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Travel

To Live in the Past

By Tom Russell

Mongolia. This was a place like no other. A land of extremes where normality does not exist. Being here was like time travelling to the wild west. Travelling to a different universe where life is completely alien. 

Hal and I had been here now a month. On a farm near Orkhon, up north. We hopped on a train from Ulaanbaatar, sharing our carriage with two grannies. We waited at the station for Mingee. A few hours of waiting and we still hadn’t heard from her. We slept on the benches as people eyed us. This woman after looking at us for a while said ‘Mingee?’. ‘Yes Mingee, Mingee”. She started to move about drawing out an imaginary map on the ground. All we understood was that we had to cross a river and then the railroad and that was our destination. Safe to say we stayed put. 

A woman came up to us. She wasn’t Mingee but she was going to bring us to her. She pointed to a truck. We jumped into the back of the truck, lying amidst chopped lumber. We drove through the town. People riding around on horseback, cows milling about. A little boy hopped in the back with us and later jumped back out when he was clearly home. We came to a stop. 

We stayed a few days at Mingee’s parents’ place in the village. A small, fenced area with the grandparent’s ger and their garden, a cooking area and then another ger and some small barns and paddocks. Here we met Schmetterling and Galeile. They were working for Mingee as well. A couple hitchhiking across the world. Schmetterling was from Germany. A dreaded, psychedelic-taking voyager. Galeile was a doctor from Belgium. A great duo. 

We slept in our tent on the concrete floor in the kitchen. A room with a wood burning stove and cheese hanging up to dry. We spent our days building fences and getting our stomachs used to the Mongolian diet, which consisted of this fatty meat cooked in more fat. We had a horse, called Chaton. Hal would train him and later would teach me how to ride. 

After a few days we moved to Mingee’s farm. Further out from the village. She had her house, which she shared with her daughter, and a building where us workers stayed. We cooked on the wood stove outside and ate our meals on the porch. An American named Fynn was with us now. He played the tin whistle and only spoke in jokes.

This was it, truly in the middle of nowhere. The horizon was only limited by my eyesight. Never ending expanses of plains. The Orkhon river passed through below in the valley. This was it; we were out there. Pure life, without superficialities. This was life to the bone, living in Mongolia and shitting in a hole. 

Mingee was this Mongolian woman who lived here and ran the farm by herself. She had forty or so cows and a few hundred horses. An unbelievably strong woman. You needed to be to survive out here and to last winter. 

We would wake and herd the cows. Riding around on horses screaming ‘Chandar’ with our sticks. Chasing the calves into this little pen and then Mingee would milk them while we tied them up. Mingee and her daughter savagely beat any cow who wasn’t behaving. Boots slammed into their side. Amidst the violence Hal and I began naming the calves. Double Decker, Milky Way, Oreo. This emotional attachment to animals is something that Mingee and Mongolians don’t feel. There’s no space for sentimentality here. To Mongolians, animals are simply resources. Resources to aid in their mission to survive. As such they get treated accordingly. I’ve watched as a cowboy named Marlboro cracked a plank of wood in half over his horse’s head, while others punched their horses in the face. Mingee even asked the local policeman to shoot her dog after it killed someone’s goat.

During the day Hal and I would do construction, building the shed. We built it out of scrap wood and rusty nails. Hal was the brains of the operation, coming up with the plan and then ordering me about to carry the logs of wood. It worked well that way and by the end we had ourselves a shed which we reckoned would make it through winter without collapsing. 

After a day’s work, if we had the energy, we would take some horses and go for a ride. Riding around the mountain as the sky turned purple with every sunset. After dinner we would sit on the porch, playing games and chatting. Schmetterling in the first few days had discovered a plantation of wild weed, which he started harvesting and drying out, so he would enjoy his homemade joint at the end of the day.

And that was about it. That was our daily schedule and yet no day would ever be the same. Everyday all these simple tasks turned into a nutty adventure. But overall, life here was barebones. It was simple and beautiful. The simplicity gave you the space to bathe in the beauty.

Everything was about survival. About preparing for winter. Food you didn’t get at your local supermarket. If you ran out of food, you killed for your food. You had a slaughtering day. Cows during the harsh winter lose their fat while horses don’t so it makes more sense to eat the cows in the summer and horses in the winter. We were there in summer. We had run out of food to eat so today’s job was to solve that. Hal, myself, Mingee’s daughter’s boyfriend Tomo and Marlboro went out to find the cow Mingee wanted to kill. Marlboro chased the cow into the horses’ pen, where we shut the gates blocking him in. There were four of us in there with this one cow. Marlboro and Tomo throwing lassos, trying to hook his horns. The cow charging about. Eventually the lasso landed around its horns, but the rope was ripped out of Marlboro’s hands. Tomo dashed to grab it with the cow running, he grabbed it and quickly spun around a pole. With the rope wrapped around the pole, the cow buckled in his stride and fell to the ground. 

