; but here the phrase can refer to a literal nose, perhaps the prosthetic one worn by Bradley Cooper to play Bernstein. I think this public enjoyment of Lolita is much like the artifice of the nose, which was an artifice that seemed to communicate some kind of perverse self-awareness. However, the prosthetic nose in Maestro can symbolise an attempt by Cooper to transcend himself and stop letting his ego get the better of him, as Bernstein learnt to do as the film concluded. Of course, it is not so simple, and while Maestro wants to feel sincere, it comes off as if it was conceived by someone who forgot how to feel sincerity. But to call this man a narcissist, a man who simultaneously wrote, directed and starred in a film as a celebrated artist, is redundant. 

Where Tár succeeds is in how the filmmakers maintain an appropriate critical distance, by which they and, by proxy, the viewers get to live in the ambiguity of their story and the ‘truth’ of the matter. In an interview Cate Blanchett calls the story “Greek” in the way that it demonstrates how the tragedy of the supposedly glorious is not just found in some external circumstance, but ultimately and ironically in themselves. Tár seeks to assert her individuality in the face of the tradition of classical music but is met with a fate that is shared by other conductors who thought they were too talented and captivating to be ruined by their undisciplined egos. Mahler wanted to transcend his humble beginnings and an upbringing tainted by child mortality, but he lost one of his children and would later die due to a defective heart inherited from his mother. His music was banned under the Nazis for his Jewish heritage and almost forgotten due to its perceived kitsch and overwrought late romantic style. It took till Leonard Bernstein’s generation, half a century later, to revive interest in him and canonise him in the tradition of symphonic music. What the filmmakers of Tár and Mahler (in his later compositions at least) have in common is an understanding of the iterative nature of their artistry, how they are merely a new expression of something much older. Whereas Maestro is a just replication, a costume of monumentality being adorned by a passable film, which only highlights its mediocrity. Perhaps the worship of your predecessors only leads to a strange fixation, where you fashion an image for yourself that replicates that which you’ve identified in your predecessors, with all the “impropriety” you feel for them being justified when reflected back on you. 

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