Hal and I timidly helped drag the cow to the killing site. Marlboro and Tomo whacking him with their sticks. With ropes now around his legs we pulled him to the ground, pinning him down. My hands pressing his forelegs onto the ground. Marlboro pulled out a penknife and thrust it in between his eyes. I struggled to hold his legs down which struck out in spasm. My eyes didn’t leave his eyes. large. Terrified. The spasms slowed and his eyes stopped moving.

Marlboro started gutting the cow and butchering the meat. An entire cow killed and butchered with a penknife. He grunted directions to us now and then in Mongolian, we tried to work out what he wanted us to do. Squeeze the feces out of its intestines, hold back this leg, grab that lung, carry the head over there. Not a single bit of that cow was wasted. Everything was a resource that was too valuable to waste. The only thing left behind was its skin, left out for the birds. The meat lasts the longest while the organs are the first to go off. We placed the meat in a freezer box, while all the organs were all put in one pot and boiled in water. That was dinner for the near future. 

The organs teamed with cucumbers bought from the local policeman was an interesting combination. A combination that didn’t do many favors for my digestion. It was a relief to the group when Schmetterling decided enough was enough and set out to build a toilet. It ended up being more of a throne. A nice wooden throne with a view. I’d sit there and take in the view. Nothing but the steppe with horses grazing in the distance

Mongolian horses are famous around the world. In Mongolia people’s horses roam free until they were needed and then are captured. We had three horses at the farm for daily life while the rest of Mingee’s horses roamed free. The horses are branded for identification but often some run away and never return. They either stay lost, or cross paths with the wolves. Mongolian horses are small in stature but incredibly resilient and strong. 

One day we spent branding some of the younger horses. I think it may have been one of the craziest days of my life. We went back down to the farm in the village. Nasa, a cowboy, and a few teenagers from the town had led a herd of thirty or so horses into the farm, and we shut the gates. You could see the stallion straight away. The stallions always had a longer mane and possessed more muscle. We started by trying to separate one from the herd. We would push the herd into a corner and the cowboys would try lasso the horse. The horses obviously didn’t take too kindly to this so they would try bolt out of there, crashing through whatever fences were blocking them in. Once a lasso stuck, we would tackle it to the ground and then tie his front legs together. No horse likes to be pinned to the ground and so we would have to wrestle with it. Usually there would be two of us wrestling it while someone else shaved its hind leg to prepare the skin for the brand. And then the brand would be placed on. This process of wrestling was hard enough without the commotion going around you. All the other horses galloping around you. I was even wrestling one horse on the ground when I heard a crash behind me of a horse breaking through a fence and then jumps over the top of me. Absolute madness. All the Mongolians were drinking vodka, pouring it down your throat while you’re on top of a horse. At one-point Fynn and Nasa started wrestling each other. Having some sort of competition amidst this chaos.

That night we threw a party for the local village. A night spent necking vodka while chanting and dancing around a fire. There was this beautiful girl there but safe to say it didn’t go too well considering I only spoke English and I asked her if she was from Orkhon, which was the only village for a few hundred miles. Mongolians love their vodka to the point they could hardly walk, and yet would collapse on top of their horses and gallop home. I lay by the fire, admiring the stars. After twenty years of living, I’ve somehow ended up here, lying on this patch of grass in Mongolia. Sometimes I think I know things, that I’ve learnt these profound lessons, but I think the only thing I know is that you have got to be open to it. Open to life and everything that entails. All the weirdness of it that makes it special. 

This is just a brief description of what life was like in Mongolia. Every day was another adventure. I could never recount it all but from branding horses to castrating cows, we experienced a lot. But time on the farm was coming to an end. We were going to take some of the horses and go for a long old ride for a few days, before heading back to Ulaanbaatar.

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Poetry

Great Western Rail

By Esme Bell

 

On a train, it is easy

To feel smooth and tubular 

As glass or fake air 

That has never breathed 

Freely; but it only takes 

The sun to crack  

The rim of clouds and weep 

Orange tears – like Turner’s  

Eyes are bleeding and paradise 

Is lost after all – before you’re 

Crying too, unmoored, and rollerskate 

Into the ending of a day. 

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Reviews

Review: Noah Kahan Live

By Maggie Baring

I find myself, once again, unable to write about anything other than Noah Kahan. Hot off the heels of a Grammy nomination this February and a final re-release of his Stick Season album — complete with a new song, ‘Forever’, and eight other songs featuring special guests such as Hozier and Sam Fender — Noah Kahan played two sold out shows at Wembley Arena this week. I had the utter privilege of witnessing night two. The tickets were bought months ago, before Noah Kahan was huge, before Grammy nominations and number ones, so they were highly anticipated. 

Even so, the cheapest seats I could find saw us sitting at, laughably, the furthest point from the stage. You could not have picked a worse seat. The electricity of the entire evening nevertheless assured that not a single person in the arena left without being moved in some way. Kahan himself, in one of his many quippy comments between songs, outlined his aim for the evening: that if anybody left the concert with a smile on their face, he had not done his job properly. This was undoubtedly met with laughter, and as I looked around me it was definitely difficult to find a frowning one. In fact, Noah Kahan fans, of which I proudly call myself an avid one, are very lovely people. The atmosphere of love, empathy and charged emotion shared between ten thousand people, gently swaying to the slower more gut-wrenching songs, or dancing manically — arms around one another or holding hands — to the faster-paced songs, can be attributed to the kind of people who listen to Noah Kahan’s music. I have been to my fair share of concerts where the fans have felt on-par with rowdy football fans, and so I understand first-hand how an atmosphere in a venue as well as the attitude of the audience can affect the impression of the music. Kahan has spoken frequently about his gratitude to his parents for encouraging him from a very early age to be open about his emotions, and teaching him how to convey them through talking and later singing. The fans that flock to listen to his songs are similarly emotionally intelligent. There was a deep sense of camaraderie and support, and my friend and I spoke to surrounding fans at our seats in the very back with a friendliness that one rarely finds among strangers. A shared love of music, and an understanding of the deep feelings that underlie each song, is truly a powerfully bonding force. 

Now onto the concert itself. After a rather drawn out start to the concert, with an opening from up-and-coming Wild Rivers at 7.30pm, a set that only lasted 45 minutes followed by an hours wait, Kahan emerged onto a golden-lit stage complete with drummer, bassist and electric guitarist. He himself switched from mandolin, electric and acoustic guitars regularly. A banjo was even thrown in occasionally. I was struck in equal measure by Kahan’s vocal control and musicianship, from both him and his band members. Being able to remain in-tune when the cheers and voices of ten thousand are drowning out almost all other sounds (his in-ear monitors would help with this, no doubt), is a feat that is often taken for granted by audiences in large venues. Vocal deviations from the recorded versions of songs — added vocal riffs or ‘oohs’, for example — make audiences feel special, like they are witnessing something fresh and new. Many of Kahan’s songs have instrumental breaks that offer space for guitar solos, complete with knee slides and complex drum fills that prompted raucous screams from the crowds. The image of Kahan himself, labelled as ‘Hairy Styles’ or ‘Jewish Capaldi’ acting out energetic rock guitar moves, whilst singing incredibly sad songs about mental health or the death of his dog, was rather bizarre and created some funny moments. But his self-depreciating attitude (beginning the set calling himself ‘your favourite non-Grammy winner’) means that we are always laughing with him, never at him. 

Much to our delight, Kahan brought out James Bay (who had brought Kahan on tour when he was nineteen, launching his career) and Ben Howard to sing harmonies and verses on songs. James Bay was more impressive, singing the second verse on ‘Growing Sideways’ with his classic low and vibrato’d grain, whilst Ben Howard could hardly be heard in his harmonies in ‘Orange Juice’. The guests rushed on and off the stage in quick succession however, retaining full attention on Kahan himself. 

The energy ebbed and flowed throughout the set, beginning with some powerful rock numbers including ‘Northern Attitude’ and ‘New Perspective’. Kahan was then left on his own on the stage, armed only with an acoustic guitar, captivating the audience in near silence as he sang his sadder, slower acoustic songs. He even graced us with a new song, and two songs from his oldest album, which delighted my friend who had been listening to Kahan since she was fifteen when the album, ‘Busyhead’ came out. Kahan left his most famous song, ‘Stick Season’ until the very end, and taunted the audience by leaving the stage before he played it, claiming it to be the end of the set. The cheers and screams during this tense few minutes raised the electricity to new heights and by the time he reemerged to reveal he was going to play three more songs, almost everybody was screaming. Although not my favourite Kahan song, one cannot deny that the single that sent Kahan to stratospheric fame deserves every credit it receives. There is something completely revolutionary about hearing it live. The song is incredibly lyrically complex, and yet every single word of the song was sung clearly by the audience, drowning out Kahan’s own voice. It is clear from watching his face as he sings this song that he is still not used to how it changed his life, and how it resonates with his audiences. 

Noah Kahan now leaves England to continue his tour in France, then Germany and other European countries. He will return to England in August. Get your tickets if it’s the last thing you do.

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Poetry

Pear

By Vadim Goss

Photo credit – artsy.net: Larry Preston, Three Pears, 2022

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Perspective

A Modern Day Lent

By Xanthe de Wesselow

Expanding from its roots in ancient Pagan rituals, Lent has evolved into a sacred period within the Christian tradition. Manifesting itself as a 40 day period, it now serves as an engagement in special spiritual preparation of prayer, penance and abstinence in anticipation of Easter. Although modern interpretations are often associated with restrictive trends and fad dieting, such as the removal of any form of refined sugar (otherwise known as joy) from our lives, the Lenten season was traditionally a more rigorous religious observance characterised by a strict fast, broken only with a simple meal devoid of meat, eggs, dairy, and alcohol after sunset, accompanied by deep introspection and prayer.

Historically, it was therefore a necessary custom to deplete all existing supplies of rich, fatty products such as butter, milk, sugar, and eggs the day prior to Lent, hence Shrove Tuesday’s worldwide nickname ‘Pancake Day’. Ash Wednesday then arrives after sufficient ‘shriving’, or presenting oneself to a priest for confession, marking a significant tradition in preparation for the Lenten season. However, in today’s money, Shrove Tuesday has been overshadowed by commercial interests, as supermarkets and societal pressures now lead us to believe it should be a profitable day of excessive spending and materialistic home decorations that can be religiously documented on social media. The once meaningful observance has transformed into a commercialised phenomenon, where the true essence of the tradition, such as the allegories behind each ingredient, is often lost amidst the consumerism.

The irony reaches new heights as your local Tesco will fool you into stocking up on three different types of cookie-based spread one day, only to be bombarded by endorsements from a plethora of wellness influencers and Instagram gut health gurus the next, promoting kimchi and kombucha as essential Lenten ‘healthy habits’. Paradoxically, lest us forget the Easter eggs that have dominated the shelves since as early as January 2nd, blurring the lines between seasonal observances and consumerist indulgence. It’s no wonder any form of New Year’s Resolution crumbles by the time Blue Monday arrives, yet another marketing ploy to capitalise on the wellness industry (but have you tried meditation?). Such is the absurdity of our commercialised culture, where tradition and spirituality often take a backseat to profit-driven agendas.

Lent, in its contemporary guise, appears like a slap in the face and a mocking reminder following as if to say, ‘your will power didn’t last very long then… fancy another go?’. This time, however, we are taunted by the tiny glimpse of promised bait dangling 39 days away, symbolised by mini-egg-infused delicacies and gold foil-wrapped bunnies. There is no denying it is bizarre. How, in two thousand years, has society transformed a period of quiet reflection into a trendy, competitive game of social media one-upmanship; a strategic rivalry of who’s giving up what? Even better if you are taking up something and actually sticking to it. I mean who does that?

So, in our body image, diet obsessed culture, we have come to see Lent as a period perfect for purging ourselves of something we think we can’t live without for just long enough. Then, when we’ve counted down the days and proved our virtuosity and self-will, we can reason with our inner voice to return to our pre-Lent addictions and maybe even binge them. The chocolate bars, coffee, alcohol, scroll holes and internet shopping can return once more, and even better, we feel justified to do it all in abundance because ‘you deserve it, you’ve abstained the whole of Lent!’. First, of course, there’s the chance to baske in the glory of virtual applause, as your Lenten sacrifice repeatedly merits itself under meticulously curated hashtags. It’s a vicious cycle of self-deprivation followed by indulgence, all punctuated by the invisible reward of a distant validation, a far cry from the 40 days Lent was intended to be. Nothing says spiritual enlightenment nor religious observance like an Instagram diary of temporary abstinence…

In our digital age, it has become increasingly fashionable to not only give up something for the Lenten season but also to take up new practices, many of which feed into the continually booming health and wellness industry. From committing to ‘40 sea swims’ or ‘40 days of yoga’, these endeavours are extensions to the popular New Year’s Resolutions that saturate social media each January. Whether we find ourselves embracing ice baths or daily stretching routines, we unwittingly become swept up in the Lenten frenzy, as it seems the most important aspect of these trends is to tell everyone you’re doing it (otherwise what’s the point?). Ultimately, the essence of Lent has been overshadowed by the need to showcase any such endeavour. Our younger selves might have often joked about giving up Lent for Lent. Now, I think we need to give up talking and digitally broadcasting about Lent. Perhaps then, the season would be one of growth and reflection should we want to participate, rather than a form of superficial self-validation.

Are we missing the point altogether? The Christian Church offers us almsgiving, prayer and fasting as the three pillars to focus on during Lent. In layman’s terms, we’re advised to give charity, thanks and abstain from food and drink for the 40 days that Jesus spent fasting in the desert and enduring temptation by Satan. Yet, here we are in 2024 taking a more self-absorbed approach than ever. We’ve moved so far away from personal reflection and spiritual growth that Lent is now more a spectacle of performative piety. Forget the sacrificial chocolate bar or glass of wine, it seems the public declarations and digital validation are what has become of this annual Christian practice.

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Poetry

for Her.

By Daniel Ali

for Her. 

I hate to be the poet that professes an 

undying love for a beautiful soul. 

By declaring her smile would undoubtedly 

brighten the earth more than a summers 

day in May. 

Who discusses the extravagantly detailed 

pools of mahogany which surround her 

pupils. 

Who encourages conversations of topics 

she loves just to hear the sounds she makes 

when joining letters to form words.

I hate to have someone read this poetry as a cliche, 

In contrary belief to millennial ideologies of cringe,

If I, 

a self acclaimed poet, 

in attempts to profess an undying love,

   Collected every single word from every

         single language, and every 

 ancient runic

      symbol or Egyptian hieroglyphic,

and comprehended them all!

 in all of their complexities!

Words would still fail me, and my feeble attempt to truly voice 

  my undying love 

       for Her. 

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Culture

The Blues: colour and emotion across art forms.

By Jack Fry

In Maggie Nelson’s musings of prose poetry on the colour blue, ’Bluets’, she references Ralph Waldo Emerson:

“For just because one loves blue does not mean that one wants to spend one’s life in a world made of it. ‘Life is a train of moods like a string of beads, and as we pass through them they prove to be many coloured lenses which paint the world their own hue, and each shows only what lies in its focus,’ wrote Emerson.” 

In 2019, I wandered around the Museu Picasso in Barcelona. Whilst moving through the chronology of Picasso’s work, I came across his blue period and was at that moment moved inexplicably. I gazed wide-eyed, drinking in their hues, saturating my eyes. These paintings are distinct from the rest of his work because they are bathed in the light of the blue hour, that time just after the sun has set that casts the world underwater. Picasso painted using an intense Prussian blue pigment at a time of inner turmoil, and I, like Picasso at that moment, was contained in a bead blown of Prussian blue glass. 

“Does the world look bluer from blue eyes? Probably not but I choose to think so (self-aggrandisement).” 

 Maggie Nelson, Bluets.

In 1953, ‘Ol’ Blue Eyes’ was not in a dissimilar emotional state to Picasso. In a career slump and deserted by his wife Ava Gardner, Frank Sinatra, attempted suicide in his bath. From this period of melancholy came what I and many believe to be Sinatra’s masterwork, “In the Wee Small Hours.” On the album cover, he leans against a street lamp in the gloom; he could almost exist among the forlorn and downtrodden characters of Picasso’s Blue period. “In the Wee Small Hours” is arguably the first concept album of all time. The development of the long-form vinyl prompted artists to consider the LP’s potential as a new format less restricted by timings – an opportunity for a cohesive artistic statement beyond just singles. So Frank began his remarkable run at Capitol with this brooding album of takes from the American songbook contemplating themes of lonesomeness, lost love and late-night ruminations. This quote from Bluets seems like the thesis statement of the album: 

“I don’t want to yearn for blue things, and God forbid any “blueness.” Above all, I want to stop missing you.”

Maggie Nelson

The motifs of the album permeate the orchestration with string arrangements rising and falling elegantly like the hazy smoke from a cigarette, and the percussion section sounding like those first stars to puncture the night sky. The languorous tempos sustained throughout the tracklist slow reality, building a kind of noirish reverie. 

‘I dim all the lights and I sink in my chair

The smoke from my cigarette climbs through the air

The walls of my room fade away in the blue

And I’m deep in a dream of you

My cigarette burns me, I wake with a start

My hand isn’t hurt, but there’s pain in my heart

Awake or asleep, every memory I’ll keep

Deep in a dream of you’ 

Deep in a Dream

Sinatra’s voice’s unique quality lies in his phrasing, and his ability to inhabit a mood, to convey emotion. On this album his vocal delivery is as if he were drunkenly confiding in the bartender, the tenderness in his vibrato amounts almost to a trembling lip. Adam Gopnik wrote in the New Yorker, “He sounds the way you would sound if you could speak the things you feel.”

This album gave me new insight into Sinatra, beyond the facade of bravado. Beneath the glamour and swagger, there was a sensitivity and a fatalism.

“’Cause there’s nobody who cares about me

I’m just a soul who’s bluer than blue can be

When I get that mood indigo

I could lay me down and die”

Mood Indigo 

Musicians often report visions of colour (or strong associations with colours) when listening to a song or note. I don’t believe that I have synaesthesia, this neurological condition where one sense merges with another. However, in listening to Sinatra, reading Nelson, and observing the work of Picasso, l noticed an interconnecting thread, all pieces of fabric sewn together on the same patchwork quilt. It was as if all three artists were telepathically in sync, as though they were seeing through the very same blue eyes, inhabiting the same Prussian blue bead. It felt meaningful yet hard to articulate.

An article in the New York Times on the colour blue referenced the painter Raoul Dufy’s fascination with blue and its “optical purity” saying that “blue unlike other colours can be brightened or dimmed, the artist said, and “it will always stay blue.” To me, this connects to these blue-related works. Nelson, Picasso and Sinatra convey an essence of human emotion, a distilled heartache and longing. The works resonate powerfully because they have an intensity that cannot be muted, it’s elemental like the blues of the sea and sky.

In writing this piece, I tried to refrain from discussing the tortured artist trope or romanticising depression as a necessary quality for creativity. Many creators are defined by this cliché and their famous bouts of depression as if they have a one-dimensional personality and are only capable of feeling sadness. It should be noted that these artists all went on to create work that revels in the “lighter” side of human experience, they found new ways of seeing, changed the colour of their iris and entered differently coloured beads. This is not to dismiss these darker works’ significance or emotional vibrancy but to only see blue is to neglect the beauty of any other colours. So as Nelson writes,

“And now, I think, we can say: a glass bead may flush the world with colour, but it alone makes no necklace. I wanted the necklace.”

In ‘Bluets’ Nelson quotes Wittgenstein’s remark, “If only you do not try to utter what is unutterable then nothing gets lost.” 

I have tried to utter the unutterable and I have not in my writing communicated what I felt experiencing their art, but perhaps you will find that lost quality and purity of emotion and feel it too if you seek out these works, adding a bead to your necklace.

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Perspective

A Sit Down with James Marriott

By Cosmo Adair

James Marriott is a columnist and podcast reviewer for The Times.

The interview began with the ping of a notification: James Marriott has joined your meeting. Zooming, as we were, I can only write a head-and-shoulders portrait of James, framed by the glistening shelves of the Times’s bookroom. He wore a salmon pink shirt and a pair of large wide-framed glasses, which donnishly slipped down his nose as his conversation grew more energetic. His hair was half-messy, fine, placing him somewhere between the respectable columnist and the abstracted poet. But how to render someone’s physical presence when you’re interviewing them online? So, as I watched the recording and copied out the transcript, I scribbled brief, italicised stage-directions: As I ask this, he leans forward, rubs his eyes to tease out a thought, and then jolts up and bursts into enthusiastic speech. That captures all the reader needs to know: the charming, if unexpected, engagement and enthusiasm of a renowned writer speaking to a provincial, student magazine. 

Marriott grew up just outside of Newcastle, where ‘I really didn’t want to grow up … It felt like I should have been born down south, and that it had been a cosmic mistake that landed me there.’ He spent his time reading voraciously (‘novels, poetry, all that kind of stuff,’ including ‘a lot of Dickens novels’ and ‘a lot of Iris Murdoch’) and listening to formative rants from his Nihilist father, who spoke ‘about how human beings are all just collections of atoms and that we live in this materialist universe where love was just a chemical … That’s not, you know, the most optimistic way to be brought up.’ And so he passed his schooldays, pacing about the playground as he recited Auden’s “Musée des Beaux Arts” (‘I was, unfortunately, pretentious’), and dreamed of moving south for university—his sights set firmly on Oxford, and having watched the Granada adaptation of Brideshead Revisited, ‘I’d convinced myself it was going to be, you know, befriending aristocrats and discussing poetry over port and driving around in vintage cars.’ On arrival, however, he was ‘hideously disappointed that people were normal’—in spite of which, he was resolute in enjoying it since if he didn’t ‘it would have destroyed the entire purpose of my teenage years.’ 

After Oxford, he hoped to ingratiate himself with Literary London since ‘at the time, it seemed like the most glamorous thing to write a book review for a national publication.’ But this took time. For three years, he worked in an antiquarian bookshop where he would ‘[sit] in monkish silence,’ cataloguing books.  During this period, he sent out poems and article proposals to newspapers and magazines until The Times took him on. Still there, he is a columnist, podcast reviewer, occasional feature writer, and a regular guest on Times Radio’s flagship podcast, Matt Chorley’s “Politics Without The Boring Bits.” His interview with Calvin Robinson (‘So you wouldn’t say that Enoch Powell was a racist, I ask, my incredulity doubtless signalling to him that I am a woke liberal of the most mindlessly ovine disposition’) and his feature “How I fell in love with Serge Gainsbourg (‘To anybody who has ever regretted being born on the pallid and puritanical side of the Channel, he offers an exotic vision of what might have been: semi-permanent drunkenness, a bohemian contempt for all shirt buttons above the navel, a career of chaotic offence-giving rewarded with public adulation’) cry out expectantly for an anthology of his writings. 

I’ve often found that what makes his columns distinctive is his tone. He has an excellent grasp of the ‘contemporary moment,’ all the while seeming rather uncharmed by it. He’s ‘a bit of a technophobe … sceptical that TikTok is particularly good for anybody and for people’s intellectual lives,’ and he worries about the ‘dumbing down of culture and people, and being passively accepted.’ Therefore, his columns can seem pessimistic—but isn’t that just the age? ‘The cultural atmosphere is pretty gloomy, and I know people have always thought this, but when you think Trump in America, the Environment, AI, massive tech companies, Biden losing his marbles, the Housing Crisis—it’s kind of reasonable to be gloomy.’ 

Fitzgerald once wrote that ‘the test of a first-rate intelligence … [is to] be able to see that things are hopeless and yet be determined to make them otherwise.’ I think that Marriott passes this test. He might not match the intensity of Fitzgerald’s clash of embittered cynicism and wilful optimism, but he shows a persistent attention to both sides of an argument: ‘I think that whatever you’re writing, you can accept that for any opinion which can be expressed in the space of a thousand words, there’s an opposite opinion that’s equally true and can also be expressed in a thousand words.’ 

Talking about AI, he shows this: ‘My original take was that I think the crucial thing will be that people do care about the fact that something comes from another human being. We have these strong intuitions about art and literature coming from human beings, and the whole point of art is to connect us with human beings.’ His interview with John Gray—whom Marriott paraphrases as arguing ‘disaster looms, AI’s going to replace everyone’s jobs, we’re all screwed’—led him to a more despairing position. That was eased by a conversation with someone who had read his article who said that ‘there’s this kind of mindless optimism about what the technology’s capable of.’ Now, he thinks that ‘we shouldn’t extrapolate infinite potential from something that can just write plausible sentences.’ 

Despite his concerns ‘about how natural text will be to people’s experience in the future,’ he remains a passionate advocate of literature and the literary. Last year, he found himself in the somewhat absurd position of being criticised by The Bookseller for arguing that some books are better than others. ‘The thing is, I find it really hard to believe that many people do actually believe that all books are the same. I think that’s also just not true either.’ This leads to the “Culture Wars” and the recent tendency to value a literary work according to its political message as opposed to its aesthetic triumphs. But this isn’t new: ‘In the 30s there was an awful lot of incredibly pious and tedious stuff written about, like, the importance of the voices of the workers and the voices of the working class … and it’s really fascinating, as well, if you go back to 19th century Russia, there was so much stuff about, was Turgenev a Liberal, or what exactly was he? Was such-and-such a Socialist? … I guess the kind of unifying theme of those moments is that those are societies which were undergoing dramatic social and political change.’ In any case, the freedom of expression—whatever the climate—is one of his most deeply held values: ‘I think that whether or not you’re on Salman Rushdie’s side is historically a pretty good test of whether you’re a serious person or not.’ 

But the anxiety and self-criticism of a “Culture War” can benefit a society. ‘It is easily forgotten that the intellectual history of the West is much more turbulent than we remember,’ and that the narratives we often study of a ‘West [that] has been unruffled and triumphalist in its progress’ simply isn’t true. He discusses Isaiah Berlin’s “Three Critics of the Enlightenment,” a book which discusses Giambattista Vico, Johann Gottfried Herder, and Johann Georg Hamann, all of whom cast doubt on the Enlightenment’s relentless progressive march. ‘From the very beginning, [they were] furious and righteous critics of all the Enlighten—, of the self-confidence of the Enlightenment, about Western Civilisation, the superiority of Western Civilisation and I think it’s—I mean, Herder, especially, can at times sound like he’s writing now [and] tweeting. [Herder says] how it’s ridiculous to think that Western Civilisation is superior to any other civilisations [since] all civilisations are fitted to this particular people and this particular place.’ Therefore, ‘doubt and self-criticism have always been in our culture.’ And whilst it’s ‘really annoying to live through it when it erupts as viciously as it does now … Perhaps it’s reassuring to think that this may just be a part of our culture in a liberal society. You know, we’re not in a Totalitarian state, we can’t impose one viewpoint on everyone. Everything will be furiously criticised because that’s what happens when you have free speech and liberal values.’ 

There are many on the hard right who view this doubt and self-criticism as a sign of decadence. But people have been saying this for what seems like forever—with both Gibbon in the 18th century, and Spengler in the 20th, trying to link cultural decadence with the ‘decline and fall’ of political or imperial orders. But Marriott takes a much more nuanced view, considering it to be endemic in the cultural lifecycle: ‘I do think that society does go through periods of cultural efflorescences, of brilliant innovation, followed by decadence, followed by renewal, and I think that we are all living in the aftermath of the sixties, which was one of the kind of extraordinary cultural moments in all of history.’ Referencing Ross Douthat’s The Decadent Society—which argues that culture hasn’t developed since the 60s, since ‘you can still go and see the Rolling Stones, follow the same superheroes’—Marriott then ponders whether the “Culture Wars” are simply ‘a part of us throwing off that inheritance and making something new.’

As I shut my laptop and shuffled down to Greggs for lunch, I thought of how I had come away with a renewed sense of Marriott and his ideas. I found he wasn’t as much of a pessimist as he self-deprecatingly claims to be. He’s more of a sceptic, perhaps: what he distrusts, I think, is the notion that any political or cultural viewpoint is wholly correct, and that if there has ever been such a woolly thing called ‘Truth’, it can only be found in the interaction of opposites, in conversation, and—perhaps, most of all—in reading.

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DUCFS 2024: ‘The Age of Inception’ 

By Maisie Jennings

#THEFUTUREISNOW is the hashtag encapsulating this year’s theme for DUCFS – ‘The Age of Inception’, and in its 41st year of running, it’s clear that the show continues to blaze a constantly apexing upward trajectory. This year’s campaign also marked the conception of the DUCFS Thread magazine, and DUCFS Launchpad, an independently funded outreach platform focused on developing creative opportunities across communities in the North East. Creatively and charitably, DUCFS emphasises new beginnings, as well as inciting lasting change into the future. In many ways, there is a multiplicity to the theme of ‘inception’ that concerns the show; it implies a futuristic creative vision, but also a direct engagement with expanding the growth and potential of what is already Europe’s largest student fundraiser. 

Molly Mihell, Vice-President and Creative Director, discusses the forward-looking ethos of DUCFS: ‘I’ve always been interested in looking ahead, in imagining where humanity may go and how innovation may continue to evolve, and I wanted to portray this exciting openness, breadth of possibility and process of constantly changing, developing, through DUCFS 2024’. I think this is a vision particularly resonant in the creative direction and production of walk releases and other promotional material – innovative graphics, dynamic video editing, and sleek visuals centre the creative potential of technology in a way that feels futuristic, elevated, and modern. As always, the amount of work and dedication that bring these shoots to life is astonishing – in having such a cohesive vision, the fashion and creative teams truly succeed in realising this fresh, futuristic take on this year’s campaign. 

Most importantly, DUCFS raises a phenomenal amount of money for charity. Last year, the show, and everybody involved, raised a staggering £221,000 for Rainbow Trust – a charity providing emotional support to families with a seriously ill child. This year, DUCFS is fundraising for CALM (Campaigning Against Living Miserably). CALM is an organisation that campaigns to open conversations about mental health, provide support for people who are struggling, and unite the UK in the fight against suicide. It’s a cause with poignant, heartfelt relevance as suicide becomes the leading cause of death in young people, and DUCFS aims to raise enough money to fund two extra phone lines on CALM’s suicide helpline. The efforts made by models and exec to fundraise for this life-saving cause in the lead up to the show have been phenomenal. There have been marathons, sponsored silences, 24 hour podcasts, and plunges into the freezing water of the North Sea – just to list a few of the brilliant ways the individuals of DUCFS fundraise. Dan Xiberras, one of the show’s 50 models, circumnavigated Palace Green for 24 hours – a massive testament to the enthusiasm and commitment to charitable causes that DUCFS fosters. 

In looking towards, and in many ways, inciting a bigger, brighter future, DUCFS continues to pioneer student fundraising and creativity. If you have managed to secure a ticket, I’m certain that there is, indeed, lots to look forward to.    

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Review: All of Us Strangers

By Edward Bayliss

If I could see the world through the eyes of a child

What a wonderful world this would be

In a nondescript apartment block somewhere in London, screenwriter Adam (Andrew Scott) struggles to write about his dead parents. As he reaches for a ready meal, the cold blue light from the inside of his refrigerator illuminates his bent-backed posture. Despite his enormous apartment windows overlooking the nation’s capital below, we only really see Adam in the  white glare of his television or computer screens. We are relieved when Scott’s character decides to leave the confinement and impersonality of his high-rise block to travel to his family home, presumably in search of inspiration. Adam stands atop a field and watches the slant of sunset ripple across trees and grasses. Then, in a strangely unthreatening supernatural moment, the voice of a man in the background beckons him to come ‘home’. The man is Adam’s father. ‘Dad’ (Jamie Bell) leads Adam into his 1980s decorated home where ‘Mum’ (Claire Foy) greets him affectionately. Soft amber light swims across yellowed wallpaper, and a thin cloud of cigarette smoke lends a grainy texture to the shot. Adam revisits his childhood (trauma); most notably, to reconcile his sexuality to his parents who were unwitting products of 1980s state-sanctioned homophobia. 

Andrew Haigh’s film operates, apparently, across the separate plot paths of Adam’s personal and familial history, and the ‘real-time’ story of his delicate but passionate relationship with fellow apartment block dweller, Harry (Paul Mescal). We first meet Harry as he knocks tentatively on Adam’s door – he grips a bottle of whiskey – an object that will gain some significance at the film’s climax. Adam confronts his loneliness by wandering somnambulantly into the oneiric episodes of his childhood, whereas Harry drinks deep in an act of burial and suppression. He has, as he admits defeatedly, ‘drifted to the edge’. They begin to talk. And talking, we should know already, is the only avenue of escape from the torture of loneliness. 

Above all else, All of Us Strangers is an acutely honest film. Unashamedly and forthrightly, the lens isn’t afraid to dig through the rubble of lost childhoods and reclaim something of intense value. With a cast of just four, whose faces seem always to fill the screen in extreme close ups, it perhaps can’t help but be sincere. Andrew Haigh’s film, however, lifts the lid on the traditional trauma-confrontation film and takes us on welcome diversions we didn’t know were accessible. The director focuses on the remarkably abstract and obscure way in which mental turmoil affects memory. 

Terrifyingly, Adam’s mind mangles time and reality. It has its toll on him – at one moment he sees his own face warped into some semblance of a screaming Francis Bacon portrait on the curved tube window. Like many directors before him, Haigh enjoys the use of glass and its distorting qualities in his shot selections. Adam finds it too easy to slip into his childhood life as it becomes an attachment onto which he clings relentlessly, almost unhealthily.  Harry  warns Adam: ‘Don’t let this get tangled up again.’ 

We learn two things from Adam’s progress through the film: 1. That you must coexist with your past self; 2. That in equal measure, you must learn to leave that past self behind when you no longer need it. Adam’s parents, you could say, are almost pseudo-Nanny McPhee characters, reminding us that ‘When you need me, but do not want me then I must stay. But when you want me but no longer need me, I have to go.’   

The lyrics that commence this review are heard near the end of the film when Adam meets with his parents for the last time. With golden light seeping into the edges of the shot, Scott’s character and his parents eat at their favourite American-style diner in Croydon. In an incredibly touching moment, Adam says goodbye for good, and they urge him on to his wide futures with Harry. Yes, Adam has seen the world again through the eyes of a child, and it was instrumental in his reckoning with the past, but he must now learn to look ahead, and wrestle with the complexities of 21st C. life and living.